Current Situation (personal life)
Added 2020-02-02 12:53:20 +0000 UTC(Please skip if you are not interested in whiny me)
I just want to say that if I somehow act a bit strange in your eyes right now I am very sorry for this.
I always have been struggling with mental health, sometimes it's better sometimes it worse. Currently, it's not that well. I have no energy and I'm overwhelmed and so on.
I am not sure about the reason why it's like this currently. Maybe several reasons like climate change, living in a city, stress and so on.
But I noticed when I visited my dad at Christmas I was much better. Being with my loved ones, nature and being around horses again. Maybe city life makes me sick? who knows. I mean I love my university and the friends I got there. I also want to graduate from university. But when I am done (march 2022) I will go back to my family and life there. It's something to be excited about but it's 2 years till then.
I will try my best to get better but I am still not sure how. I know there are many people out there who are also struggling with mental health and I don't want to be whiny and unprofessional but on the other hand, I want to be as transparent with you guys as possible.
Please be patient with me! >-<
And I hope you guys have a great weekend so far!
Comments
Thank you >-< We had much more sun, as usual, this winter but I will give it a try :)
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-07 19:24:59 +0000 UTCThank you so much >-< It felt good to share it. I normally try to not to show something because I am scared to annoy people or something
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-07 19:22:21 +0000 UTCI'm sorry to hear you are having such a rough go at it lately, but I hope things start turning up better for you soon. Take as much time as you need to keep yourself in a healthy balance of work and relaxation. It's no fun to hear about you being stressed, so we all want you to feel better soon. A lot of people forget about it or don't know, but in wintertime with no sun we lose a lot of vitamin D and it can be very important for seasonal depression and such. I highly highly recommend getting some vitamin D supplements. It takes a bit of time, but they seriously help me feel better in wintertime, all backed by science haha.
RGBrazberry
2020-02-04 16:55:21 +0000 UTCThat sounds really rough, I'm sorry you're going through a tough time and I wish there was something that we could do to help (and if there is, just say the word and we'll do our best.) If it's any consolation: it wasn't at all noticeable, though I'm glad you were willing to share your feelings, we're always happy to hear them, and we don't blame you in the slightest for feeling the way you do! Mad respect for sticking with it and always having something to look forward to!
egg
2020-02-04 01:02:49 +0000 UTCI will try my best to add breaks to my weeks. >.< thank you so much for your help and support! ♥
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-03 20:16:45 +0000 UTCI sometimes ask my self why I act a certain way it's not always but I am glad you didn't notice it! The countryside is the best place to be. I will do my best. thank you! ♥
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-03 20:15:32 +0000 UTCI definitely understand how you feel—university is stressful as heck, and it takes a lot out of you mentally. It’s always nice to get home and see family too. It sounds like you’re doing great, and I’m sure you’ll get through the rest of your education spectacularly—but, all the same, I hope it’s not too stressful. If you ever need to take any time to take a break for yourself, and can’t post here on Patreon as frequently, you’ve definitely still got my full support ❤️
Oxley
2020-02-03 16:00:06 +0000 UTCWhat?
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-03 11:06:21 +0000 UTCEveryone's screwed up these days, it's important to remember that back in the old days all this mental health stuff existed, it just didn't get recognition. And back then people had a lot more time and a lot more leeway to deal with it. So don't worry about being normal, the entire concept is nonsense anyway. So whine all you want, we pay you to draw fat animal people, professionalism has a whole different meaning here. Just don't expect us to solve your problems for you, we can't solve our own problems most days.
Russet
2020-02-03 02:37:43 +0000 UTCAt the moment, I have noticed nothing strange with you. You act normally, in my opinion. I understand what you feel, especially that I live on a farm and it is very pleasant to live far from the cities, but also, close to family and friends. Here I prefer to live in the countryside, closer to nature. 2 years, its seems long, but after that, you will finally be free and can do what you want, but for now, release your stress or depression with your friends or with your fan community, who will be there to listen to you. ^^
vamoris
2020-02-03 00:44:55 +0000 UTCWelcome to 2020. Enjoy the buffet
MarkoInsano
2020-02-03 00:11:44 +0000 UTCDon't feel like you have to apologize, sometimes you just need to let some feelings out! Take care of yourself first before feeling like you need to worry about others!
EvilFattyDragon
2020-02-02 20:38:57 +0000 UTCThank you so much! ♥ *hugs you back*
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-02 20:12:51 +0000 UTCThank you. ♥ but I think I at least have to mention this so you guys know whats going on.
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-02 20:12:11 +0000 UTCReally you also felt like this?? What did you to till you had the possibility to move back to your town? I will be able to go back for 2 weeks in summer it's such a long time till then... *hugs you back*
BigLoveAlicia
2020-02-02 20:11:15 +0000 UTCYou don't have to apologize for your feelings... or say that you're "just being whiny"... It's normal and healthy to want to be transparent about how you're feeling and talk to others about it. Trust me, you are the only person who blames you for your feelings. Everyone else understands and is patient with you! *Hugs*
Maximus Coyotox
2020-02-02 16:38:27 +0000 UTCNever feel like you have to apologize for how you are feeling honey. Your health, whether physical or mental, always comes first.
MatsuoTanuki
2020-02-02 16:34:13 +0000 UTCI understand you really well... I've suffered the same feeling while I was living in a big city here in Spain. The only way to feel better was visiting my home town. That caused me a lot of mental health problems, but now I'm better because I was able to live in my town again. I hope you could be back at home soon with your family. *hugs you tightly*
MarioTheLombax
2020-02-02 13:05:55 +0000 UTCI understand. Feelings are complicated
Carbyne Canyne
2020-02-02 12:54:38 +0000 UTC
