I'm curious - this has nothing to do with asmr

In highschool I was once head over heels for this girl who was a really bad alcoholic. We would spend every so often just get drunk talk about our feelings and do dumb things. We always stole bottles from walmart since we were underage at the time. This went on for about 2 years before we actually decided to become a couple. Then as we got a bit older and I graduated... she dropped out. She basically drank her diploma away. Meanwhile I went to trade school. I wanted to support her still and tried to get her somekind of stability in her life. Only to realize that she not only had no intention of improving her situation. At somepoint in the relationship she had completly forgoten we were even dating and got a new bf. There was no conversation. No break up. Nothing. I met up with her one day and she just said "Hey can you get me and my bf a drink from the store. Ill pay you back" i was confused. I had met the guy around her before, but that was litterally one time. When i confronted her on the subject. She said, and I quote " Oh man I must have been real fucked up I forgot you were my bf for 4 years". The screaming match that followed was painful, and I've kept very minimal contact with her ever since. What perplexes me to this day. Is how you forget about the guy you introduced to your family as your boyfriend for years. Only to get a new one and say nothing about it. Crazy work.

Faytlinegod

This is something that is literally going on right now with me. Its very hard bc we are polar opposites of each other but we are great together as friends but I want to try more.

Gmoney _04

I had my first love not long ago, but got rejected, it is what it is.

I used to be like that but enough betrayal from everyone i cared about has kind of pushed me away from any form of love to the point it causes me physical pain when i get any form of real positivity but the illusion is shortly snuffed out after i realize it was only temporary and may never receive it from said people again if it's more romance i've had a lot of betrayal for that too to the point it's become very hard for me to trust people in that kind of relationship i just don't want to be hurt again by someone who constantly reminds me i can trust them

Herrinderpus

so the first girl i fell for, she was so pretty and nice to talk to, every time she texted me my heart would explode and my hands would shake so much that i could barely even reply to her messages. we sadly stopped talking after a few months tho. and then last year in september i met this girl in uni and immediately we had an interest in each other. she's the first person that i kissed and went on dates with and been intimate with so she will always be special to me. she was pretty much a safe space for me. i was always so excited to see her. it was exhilarating, especially because meeting her had been so unexpected. i couldn't focus on anything else because i was too busy thinking about her. my mood also depended a lot on how things were between us. after a while the girl told me that she would rather just be friends, which i accepted even tho it made me sad ofc. i felt like i could have done more to make her stay. she told me she wasn't planning on dating anyone else for a while but i was jealous of basically anyone she interacted with. we're still really good friends and i value that friendship more than anything, even if it hurt me that i can't be with her like before. now it gets complicated tho lol. so i also had become friends with the best friend of this girl. about 1-2 months ago i was talking to this person and they told me they've had a crush on me at some point. i was very surprised and confused about this news and i told the girl about this and then she told me that the same thing happened to her. a few months ago the best friend had told her that they had a crush on her and well surprise surprise.. after hearing this news she developed a crush on them too. so basically what i found out was that these friends of mine had dated each other behind my back for 2 months. it had started a month after the girl had broken things off with me so there was no cheating involved but she didn't wanna tell me because she didn't wanna hurt me. honestly when she had broken things off with me i still had hope for us to get back together, so it hurts even more to think that she was dating someone else while i was still holding on to that hope. this whole experience has pretty much left me with an inability to be surprised at anything lmao. the thing is that when i heard this news it had already been like half a year since i had dated her so i was pretty much over her already. but i still spent a lot of time in my head thinking about everything and creating a timeline of when they dated. we're all still friends now tho. she stays special to me every time i see her and whenever someone wears the same perfume as her it takes me back to the moments we had. im glad that i got to experience this but it's also clear how much love for someone can hurt.

maritxm

Sorry if some of the details don't make sense, I'm writing this while in class 😅. In my freshman year of high school, I was best friends with a girl in my class and lived close by to her. We talked almost every day and hung out at each other's houses, we genuinely cared for each other. We both had feelings for each other, but she said she wasn't pursuing a relationship with anybody until she was older which I understood. Everything was fine until junior year of high school, we had a small fight over our time together since we were both working part-time and could barely see each other anymore. We ended up not talking all of summer break. At the start of senior year was when it all started to fall apart. There was a girl who transferred to our school and she hit it off with my best friend. She was materialistic and narcissistic, she basically had full control over her since my best friend was a person who absorbed the personalities and hobbies of the people around her. I tried contacting her but every time she ghosted me and shrugged me off when I tried to talk to her in person. We didn't talk the whole year. The tipping point and my final interaction with her was at graduation, I decided to ask her for a photo together because I just wanted it for the memories we used to have, but when I went up to her it was like she was a completely different person than I used to know a couple years ago. Her mannerisms were very passive aggressive and she was very judgemental and negative, I could tell just from that one interaction that she wasn't happy to even have that picture taken. At that moment I didn't even know how to feel since the girl I had known for the longest time had completely changed in the span of a year. I've never fallen so out of love with a person so much. It's been a couple of years since then and I'm almost done with college. I still think about what our relationship could've been if that one girl hadn't transferred to our school.