2022/03/31 parents and doctors
Added 2022-03-31 13:57:20 +0000 UTCThey loved each other under the promise. My body was born. But why? I still know that people and God love me. Only my body is dried up by the gapped and laggied love of the world. But stilI writing it to people…. for listener. it is my expression. maybe for alive once, or for last abyss. hey, the way is correct? or not? correct listener? correct place and price? I’ll fault again? or it will be next step? Where are the doctors who have time? I need interest from people to me. how much the time for enough effect? who have interest to me enough with skill and time? no, no I am sick person. I need hospital… time… interest…. from professional? from visitor and listener? I don’t know correct.
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I capture the "no" that the world speaks in several layers. I am disconnected from society. First of all, in the emotional hierarchy, it is simply felt as "must go die". Emotions do not subdivide denial and affirmation. And in layer of mind. “The body is used for the accumulation of trial and error of society. Hope is the bait for it. You have been consumed, but It's the cornerstone.” I understand it by reason but But I don't feel it at all. I was too "individual" to enter the cycle of consumption. If I was born thirty years early, I might have been able to consume it properly. If I were to lay the groundwork as the world says, this word would be the only one that remains, word of curse or industrial waste. a part of question/feedback to God from disconnected abyss. it is creation I think, but I don’t know who take it to world.
Kiki-CR
2022-04-01 04:14:28 +0000 UTCI read your four messages... those are very intimate thoughts, I'm thankful that I can read them. It's very difficult to exist in this world, isn't it? We have so many needs, and feelings we can't control, and the society we've built doesn't acknowledge them. It's such a simple feeling: "Can I be important to someone?" "Can I feel needed?" And then the world says "No."
Pentalis
2022-03-31 17:00:16 +0000 UTC
