a mental health update
Added 2021-02-01 22:03:30 +0000 UTChi friends! I feel like it wasn't too long ago that I posted a video like this, but it seems a lot of the same things are plaguing my brain. This is a video basically explaining that I hit a sort of breaking point this past weekend, and am gonna be keeping very quiet for a while to realign myself and establish a baseline. I'm still gonna be posting here for you guys, of course, but I'm probably not gonna be posting on Insta, Twitch, or YouTube. I'm in "crisis self care mode" as Connor calls it, and as silly as it feels, I know that if I don't do this now, this cycle will keep repeating for..probably my whole life, lol.
Also, I did some retail therapy this morning at JOANN, so there's a little yarn haul in there too, hahah. I love y'all a lot, and am so thankful for you guys. You are the very best. <3
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HiiiI! It's so cool to see you in here!
Cate Spaugy
2021-03-11 03:35:47 +0000 UTCdo what your heart wants! ok!
Luna Robinson
2021-03-11 00:59:50 +0000 UTCtake you brake for as long as you need! we will be waiting here for you ! oxoxox
Luna Robinson
2021-03-11 00:58:36 +0000 UTClots of love being sent to you babe oxox
Luna Robinson
2021-03-11 00:52:01 +0000 UTCHugs
broken halo
2021-02-20 05:17:36 +0000 UTCHonestly I relate to this a lot. I guess all I could say is that I'm really glad you are and get to take this time off. I run a business too and I really benefit from the kindness of my clients, which feels difficult because I want to be a fully with it professional. So from that perspective I hope you feel how genuinely at least I am happy to get to support you while you take time off.
Katie Kerns
2021-02-15 15:30:09 +0000 UTCSending all the love and take all the time you need! https://youtu.be/KCr3SN6vWFQ some of what you said reminded me of the end of this video, basically saying we need to treat our mental health just as serious as are physical health we need to unlearn that selfishness is a bad word a good extreme example of this is when on an airplane we are told to put on are own oxygen masks first before helping others to do the same. In a video game sometimes you need to use your turn to heal yourself and that will help everyone in the long run but we shouldn’t need to get to breaking point to do these things it’s okay to take care of yourself
Jamie Suterland
2021-02-15 14:36:01 +0000 UTCI hope your break helps! The routine thing really resonated with me. My dog went to stay with my parents for a week while there were some mandatory renovations being done in my flat and just... my routine went out the window and I felt awful. I always joke how the dog is my office manager because I'm a freelancer, but apparently he's also my life coach who reminds me to eat at normal times and go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Inny
2021-02-12 20:14:51 +0000 UTCAppreciate everything you said! Currently going thru this myself. Take care girl 🥺
Azureism
2021-02-12 08:10:33 +0000 UTCTake however long a break you need! We will still be here 🙆🏻♀️💕
Bridget
2021-02-10 04:27:18 +0000 UTCThank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this part of you. Wishing you healing and softness in the months to come 💕
Nova
2021-02-10 02:25:32 +0000 UTCi hope you have a good break and figure out what you need to, and get shit done that you want to! take care of yourself cheyenne <3
anita
2021-02-08 10:56:31 +0000 UTCSending you LOTS of love and a BIG hug! Take all the time you want ❤️ you’re human and have limits and it’s okay ❤️❤️❤️ this time shall pass! I LOVE YOU!!! 💕
Khadija
2021-02-06 12:54:25 +0000 UTCgoing through something similar myself so it was actually really nice (?) to hear someone i admire talk about it too. love you, proud of you, and wishing you all the best, cheyenne ❤️ take as long of a break as you need. be patient with yourself. pet sophie every single day. give connor lots of hugs. you got this! ✨🎉
ducksauce1996
2021-02-06 03:54:16 +0000 UTCplease take all the time you need! mental health is so important, it trickles over into every other aspect of your life. Do what you need to do to feel better and more in control, and we will be here to support you along the way. <3
Dana Cecile
2021-02-05 23:58:39 +0000 UTCI’m glad you’re taking time to rest! I know it’s so hard , especially when you are your own boss, to give yourself time to relax and recharge. But take all the time you need, we’ll still be here when you’re ready. Sending all the good vibes and love. 🧡
Hayley North
2021-02-05 09:48:50 +0000 UTCHi Cheyenne, It looks like everyone agrees that you should take the time you need! I just wanted to reiterate I guess that that means more than a month or two or three! I let myself get in a pretty bad headspace once and kept wanting to get help but then kept chickening out and saying “no I can still do this, I can still fulfill everyone's expectations of me.” Eventually it just really got to be too much and I had to go to an inpatient facility for a little while. After some time and I was feeling better and had a plan for taking care of myself, I got out and started an outpatient program. I really don't want you to keep telling yourself what I was telling myself if you are! I'm happy that you are smarter than I was and are taking care of yourself now. My outpatient program meant I was on disability for three months because I still couldn't work and was going to therapy groups for three hours a day, three days a week. I took all that time to do little things that I liked and just try to keep focused on taking care of myself. It helped me tremendously 😭 I haven't had SI in over a year!! Really giving yourself the time for healing and care even though it feels like an overreaction will be so beneficial. I'm not sure the details and stuff but maybe an outpatient program (virtual?) could be an option? I was lucky to find one with other people my age with some similar struggles. Or not totally too! You will know what you need :) anyway sending love and I'm happy you are taking this time for yourself
Melody Klaffke
2021-02-05 07:12:48 +0000 UTCSo much love coming your way from all of us. Take the time. We’ll be here when you’re ready. ❤️❤️
LaRaye Rushing
2021-02-05 03:22:48 +0000 UTCim so happy that you can take a break, it’s really difficult to sit down and allow yourself to be still and care for yourself and feel okay about it. sending many caring thoughts that your brain can rest for a little bit
Sami Kerwin
2021-02-04 17:02:10 +0000 UTCSending little virtual hugs your way.
Alicia V.
2021-02-04 15:09:17 +0000 UTCMy god I am so proud of you for taking a break, even if you don't feel like you deserve it. You do deserve it. Take the break and wewill all still be here when you come back. We promise xx
Abi McGlone
2021-02-04 11:54:12 +0000 UTCI'm so happy to hear you're taking a break, Cheyenne! Take care of you! And you reasoning for staving off something worse in the future is so insightful! Wishing for you lots of cozy times over the next few weeks.
Christine
2021-02-04 03:32:56 +0000 UTCSending you so much love and support. Take all the time you need, we’ll be here when you get back.
Antonia Gaviria
2021-02-03 22:09:06 +0000 UTCSending you so much love!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Thank you for sharing with us. I know it helps me feel much less alone in my mental health struggles!! Take all the time you need. 💕💕💕💕
Candice Luth
2021-02-03 18:48:43 +0000 UTCBe safe and well, dear heart! And be careful of the shame spiral 🥺 I know it all too well..... some of my worst mental health moments have come on the crest of that upswing in mood. The “OMGGGG I’m doing it! I’m doing great! I love life! I love being in control of my life!” And the crash thereafter when you suddenly just feel... Wrong. And awful.. well that crash can be so discouraging. So take all the time you need. Healing isn’t linear. You are so worthy of rest! And we will all be here to support you afterwards.
Abbey
2021-02-03 16:01:54 +0000 UTCYou are not alone ❤️ it's so easy to feel like we're the only ones failing to be functional people though. But you're not. Being a person isn't easy. Getting better is a process and realising when you're not doing so well is a good sign of progress. DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER THIS. Find what feels good. Stay safe and comfy ❤️❤️❤️
Kayleigh
2021-02-03 14:40:21 +0000 UTCI’m so sorry Cheyenne- please know that we love you and of course you should take all the time you need. I can relate to the mental health struggle- I’m sending you an air hug and gentle sprinkle of confetti- you got this. 💖
Marlee
2021-02-03 11:42:42 +0000 UTCTake all the break you need, and don't feel silly/guilty about taking a whole month off. I've only just re-opened my shop and got back into things after taking 2 months off. We live in this weird world where we are made to think we HAVE to work all the time/full time and be productive all the time, and we don't. It's all made up. You do whats best for you lovely :) xx
Stacey McEvoy-Caunt
2021-02-03 07:48:22 +0000 UTCI admire you so much Chayenne! You're so sweet and positive person, you've accomplished so much! You practically live my dream life and that's not to call you ungrateful - au contraire! Please take care, whatever care you need.
Evi Michailidou
2021-02-03 06:54:30 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself!♥️
Stephanie Lee
2021-02-03 03:33:19 +0000 UTCmy personal goal for 2021 is to slow down for all of the same reasons. take care of yourself + make your well being your #1 priority. we are all here to cheer you on!!! be well <3
Marissa Carroll Wright
2021-02-02 22:00:03 +0000 UTCI’m glad you feel safe enough to open up and share with us. I can sympathize with how you feel Cheyenne. I’ve started therapy and started taking medication myself a few months ago. I understand. Take all the time you need. ☺️I hope that things start feeling better for you soon.
Jessica Rosa
2021-02-02 21:39:28 +0000 UTC(gonna copy and paste the same comment for this and the post on patreon) but I want you to know that you're doing all the things to protect your mental and physical health! you're an amazing person and also a HUMAN so don't forget that people have limitations and we should always familiarize ourselves with what works/what doesn't. im very glad that my patronage (our patronage, I think other patrons will agree on this) helps you decline the extra work because you deserve to just live and relax too! the people that truly care about you will prioritize your functionality and healing over content being pumped out~ love you very much and im hoping today is better than yesterday 💞
Radhia Rahman
2021-02-02 19:27:05 +0000 UTCi hope your break gives you the well deserved rest and recuperation that you need. sending lots of good vibes your way <3
Sydney Kim
2021-02-02 18:10:48 +0000 UTCSo happy to see you prioritizing yourself <3 take all the time you need! x
Taz
2021-02-02 18:09:00 +0000 UTCI originally subscribed to your youtube channel because the way you talked honestly about mental health was so amazing & comforting to me. Enjoy your break - thank you for taking care of yourself! :))
Ann Desrochers
2021-02-02 18:04:25 +0000 UTCJust going to throw this out there, I would love a full granny square tutorial. Zoomed in and you explaining and taking it really slow. That way it doesn’t have to be editing intensive, you don’t have to do a chatty/personal voice over, and you get to share something with us while crocheting still? Just an idea. 🧶
Becca Johnson
2021-02-02 16:50:33 +0000 UTCAll the love ❤️
Amanda Morgan
2021-02-02 16:23:21 +0000 UTCTake care sweet Cheyenne! So proud of you for prioritizing your mental health! You are amazing and brilliant- always, even when you’re not feeling your best. I also have a lot to figure out with routine & burnout- it’s a constant learning process for me. I hope you can take this time for yourself to heal ❤️ sending lots of love!!
Vee Bee
2021-02-02 15:46:58 +0000 UTC“can I get that icon in cornflower blue?” Chey I love you and please don’t feel pressured to draw or sketch or do anything that makes your brain sizzle. Please that the time you need. We are here for you. We love you.
Becca Johnson
2021-02-02 15:22:09 +0000 UTCso so so SO glad you’re doing this for your mental health; we’ll be here for you 💖
Allie Mollie
2021-02-02 14:12:58 +0000 UTCWhen I watch a video like this from a creator I adore and care about obv I feel sad I can’t get content but then I’m proud and so excited for them to get the time they need to be their own person and learn to love what they do again. I’m so proud of you Cheyenne! Youre doing great and just know while we are strangers on the internet we care very much about yoy
Sawyer Jillian
2021-02-02 13:55:48 +0000 UTCSending lots of love💕
noga walder
2021-02-02 12:11:50 +0000 UTCWe are all so proud of you for honoring what you need during this time! We'll still be here to support you!
Savannah Perico
2021-02-02 10:27:05 +0000 UTCIt is a sign of maturity to be able to say stop before loosing it. I am so happy that you are in a situation that you can stop and "enjoy" some quiet time and to find your baseline. Take your time honey and indeed your future will be better. LOVE
Bourdet Emilie
2021-02-02 09:57:33 +0000 UTCTake care Cheyenne 💝💝 feel free to do whatever you feel you need to process and get thru it, we’ll still be here!
Melissa Lai IG @melissazlai
2021-02-02 09:35:54 +0000 UTCChey! I feel you girl! Woke feeling like the grief of the World was living inside my brain. My anxiety told me I had to fix it. On days like this I call it 'The Douchebag Brain Mindset' & understand (like you so eloquently put it), that I've been stuffing down the basic mental health stuff until it's all started bubbling up to the surface. Look after you. Take care of you. *squishy hugs* Nickib
Nicole Suzanne Brown
2021-02-02 09:21:59 +0000 UTCTake as much time and space as you need! Sending hugs <3
Iris
2021-02-02 09:21:09 +0000 UTCChey!! don't be embarassed about take your time and taking time off internet, it's completely okay and valid. we love you and we support in so many ways!! sending you so much love, take care <33
tim_flower
2021-02-02 08:36:15 +0000 UTCChey you wonderful little bumble bee 😭 you sit and crochet and watch twitch streams to your heart's content my girl. Also highly highly recommend knitting - takes some patience but nothing is more pleasing that knitting your own clothing. So much love xxx
Rosie Clow
2021-02-02 08:16:04 +0000 UTCSending you all the good vibes! I'm glad you and Connor recognized what was going on and you are taking time to look after yourself. Wishing you peace and lots of stress-free doodling, crocheting, and tea times. <3
Kyrstin Avello
2021-02-02 03:41:38 +0000 UTCsending you lots of from montreal !!! take your time and don't feel stressed about us we here to stay !! <3
samuel thibodeau
2021-02-02 02:17:00 +0000 UTCYou got this <3
Kiara
2021-02-02 02:09:14 +0000 UTCMental health is health, Chey. It is not shameful to take the time you need to rest and do some healing, and I know so many of your supporters believe that, too 💜
Tessa Maye
2021-02-02 01:33:15 +0000 UTCI'm glad you're taking the month to take care of yourself! I hope it's super restorative. (and as a knitter, welcome! I support your ultimate cable sweater goal--cables are very fun)
Audrey M
2021-02-02 01:08:45 +0000 UTCSending you lots of love, Chey! I've also been in a not good brain place for a bit. And from having been there before, taking time for yourself and to rest is the most important thing you can do. Self-care is not always fun and cozy, it's sometimes hard. But it's necessary. And I'm proud of you for taking that time. Sending you a big great hug <3
Anne-Sophie Caron
2021-02-02 01:07:55 +0000 UTCProud of you for putting yourself first! Take all the time and space you need, we will all be happily supporting <3
Olivia Cobb
2021-02-02 00:44:07 +0000 UTCPlease take care of yourself! You’re so strong, I know you’ll be able to overcome this!! Love you~ 💛💖💛
Michala Henderson
2021-02-02 00:09:27 +0000 UTCPlease take care of your brain, it's a pretty crucial bit. My brain also breaks and then goes "why are you reacting to the breaking, just get on with it". Brains are tricky things. If it helps, can you rephrase it as instead of you taking time off as recovery (so a reactive thing), you're taking time off in order to clarify your focus and direction for the year, and set yourself up, so it's pro-active. That doing those things helps your brain is a happy side effect. That way your brain can't tell you that you're overreacting or any of those other unhelpful nonsensical things brains like to say, because you're not doing any of that, you're recalibrating, as you said. Anyway, in amongst all that nonsense I just spewed because it's late here in the UK and I'm only half conscious still, what I wanted to say was even though the hole is dark and cold and horrid, we're there with you. I know we can't get you out, but we can at least be with you (and moan about the grotty conditions because the unwanted roommates in our brains are rubbish at housework/home-care). Sending so much love.
Amy Palmer
2021-02-01 23:46:04 +0000 UTCthanks! my friends & I were deciding what tattoos we'd get for each other, and one of my friends looked @ me and immediately said "a bee with a cowboy hat." he was named burbert and that was that :)
Liz
2021-02-01 23:38:49 +0000 UTCMy sweet girl, please take care of your beautiful mind and soul. You’re so incredibly talented but that doesn’t mean you have to stop taking care of yourself for as long as you need to. I’m so grateful to have joined your Patreon as you’ve decided to take an extended break everywhere else. I’m sending you the tightest hug, and the biggest cup of tea. Much love to you, Chey.💜
Rocio R.
2021-02-01 23:29:42 +0000 UTCTake your time Cheyenne!! <3 i feel you, there is so much that felt like it was just the pandemic, but really that existed beforehand... btw your last video inspired me to take up knitting for the first time in a decade!! i really appreciated what you had to say about making something only for yourself and your own enjoyment/use. :-)) good luck on your knitting journey as well!
Sloane Sherman
2021-02-01 23:12:55 +0000 UTCSending lots of gentle vibes! And bravo for listening to your mind and taking the time you need. I hope the yarn therapy helps and when you’re ready we’ll all be here for support! 💙
Catherine Zocco
2021-02-01 23:11:07 +0000 UTCsending you lots of warm hugs!! i hope you will get through this somehow, i know it’s hard, but we’re here for you <3 take all the time you need and be kind and patient with yourself, love youu !!!
Ingrid
2021-02-01 23:07:32 +0000 UTCgasp it's perfect
cheyenne 🌠
2021-02-01 22:54:59 +0000 UTCMy love !! take all the time you need and never feel embarrassed, alone or blame yourself for pausing content. Times are crumby right now. I know I and all my friends have felt similarly all January and into Feb. taking time is important necessary, drink you favourite teas, play your favourite games, crochet a storm, watch comfort content and just do what you need to feel well and yourself. we will be here when you need us and are ready to come back. x
DonnaLeny Hansen
2021-02-01 22:51:46 +0000 UTCSending love! I can hear the distress in your voice. Take care of yourself! I had a similar experience when I was your age (lol that makes me feel so old - I'm almost 40 now!), and I SO wish I would have stopped and assessed my situation then because it would have lasted so much less time. You're doing the right thing! There is absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about - SO many people, at some point or another, find themselves in similar situations. <3
Lindsay Attaway
2021-02-01 22:51:33 +0000 UTCTake care chey! We love and support your healing :) i hope your lovely bee turns out well! (if you need name recs i recommend Burbert)
Liz
2021-02-01 22:51:28 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself. Being a human is so fucking hard. Thinking of you 🧡
Sara Pattschull
2021-02-01 22:49:44 +0000 UTCwe love you chey! sending warm wishes and thoughts of healing. I hope this month is kind to you <33
bri 🪲
2021-02-01 22:43:38 +0000 UTCSending so much love your way Cheyenne, praying for a peaceful and healing rest for you this month!
Monica Pierce
2021-02-01 22:29:54 +0000 UTCTake care of yourself and take all the time you need. It's important to put yourself first for a while <3
ErdbeerRei
2021-02-01 22:27:04 +0000 UTCTake all the time you need Cheyenne you are an incredibly hard worker and deserve as much time as it takes to rest your mind. I run a small shop and haven't stopped sending preorders since December; sending good vibes and energy ♥♥♥
Ebone Grayson
2021-02-01 22:26:41 +0000 UTCyou are so wonderful and loved chey, so glad you’re taking this time to do self care!! love you lots honey bun 🍯
Jo Stockdale
2021-02-01 22:25:09 +0000 UTC❤❤❤
Carly Cat
2021-02-01 22:24:40 +0000 UTCtake the time you need chey. we’ll wait for you and want you to feel your best. feel better!!
Abby Williams
2021-02-01 22:23:08 +0000 UTCLOTS OF LOVE HUNNY BUNNY! 🍯🐰I hope you have a wonderful February to recharge and ground yourself. On a personal note, (because you’ve been so vulnerable with us, I feel the need to reassure you that you’re not alone in these feelings) I’ve been feeling quite the same lately and it really sucks to be at a high point for so long that you feel you’re getting better, only to then have a “reality check” and be right back at square one. I’m really happy that you have a support group to help you through this! It’s also really nice to actually see someone I look up to taking a break and prioritizing their mental health, because it’s something I’ve been struggling with for a long time. More recently, I’ve been doing some therapy and trying my best to keep myself in mind, but I can have bad days. It’s really reassuring to me that I’m not alone in that either. Anyway, sending you and your lil family lots of love and best wishes. I hope you get to give Sophie all the kisses! 💖 (That rhymed lol)
Tate Meredith
2021-02-01 22:23:05 +0000 UTCSo glad to be able to help support you so that you are able to take the time you need to process and take care of yourself. That’s more important than pushing out content. Always. Rest up. 🖤
Audie Briar Schultz
2021-02-01 22:13:48 +0000 UTCSending love, you have to do what’s best for you. Take all the time you need. We’ll all still be here when you’re ready to come back! ❤️❤️❤️
Chloe Yeoman
2021-02-01 22:13:43 +0000 UTCDo what you need to do for your mental health !! I definitely had my breaking point last year and I had to disappear for a while but you know what, it’s helped me tremendously. So whenever you feel ready to come back we will welcome you back with open arms we care about you and your well being ❤️!
Nubia Gonzalez
2021-02-01 22:11:01 +0000 UTCWishing you the best in your mental health and healing journey. It takes a brave person to slow down when they need it. To take care of the self when you are at this point. I have learned that the hard way too many times. I took the rest of the day off today when my digestion issues peaked and I’m so glad I did. Making things worse by not listening to your body is not helpful.
Robyn L. Neal
2021-02-01 22:08:09 +0000 UTCLots of love Cheyenne! Take the time that you need for healing 💕✨
Calico Fairy
2021-02-01 22:06:48 +0000 UTCHoping rest and sophie kisses can help you return to a comfortable headspace ♥️
Meeeeeeeeeeer
2021-02-01 22:06:33 +0000 UTCtake as long as you need, your safety and wellbeing are most important 💛
Bucky
2021-02-01 22:06:29 +0000 UTCHaven’t watched the video yet because I’m in class, but I am sending you lots of virtual hugs! Your mental health is extremely important to us, so please take all the time you need to come back recharged!
Mariah Bolda
2021-02-01 22:05:43 +0000 UTCsending you lots of love Cheyenne! take the time that u need.
RZD
2021-02-01 22:04:46 +0000 UTC
