Update - TAPE 1 print proof

HI DEERS! 

I was silent for over a month now, I missed you ;3; 

Situation update:

I really was overworked and got super slow for a while, and then when I felt better I got physically sick, but now I feel tons better. I am tackling the to-do stuff now and am trying not to get too overwhelmed by it, to immediately push myself over the edge again X'D ---

Priority right now is the final illustrations for Sweet Sweat Swoop!, but I hope to wrap them up in the next two weeks.....

I did a poll in December if the Goodie Mail people want the planned book and the result was, that 80% would like that, so that was the obvious choice for me.

No, I did not forget about that!! You will get them. But it went really downhill from here:

Reworking of the pages really took forever and used up all my energy. The first chapter had a very bad resolution and I had to reformat every page for the bigger format I want to print in. I polished every panel, corrected a lot, and even added new backgrounds. 

My perfectionism really kicked in and I could not stop myself from just letting it go when the drawings were bad. Because this book has so many pages, they are full color and printing this is expensive and so huge for me, I want it to be good!! ;__; because it only makes sense, when I immediately print a lot of books, and I will scream if that looks bad. I don't wanna look at my stock in half a year and hate everything. This is supposed to get an ISBN, I wanna put it on Amazon, I am wishing for this series to grow, so I can make the best of it that I can as an Indie creator.... and all of this ambition really made me anxious af and depressed about how slow the reworks went.

To be honest, at some point I wanted to give up, because I thought "This book is DONE but I am still not able to finish this like EVER......... I have to think of something else". But this is the only chance to already get around 200 books into the world, and it would be so stupid to ruin the big stock I could print. So that is why I keep you waiting so much T_Tv

BUT NOW I can at least show you the copyedited, re-layouted and polished chapter 1 (PDF download!! )The other parts will follow as soon as I have them done (and this will also keep you updated on the print process) 

The image gallery is some comparisons of the web and the print edition. Generally, every page now has more white panel frames, so it more of a classy graphic novel look, and the size changed up from Din A5 to B5. Please don't tell me, that all this work was unnecessary because it doesn't make that much of a difference to you and I could've saved all of this energy because most of the details will vanish with the print anyway, I worked on this for monthes and I am dying T___T

Okay and last: IDK MAN, I just love you for sticking around. I am emotionally rambling right now, because I know that my Patreon is chaotic and I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time. And I know that I'm doing my best but sometimes my best is nothing and I feel incredible guilt about these phases....... I just don't know how to handle them better, but I love to work on the comic, I hope that I can go back to the paneling-mission soon and I just hope that this year will continue better than it started. TAKE CARE EVERYONE!!! <3