Patreon Resumes in June

June will see the patreon resume business as usual with the polls and all the other regular rewards! Just a heads up since it's set to charge up front you will be charged on June 1st for whatever pledge you currently have so keep that in mind.  

Alright, long post incoming, if you don't care too much about things that aren't strictly patreon related you don't have to read it:

To give a rundown of what I've been doing these past months while the patreon has been paused or otherwise not working like it did before, it's been mostly attempts at self improvement/studies. Most of which I actually haven't posted because I have a habit of deleting things if they don't turn out well.

I've found that I'm a very motivation based artist/person in general so the quality of my work is greatly affected by how well I feel like I'm drawing at any certain point. I'm sure you've all seen me call something "bad" in the past and to you it might look good (or it might not, who knows), but what that usually means is that the drawing didn't turn out how I had envisioned it in my head. As an artist the end goal no matter what kind of art you do is to be able to perfectly create as close to a 1:1 rendition of what you imagine an image is going to look like as possible. I feel like a lot of the time I'm not doing that even with the simple things and that's why I dislike a lot of my drawings.

So yeah of course if I dislike a drawing during the process of doing it it's going to really effect my will to finish it, usually what I'll do then is start over and over many times until i get it right because I actually cannot bring myself to upload something I hate beyond a certain point but that's not effective use of time at all and it causes my backlog to grow, drains me mentally and makes me upload less and all of that is undesirable as you can imagine. 

So I've been trying to learn enough to the point where at the very least I can bring myself to finish the drawings, I may not upload them publicly but they'll get done and posted here. I'm trying to give you guys the best work I'm capable of at least at the moment and I'd like for that work to bottom out at at least "this looks fine" instead of "this isn't even worth posting" like it's been in the past several times. 

So yeah if you read all that or skimmed it I hope that makes sense and I look forward to continuing to do this with you guys moving forward! 

Also, to anyone worried that I've completely abandoned simple anime esque drawings in favor of this kind of janky like semi realism thing I've been messing with lately that's absolutely not the case, I just wanted to get a more solid grasp on fundamentals so hopefully I can translate those into my more heavily stylized art. 

But yeah, hope everyone's having or is going to have a great day/night and see you guys in June!