Thank you for the well wishes + Updates to filming

Thank you all so much for the well wishes. I def got a migraine that day but after a nap, a meal, and some strong ibuprofen it was manageable. By Monday I was feeling much better and by Tuesday my headache was gone.  Bummed to have moved the live and appreciated your kind words and good vibes. So looking forward to the lives this month. 

Just wanted to give you a little update on changes I'm making for filming. It has been really challenging to film in the new space, as much as I love it. Not just the AC but the people coming in and out and thin walls that allow voices to travel. It distracts me. I feel like I have to keep making these disclaimers but then when I go to edit the video and I hear my own disclaimers I get annoyed with myself lol. 

Because I only have Wed-Fri as potential days to film, and I have to work around the schedule of the person I share the room with - the times I have been able to go in are usually times other ppl are there. 

So, after some back a forth with the person I share the space with, and also reworking my 50/50 custody schedule a bit I'm switching my days of filming to ones that, to my knowledge, no one will be at the space in. 

The space, aside from the sound, is so perfect and beautiful and healings. It has been such a shame to have these issues this whole time. To be paying for the space, packing bags with everything I need, driving myself there, setting up and breaking down all the equipment - it's been a lot of extra work and effort. And the whole reason I started this was to avoid the traffic sounds lol. So its like all this extra work to find the same issues. Have to laugh. 

When no one is there the place is a dream, so I'm really really hoping this solves the issue. 

You all have been so kind and supportive of the sound and I know it doesn't bother everyone. It is just that this was my attempt to upgrade my content, and I don't think that's shown much even with all the effort and investment. 

My first "new" date in there will be next week, so I'll def let you know how it goes. Fingers crossed. 

On another note, how you holding up? Anyone hit with a HUGE tear purge this week?  I cried so hard last night and am totally emo and mushy today. Trying to just let it flow and not push any of these feeling down or deny them. Every time my son hears me sniffle he says "that's cos its scorpio season" lol. Some times the bad feelings need to have their way for a bit, i really believe that. I've been feeling alone, broken, unlovable. All the classic hits, lol. But I know that's not how things are, it is just the depths of my dark spaces bubbling to the surface and moving these tears. 

Sending so much love to anyone else going through it and having to deal with their deep pains and fears.  I truly belief these bad feelings are the back swing and something amazing or progressive is coming. 

Love to all and thank you for hearing me out. XOXOXO

J LI