Possible delay on watch party

UPDATE:

Wawa had her blood work today. All of her organs are failing. Things aren’t looking good. The goal is to get her to eat in any way we can and then give her medicine to hopefully slow the deterioration of her body. Maybe we can get a few months of happy Wawa if she can get through this. If not then…

I just feel numb. I think I’m exhausted in all levels. I have moments of sobbing, then a moment of feeling ok, then a moment of wanting to focus on work instead of being present, then back to being numb and brain fog again.

A little light note from today was that we had our favorite doctor from the emergency clinic call our favorite doctor from the private clinic to make sure she understands the blood work updat. It ends up that the clinics doctor was a student of the emergency doctor! It makes sense that a great doctor would be the teacher of another. They will now communicate directly to make sure everything stays updated with Wawa.

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Today has been a bad day. She's not eating or drinking. I've been crying all day. I set up to record new reactions since I'm starting to run out but I just can't seem to put on a happy face right now. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

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Tomorrow watch party for Glee may be a day or two late. I got off the plane from Europe a week ago and went directly from the airport to the vet hospital to see my pup Wawa. Since then I have spent every single day by her side. She is my WORLD!

Some days she eats and her eyes are awake, but then other days she barely moves. I've been crying on and off every day the past week and it's made getting work done very hard. I even tried to teach a private lesson, but I started crying and had to cancel all my lessons this week. Seeing her slowly fade away has been the hardest thing I've dealt with. It's like losing my child.   

So, if she eats and has a good day tomorrow then I will sit with her and watch Glee and Pitch Perfect and Enchanted. But if she has another bad day then it's just too hard for me to even hold her and watch a video without crying and feeling depressed.   

I hope you understand and let's all hope that tomorrow is a great day for Wawa where she eats a ton, walks a little and looks at me with wide open eyes.