#bodypositive

My curvy yummy juicy fertile soft body … 😻

I wanna share about you! You make me vulnerable. You make me feel so good and sometimes so weird. You make me reflect...deconstruct my patterns and see the pressure of the society much more clearly, as well as realize it's false beliefs and behaviors that attach themselves inside me… pretending to be my own.😿


This weekend we started to shoot the first scene of a documentary about the sex-positive movement. Reviewing the recorded material and seeing myself on screen does something with me… The image of myself is not connected to what I see in the mirror.🦊🧡


Lately I have been confronted with the changes of my body, of my skin…  feeling again insecurities & confidence troubles...which you don't see on the pictures I post, but they are here very present…  Since Quarantine I have gained 4 more Kilos, since last summer I think more than 6. Outside of the festival season I had way more time to cook amazing stuff and I also had emotional stuff to deal with … it's a cliché but chocolate becomes my best friend during times like this. 🍡🥧🧁🍩🍭🍰


I've also started publishing some of my macroporn on Patreon. Working more with sensual and sexual content, showing myself completely unfiltered & nude, is very new to me. I have no costume, no deco, no community to hide. It’s about me. And that feels very Scary... 😱


When I think if someone could find me or my pictures sexy I start to judge myself very hard. Don't get me wrong: I like myself for all the images that I post on social media, but the honest truth is that to produce one image like that there are at least 10-30 more that I would never publish. When I analyse by which criteria I choose them, it’s by the visibility of all my insecurities I try to hide systematically: my belly, my upper arms, my legs, my teeth…


'curvy, yummy, juicy, fertile, soft,...' these are adjectives that my loved one uses to describe my body. I often can't see that, but it helps me a lot to understand that a lot of people truly are attracted to curvy bodies. 💜❤️


Selflove doesn't mean that you have to love each part of your body and find it beautiful. It's about realizing this shaming and try to be understanding and gentle to yourself. Selflove is to realize your needs, boundaries and desires and to take care of them with self-responsibility. To not be dependent on the reassurance of social media, friends and lovers. But way more important is to be gentle and understanding to yourself, as you would be to someone else 💞


I wanna accept & embrace my body, and learn to see the beauty in it and celebrate my unique shapes. Dear body: You empower me and give me the chance to grow. You enable me to do all these amazing things, and provide me with pleasure. Thank you! 💗



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