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Dev Diary #7

Hello everyone, I'm very sorry for my recent absence. The sudden death of my father weeks ago was a shock that required a lot of bureaucratical and emotional labor and it has taken much of my time and energy. It's still an ongoing process in fact. He had no will, a lot of debts, and plans that needed to be canceled. You don't really get to rest and grieve until all the bureaucracy is dealt with. If I had any advice to give to you all, it's to make sure there is a plan for when these things happen. We don't like to think about it, but it will happen to all of us eventually. The last thing you want is to go into debt paying 10s of thousands in bills until you get life insurance, which can take weeks or months to acquire without a plan.

Thank you all for sticking with me and supporting me through this time. I wish my creativity could flow as it did, but it will take time for things to go back to normal. We were planning a trip to Europe together this fall, we rarely ever vacationed, but it's one I'll be taking without him now. I was eager to start the development of v0.18 early but it seems something always happens between updates to fuck things up. So again, thank you so much for your support during these times. I wouldn't have been able to give him the burial I think he would have wanted without it. 

I am actively trying to work now but the creative process is very strained for the time being. Things are slow, but I'm certain they'll go back to normal given enough time. I will keep you all updated with greater frequency going forward.

Comments

so sorry for your loss

bonnzo

courage to yourself even if the vast majority of people like me do not write or speak, we are with you, whether it is a stranger or a loved one whether you realize this presence or not you will never be alone.

Mana

Perfection. I love her

Eva Kitty

I lost my father 7 years ago to suicide, I know what you feel so you have my deepest condolences. Take the time you need and be with your family while you all need it the most, Runey. Come back and give us 0.18 whenever you are able and stable, taking however much time you need.

Flynn Taggart

hey man i know im late as hell to this but god bless, the lord does everything for a reason and he wouldnt put you through the pain if he didnt know youd be strong enough to get through it, keep your head up though the tough times and all will be good. <3

-ETERNAL -

My condolences. It has been almost a year since my grandfather died. My younger brother and I have been living with him and my grandmother to help take care of them. The four of us had a routine and everything put together around the old man... even now we find ourselves setting his place at the table, expecting him to make his quips about dinner being awful, or being asleep in his chair. Best I can say is to give it time for the pain to lessen and hold onto the best gift he left you: memories.

Don

Lost my father aswell sudden on cancer. 3month from diagnose to his death. Couldn't even visiting him in the hospital cause it was the beginn of the corona time. So i feel with you and wish you all the best. Send you 20€ for your great work!

Gardison

Please take your time & look after yourself .. nothing should be more important than that right now ..

Sara_Something

Please take your time & look after yourself .. nothing should be more important than that right now ..

Sara_Something

hey man, dont worry, take your time! Just take care of yourself.

Hofner Michael

Take your time and don't push yourself.

Necrom

Take care I know its really hard after loosing someone but things do get better but it takes time.

philip vincent

Take care of yourself first.

Paul Maynard

I lost my sister last month so I feel you

Briggs Bro Co

Sorry to hear of your loss. I am glad this project was a financial help. Take care.

James J Kelly

I've been through something similar. Take all the time you need.

Hunter Brown

No worries. Take care of yourself and your family.

John

My family went through this not long ago with the death of my grandmother, and my mother being her eldest had to navigate that. My deepest condolences for your loss. Take all the time you need

Damar Malone

Hugs from us 2 u

John Haar

Take the time you need. We will be here once you are all good and feeling that flow. I think everyone supporting this project can fully understand the need of taking some much needed rest after all that.

PlagueDoc

My old timer Recently got out of an coma so I know It Must be tough for you Hope you get well we all wish you good luck

Sachi382

I love your game and willing to wait till your ready so take your time be happy with what you make and Ill wait and will support you on here

Briggs Bro Co

Pretty happy to see people supporting and giving you strenght in this painful situation. It proves that you can take the time you need, your fans will always be there.

Mushi

Take your time Runey. I had an extremely similar situation 3 years ago and it took over 3 months before it seemed like the state would let him die. Things do get better and life will eventually go on. Just take it slow and give the amount of emotional and creative power towards this project that you feel is doable (even if thats 0%). We'll wait patiently for you and your family's recovery from this <3

Mex G

I’m so sorry, it’s very difficult, I’ve been there. Things never go back to how they were but they do get better. Take your time, your content comes second to you.

Waffle135

I'm really sorry to hear about your loss, and also, take all the time you need.

Gehenna

Wish you the best, take the time you need.

max

I am really sorry to hear that, please take the time you need, we will still be here then.

Michael Huy

We all wish you the best Runey.

Olympic Spartan

Sorry to hear it. RIP. Take your time and grieve, we won't blame you at all.

Schtolteheim Reinbach III

Take your time, family comes first.

Psychopathicaly Delicious

Many condolences! Hopefully life gives you the room needed to process everything

Alan

good luck

Karolina Quevedo +18

I'm so sorry for your loss! I hope you find a new balance! Good luck!

M@rco!

Yes of course, my condolences and take all the time you want. Thanks for letting us know.

Jonathan Bush

Sincerely condolences for your loss, take your time. Go take a rest. Until you have the power to keep going. And of course, we will wait

Lee Ching Hau

This Guy is right. take the time you need to be Right/ok then come back as long as it is only a Few Months. Please do not take too Long!

Tor Cha

Take care of yourself and don't forget to smile. Even if it's a fake smile, they day it releases endorphins that make you feel better. Also, grief will take time. I lost my dad and and often broke down crying at random alot. But it will get better with time.

Chad K

My condolences to you. Sometimes life (or death) can take a toll on us all when we least expect it. Take some time off until you're back on your feet. no need to rush things. I hope you feel better soon :)

Raven Number 7

so sorry for your loss, get the important IRL stuff sorted, we all understand that game development takes a back seat at rimes like this. Keep your chin up and try to keep moving forward

peter

Oops that wasn't meant to happen.. so very sorry for your loss but take your time getting through all the important details, I am somewhat in the same position as my father died last year and I am still sorting stuff out from his estate..

Strongrunner

Sorry for your loss, do what you need to do for yourself before you return to development. I'm not going anywhere.

TotesNotThea

Sorry for your loss Runey… take all the time you need! We love your game, but not to your suffering, see you when you feel all right and kicking!

Mathieu Denisd

Deepest condolences to you. Remember to give yourself more time for quite some time. The bureaucracy will fade away 'soon'. Some of your memories will do so also. Hang on to those memories that you hold dear and forgive the bad ones. Good luck.

Nic

I hope I speak for everyone here when I say this: We love and support you, and never feel that your creativity has a time frame. We appreciate your hard work and we are here for you. May your dad rest well and fly high! Consider putting a little tribute to him in a future update, it would be therapeutic for you and we would all love to see it!

General X

Sorry to hear about your father having helped deal with my in-laws' funeral and estate I have some idea about the work involved. It's a slog,but you'll get through it. Take the time you need, it's important to get right.

Minilono

I am so sorry for your loss. Take all the time you need, your game is great but so is your mental health!

Callahan Darc

Sorry for your loss

UpsJedi

I am extremely sorry for your loss. I hope you find a healthy way to grieve, and that everything works out for you in the near future.

Noodle

Sorry for your loss Runey.

Draec

So sorry for your loss. Take the time you need; we'll still be here.

Andy

Take some time off, do whatever you need to do to process and recover from this, get your head right, and then come back only when you feel ready. I'd rather wait a while longer for you to be in a good place to keep working than have you pushing yourself to do it NOW just because.

Caprice Dhusara

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through. My father died last year and it was a very similar situation. Please take your time and do what you need to do. I see the pouring in of support from others on here which I hope brings some solace to you.

JayCO

Take your time, sorry about your loss. and going on a trip is a good idea, enjoy the time.

Andreas Maurer

Been there. It was a pretty rough time. Took a while to get my head back into a decent place. I learned to really appreciate those true friends willing to give the room and time I needed to get my feet back under me so to speak. SO, you do whatcha gotta. I'll be here as long as I can.

RamLock

I know I posted already, but are you taking care of yourself?

The Other, Other Beast

Very sorry to hear about your loss Runey. Game development takes a very much less important back seat to your grieving and healing.

bloomangroup

Sorry about your loss. Take care of yourself and those you care about! That is importanter than the game!

The Other, Other Beast

So sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself and yours.

H. Peter Anvin

Im ao sorry for your loss, my prayers to you and yours

Marcus7734

Take care, Runey. Best of luck and wishes. I send all the good vibes and feels your way, brother.

The Magical Gurl

You have my sympathies. You need to take care of yourself and your family first.

Obickay

You have my deepest sympathies, and like everyone else, I would say take your time. I'd rather have it done well than done fast. With that said, I will at least say a prayer for your father's peaceful rest.......aaaaaand now I'm envisioning Autumn in a slutty nun outfit, so that's what I get.

Ogiwan

Take your time. Don't push yourself until you know you're ready.

Necrom

Take your time dealing with the death of your father. That is far more important than any updates.

Chssssssssss

Don't worry, take all the time you need. Grief him, and let all your emotions out. Don't keep it in, and spend more time with family. I'm sure we all understand what you're going through!

Jen-Chun Teng

I can't imagine how you must feel right now.I'm sorry for your loss, my deepest sympathies to you and your family.

LEE-BO

Take your time. We got your back.

Devan Harrington

Please remember that it's ok to not be ok. The loss of a close one is easy for nobody. My opinion, don't rush work. Don't rush yourself. Work towards healing. You've provided amazing quality to date. I am concerned that if you try to force yourself through this, you may come to resent the beautiful work of art you've provided us. Be well and may more peaceful days drift your way. <3

Matthew Schumacher

Take all the time you need and sorry for your lose.

Rand

Take the time you need losing close family is always hard

Raven

Completely understand. Sorry for ur lose. Going thru the same thing now.

StormZero


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