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Loading Screen #12 - I went to a lovely little convention!

Heww, I’m trying to get back on track on regularity after feeling overwhelmed with everything for a while. Thank you for still being here! ♥

I was at the YaYuCo (Yaoi Yuri Convention) in Dachau over the weekend - it’s a small con in a youth hostel with lots to do! It’s a queer 18+ con what doesn’t mean that there is only “spicy stuff” to see, but it’s a possibility. Mainly there won’t be kids and it’s a safe space for queer people.

Besides workshops, game rooms, merch tables and an artist alley the visitors can absolve a ton of quests to collect points and maybe get crowned the winner at the end of the con. It’s so much fun when people approach you to ask for clues, search for hidden symbols or try out codewords in hopes to unlock a secret dialogue option.

The best thing about the con is the option to sleep there. It was my third time and every time it feels like a big sleepover with my art friends. Hanging out in each others rooms in pyjamas and going to the cafeteria for midnight cake.

This year I prepped a DnD-Oneshot for my friends matching this years YaYuCo topic. And I love all their characters and laughed so hard!

I got home on Monday evening and am tired and grumpy since then. Probably a mixture of the after con blues and bodily and emotional overexhaustion. I’m a really sensitive lil guy.

But it was so great to meet old and new friends and have so many interesting conversations, look at cool art and buy queer comic books.

Looking at my calendar it feels like the year is basically over already again. A tough task to get everything done and still find some small moments of peace and quiet in between. Do you also feel a weird pressure to get stuff done before the end of the year?

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Huff, ich versuche wieder mehr Regelmäßigkeit einkehren zu lassen, nachdem ich eine ganze Weile mit allem überfordert war. Schön, dass ihr noch hier seid! ♥

Über’s Wochenende war ich auf der YaYuCo (Yaoi Yuri Convention) in Dachau - eine kleine Con in einer Jugendherberge mit einem vollen Programm! Es ist eine queere 18+ Con, was nicht bedeutet, dass nur “Schmuddelkram” angeboten wird, aber dass das auf jeden Fall eine Möglichkeit ist. Und dass keine Kinder vorbeikommen. Neben Workshops, Gaming Rooms, Händler und Künstlerinnen-Allee gibt es jedes mal passend zum Thema der Con eine Menge Quests, die die Besucherinnen absolvieren können, um Punkte zu sammeln und am Ende der Con vielleicht als Sieger*in gekürt zu werden. Richtig lustig, wenn ständig Leute ankommen, nach Hinweisen fragen, versteckte Symbole suchen oder mit Codewörtern versuchen, einen Dialog freizuschalten.

Das tollste ist aber, dass man vor Ort übernachten kann. Ich war zum dritten mal da und jedes mal fühlt es sich an wie eine Übernachtungsparty mit meinen Zeichner*innenfreundys. Einfach im Pyjama beieinander im Zimmer abhängen oder zum Mitternachtskuchen in die Mensa schlurfen.

Dieses Jahr habe ich für meine Freundys einen kleinen DnD-Oneshot vorbereitet, der thematisch zur YaYuCo passen sollte. Ich liebe die Charaktere so sehr und konnte nicht mehr vor lachen!

Jetzt bin ich seit Montagabend wieder zu Hause und einfach nur müde und maulig. Wahrscheinlich eine Mischung aus Con Blues und körperlicher und emotionaler Überanstrengung. Ich bin da ein sehr zartes Pflänzchen.

Aber es war so toll, so viele alte und neue Freundys wiederzusehen und spannende Gespräche zu führen (ich habe so viel über’s Basteln mit Metall-Knete gelernt!).

Wenn ich in meinen Kalender schaue, fühlt es sich so an, als wäre das Jahr schon rum. Ganz schön schwierig, da alles unter einen Hut zu bekommen und trotzdem noch irgendwo kleine Momente der Ruhe zu finden. Habt ihr auch so Jahresende-Torschluss-Panik oder macht das gar nichts mit euch?

Loading Screen #12 - I went to a lovely little convention!

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Thank you for your wise and kind words. I imagine my therapist nodding in approval while reading this. I'm so sorry to hear you had such a rough year. Losing so many loved ones and surviving in a hostile political climate sounds paralyzing and exhausting. Just existing and going about your day is already a great accomplishment! And you sound like a vers strong and resilient person. I wish you all the best! 🫂 I also try to reframe "goals" as "wishes" and to check in with myself about what's important to me. "Refusing to look at myself as a failure" has such a powerful and spiteful ring to it, I like to steal that phrase! Reading your kind words made me really emotional and I would love to hold your hands while I say thank you! ❤️

Fiothin

Genau, es wird auch viel gecopsplayt! Die Orga ist thematisch auch als NPCs verkleidet und auch sonst gibt es viele Cosplayer. :) Jaa, ich hatte einen kleinen Tisch und habe die Zocker-Bände und ein paar alte Oneshots mitgebracht. Hoffentlich komme ich nächstes Jahr wieder mal dazu, einen anderen kleinen Einzelband zu zeichnen.

Fiothin

War sicher viel Spasss. Auf dem Bild sieht aus als wenn da einige Cosplay machen? Und vor allem, unten rechts, sehe ich da die Zocker-Bücher (und evtl. andere)?? 😇

Mr IceLord

First of all, that looks like a fantastic experience, and I’m sure coming home feels a bit like a hangover—physically and emotionally! And second, 2025 has been one of the worst years. I think we can put a lot of pressure on ourselves to feel like we’ve really accomplished something or done something with our lives. However, and particularly when there has been a lot of struggle, I think it’s okay to just get through the year and reflect on what worked for us as well as what didn’t work. Life is messy and full of so many crazy ups and downs, and putting expectations on ourselves—simply because the date is changing—it just feels like unnecessary stress. Professionally and personally, I haven’t accomplished much that I wanted to get done, but I lost my dad, one of my best friends, and several family members this year. It feels like grief has permeated everything I’ve done. I also live in the US, so most of the year has been shitty because of our government’s current administration. And yet…I have had some truly wonderful experiences this year, in spite of so much loss and horror. I think reflection is healthy—the good and bad that has happened, and goal setting can be good for us by helping us to look forward. I’m not one who participates in New Year’s Resolutions, but I like to think about experiences I might want to have, whether learning something new, traveling, etc. It’s good to have something to hope for and work towards, but if those things don’t happen, I refuse to look at myself as a failure, because life can be really difficult at the best of times. 🤷‍♀️ I hope you are kind to yourself as you reflect on this year. You are extremely talented, and even though we don’t know each other, your wise and kind soul shines through your artistry. You have MUCH to be proud of as this year closes. I’m so happy I found Zocker this year and joined your Patreon. It’s been a comfort to me many times, and I’m grateful to have the opportunity to support your work! I hope you continue to prioritize yourself and your mental & physical health, because that is so important. Your readers will be here, cheering you on no matter what you do! 💜

TT


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