no update

Heya folks, no good news unfortunately. Sorry for the rambling, will tldr below

I try to avoid talking about irl things unless they have an immediate effect on my work here and this is one of those situations.

Firstly, me and my mom take care of my dad (he has dementia and can't do anything on his own). 

The only time he gets up on his own is during the night as he has a bathroom connected to his bedroom. He clings to a wall railing we have set up, we really emphasize to him that he can't be going to the bathroom on his own but he's bullheaded. 

Last night he had a fall, we woke up to him covered in blood. 

Thankfully it wasn't anything too deep but it's still a horrible situation. As some of you may know head wounds bleed like crazy, he has a big bump and gash but no brain damage or anything as far as we know. 

He's been falling more often these past months but only to the extent of minor scrapes, this was the one we've been dreading and so I worry about the future.

We can't take him to the hospital or anything as the expectation is that he'd die there. 

The last time he went to the hospital, over a decade ago, he stayed for half a year and ended up a shell of himself, with multiple strokes and heart attacks there. We also ended up with 50k+ of medical debt that we had to bankrupt for. 

I've only got 3 hours of sleep in and can barely think, but I feel the need to say this otherwise I'll try to desperately get my work done on time in silence, and just delay the inevitable apology post at the end of the month.

This feels even more like an excuse as I've been behind on comm work for a month, but there's no fighting it now.

Similarly I don't want y'all to feel guilted into staying on despite the lack of content, I won't feel slighted or anything if you want to bow out until things get normal again (I legit don't know when that will be).

It feels very uncomfortable talking about this in general, and I think I have to post publicly too as there are a ton of people I've been delaying in accepting commissions from, and this will set that back even further.

Tldr; Bad irl stuff on top of being behind in everything, I don't know when I'll have the update or be able to complete commissions, can't accept any more commissions until I'm done with this workload first

Be well buds, I'll see you when I can.