XaiJu
PxlFur
PxlFur

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NOTICE: Patreon on Hiatus

Leaving the page up so people can sign up and see existing animations. During this time I'll not be releasing anything from here publicly.

I had a run of good days and I thought I was out of it, I'm not.

Dealing with depression at the same time as long covid exhaustion... I'm not able to get my head anywhere close to doing animation.

When (if) I have more good days than bad ones and it sticks, I'll be back.

Leaving the page up so people can sign up and see existing animations.
During this time I'll not be posting anything from here to social media.

Edit: September 8th 2025

I've had a few people reach out to me to see what's going on. I'm still here.

Exhaustion has got bad it's "limbs feel 2x normal weight, hard to think, have to gather energy to stand up". type exhaustion, the sort experienced after multiple days of manual work when you are not used to it. I wake up feeling like this.

My current medical track is 'something is up with my endocrine system' Had multiple blood tests. Had another thyroid ultrasound, had my adrenal glands tested with a stimulation test (waiting for results).

This all takes time. Waiting to see specialists waiting for test appointments, waiting for results.

My days are boring. Struggling to do certain tasks around the house. Large amounts of time spent sitting or laying down watching whatever I can find just to pass the time. Fleeting moments where I feel a bit better, if used to do any creative work, or do something more extensive around the house, I pay for it with even more exhaustion.

I thrive when working out complex solutions to novel problems: sculpting, rigging, animating, coding, and even things I don't really showcase here like electronics and music and DIY. I have been reduced to 'sitting/laying in front of a screen'. It's not fun being me right now.

I will let you know more when I do.

Comments

Been a good few months, hope you're hanging in there!

PEACEWOLF

Depending on the depression, i myself atleast found an metaphoric anchor to cling to so I've been stable since, with a few certain days that it leaks out. I hope you get through yours, all of you who read this as well ❤️ Just don't put a lid on it, then it might explode ☹️

jejje33

I'm in a similar boat - I hope you feel better soon, man.

Nicodemus

Same here, depression can be a sore on the side for quite some time. I hope you can find help and get well soon!

PEACEWOLF

I know how this can be. You have all these things you want to to accomplish but no motivation to do anything so I end up just doom scrolling Facebook in bed all day, falling in and out of sleep. I truly hope you get feeling better!

FluffyPillow


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