feguimel

Helloo

Added 2023-08-11 01:25:42 +0000 UTC

I'm sorry everyone. I don't know where to begin. I'm not in the right state of mind for writing, and I doubt I'll be for some days yet, but I've always aimed to remain transparent with all of you here, so I'm gonna try anyway.

Today it's been a day of bad news, after a week nervously waiting for the lab results of one of my kittens. I just feel broken. And until more tests are done, I have to face the cruel assumption that my other kitten has been affected by it too. I don't even know what to think rn... I just keep expecting to wake from my bed, to find out today was only a bad nightmare.

And I was honestly in dire needs of better news. Before even a hint of any of the above, I had been going thru a whole other month of stress-related disorders in my own body, not improving even after following the same old 'protocol' that used to help me in previous episodes, every other year.

With all things... I don't know where my head is standing right now, my mind is gray, I'm running on fumes.

If you are able, please wait for me. I intend to return to activity, to work, the sooner I can. Idleness doesn't do me good, but my mind can only handle so much at once and still be 'creative'.

Thank you so much for reading.