Thoughts on Hiatus

Hey everyone.

Recently, things have gotten pretty out-of-wack thanks to the hurricane and the off/on stuff from the folks involving the moving and house. It's once again put me behind, but I know I could have done better to to alleviate some of the problem by just pushing to get as much as I could done before being called to help the folks, no matter how random into the day/night it was. Even though I had high hopes that we would have been moved out during last month, I should have been prepared for the worse. Sadly, with some dilly-dallying and rainy days hitting us here and there, plus the hurricane, those plans got destroyed for sure. And I hate every bit of it.

I've been thinking this over for the last month and reality is that, until we can get everything finished here, I don't know how consistent I can make posts for everyone and still managed to work out my own commission issues. So, I've boiled it down to a couple of choices, both of which involving a hiatus. The dilemma is: 

Close down Patreon entirely and take hiatus from it until things get better? 

or 

Take out reward tiers once again and just try to keep Patreon going with just pic posts and possible exclusives only? 

This particular hiatus will no apply to THIS month. Those in the picture reward tiers can still sign up for a pic this month through this link: https://drive.google.com/open?id=1COQXSXF1I3mDqry97_o351b8KpgjeOT978C9F63cglI

As for me closing down my Patreon: this has been a thought that has crossed my mind, mainly out of despair because I see many other artists on Patreon manage to create content almost constantly and once upon a time, I could do that. But with how life has been and how it's affected me, I know it's caused some problems with me on a personal level. I've failed to provide content before and it's been a bit rough trying to pump out content on the same level as artists such as Cursedmarked and Meesh. (I know that's not the point, the point is doing what I myself want and can do.)

I want to give you my higher quality personal stuff but trying to balance that and doing my commission work is something I've been struggling off and on with. I don't want to gyp you or make you feel like many others who have left because of my lack of posts. (Nothing against you, I understand why). Compared to what I started off with when I MADE my Patreon, this is subpar.

However, if I were to close down Patreon, it would only be for as long as it takes for things to get better here at home. I would want to come back. because despite my and the site's shortcomings, I do enjoy it, and I'd want to give it a better start. Plus I'd probably want to turn off the up-front payment method. Since they have the new stuff that allows content to not be easily jacked by non-processed Patrons, I think it pretty much makes the up-front option a bit moot for me. (That and just I feel bad that I can provide as people pay for upfront). 

Sorry again for this being a topic again. I know that I haven't been the greatest over the years and I appreciate what you all have done. I just am lost in this living situation and just how it's wrecked my work process. 

Please, let me know what you think about this. I want to know your thoughts. I know communication on here isn't amazing or anything, and that in the end, it's my decision, but I really do appreciate knowing what you think I could do better or what you think about this.  

Also sorry for the the awkward writing, I rewrote this many times.