Chai Tea, Avocado Toast, and Talking Mental Health
Added 2020-10-04 03:07:35 +0000 UTCCW: I discuss my mental health journey and briefly touch on suicidal tendencies
Other than that it's just me vigorously gesticulating and wringing my hands for about half an hour~
Please enjoy!
- Aasimar
*edit*
I was informed by a patron that my fly is down! Yikes. If I wasn't so brown I'd be blushing.
I didn't know whilst filming but the way these pants were tailored, they tend to unzip easily without my knowing.
Sorry~
Comments
And my b, I know that was already 5 million years long, but I think you being very thoughtful about how much is responsible to share is already indicative of you being on the right track. We obviously can’t decide for you what is a good level of openness from you, but I guess the positive comments about it all throughout this thread may help you gauge that from our end, we don’t think you’re oversharing or being weird or anything 😂 You just have to make sure on your end that you are creating intentional boundaries for yourself/your protection and respecting them. Which again it sounds like you’re already working toward so 💪👏
Hannah
2020-10-07 06:42:32 +0000 UTCWhen listening to/watching these in which you talk about deep stuff, I’m just dying to have a deep convo with you about life and just any- and everything lol. I greatly appreciate the social commentary and self-awareness you bring into all the topics you address here (I guess “here” being your internet presence as a whole). (Also sorry for being that person but it has to be noted that you have a distractingly gorgeous smile, and I might get roasted for saying this but I'm iiiiinto the mustache whether it’s happening intentionally or just as a 5 o’clock shadow thing idc 😩) Annnyway, as someone who has worked to consume healthier media for my mental health, I can say that it has helped and has been pretty sustainable long-term, as long as I’m not using it to drown out real things I need to face. Or if I’m just genuinely having a really rough mental health day, sometimes I need to just allow myself to feel it instead of being adamant about making myself feel hyped. Finding that balance has been the struggle there, but it really has changed the game for me. I don’t know if my saying that holds any value to your situation, but I hope it does. As for “the group project called love” 😂, while I have a *contentious* relationship with my parents and some of the things they taught me, something I do really appreciate is how they emphasized that being in a relationship isn’t two people completing each other; it’s two whole individuals building a life together. I love that. It definitely helps me keep myself in check when I’m finding myself getting lost in the other person, who my brain thinks they want me to be, and/or finding my value in them. I have to be whole and good with myself and my mental state outside of another person before I can introduce someone into the mix and expect a healthy outcome. And in specific terms of the manic pixie dream girl archetype, it’s like, it’s harmful to think that a good relationship consists of leaching off of someone else’s positivity and happiness *and* it’s harmful, as you said, to fetishize someone’s mental health, especially because that usually comes with people looking to benefit from the highs and shy away from, minimize, or even disparage for the lows. But I could write a novel there, so I’m just going to conclude by saying that I appreciate you bringing up these topics with a critical eye. 🙌
Hannah
2020-10-07 06:32:01 +0000 UTCi gotta say, i really enjoy this type of content from you. it's really relaxing and it's just nice hearing you talk outside of the realm of nsfw content (although that is enjoyable as well). i get the stoicism you talk about and i can relate to the struggle of moving past that and telling yourself that it is okay for you to be a little bit more open to the things that make you happy. i'm glad you're taking the time to be a little kinder to yourself and become more of an active participant in your life. at times it can be difficult, but the strides you gain from practicing caring about your mental health will make it worth it. also, don't apologize for talking about something too much/too little. it's okay. you're doing great.
lana🍒
2020-10-05 14:23:57 +0000 UTC1. We are the lucky ones that you share yourself with us. 2. Please, take your own advice: "Please be kind to yourself." 3. Trust me, we like you just the way you are. Just being yourself is wonderful. 4. You said you're an Aquarius. Where is your Moon? 5. The traditional relationship was patron-artist. You are an artist, with words, food, and every wonderful way you express yourself. Perhaps thinking of yourself as an artist might help you feel more comfortable? 6. Sweetheart, do you know your zipper's down, or did you mean to tease us? ;) 7. As far as what to talk about, Stephen King always says he surprised how much people want to hear about how a character works. Where. When. How. Flashes of expertise (which you show often in everything you do). I hope that helps.
Sebastiene
2020-10-04 19:17:53 +0000 UTCi had never put two and two together, but it makes sense that because mental health is contingent on our surroundings, it certainly makes sense that the type of media we're consuming is part of this too! i'm happy that this is something that you pinpointed for the better and you're choosing to consume media that puts you in a better headspace :)) have you sworn off anime entirely, or just the ones that have unrealistic expectations of relationships? and are there other types of media you've heard of that you'd be interested in ~dabbling~ in? you know this already and you mentioned in your video - patrons support content creators because the patrons enjoy the content the creators create. we know that you're extremely thoughtful in what you decide to share with us, and we mean it when we say that we enjoy whatever you put out because of that. these videos where you reflect on yourself, commentate on everything under the sun, and you doing you are what we enjoy! i'm not sure if that eases the pressure at all LOL but we're here to grow with you in any way we can. wishing you the best!! xo
beef
2020-10-04 16:38:08 +0000 UTCIt was so nice hearing you speak so freely with us! It felt like I was catching up with a friend. But in a future video, I’m not sure if you talked about this already, but I would love if you could talk about your journey with GWA? (How you found out about it, your thoughts on posting your first video, how you feel now since you’ve been doing so well, etc.) thank you! ❤️❤️
Marisol
2020-10-04 16:27:28 +0000 UTCThanks for the pretty egg <3. Honestly, I’d be interested in hearing more about what you do to take care of yourself! Like what are your go-to things to do for self-care? I also hope you’ve been getting (somewhat) good sleep. Your sweater looks nice btw. As someone who is always reminding others to take care of themselves, I often forget to take care of myself. So, please remember to take care of yourself! As long as it makes you happy, please keep doing what makes you feel most comfortable. The fact that you are even conflicted about whether or not you should be sharing more means a lot. If that means sharing more, or less, we will continue to support you no matter what. <33
uhhuhhh
2020-10-04 16:17:48 +0000 UTCi honestly love these videos from you. not only is your voice super soothing but it’s nice to hear you just talk about what’s on your mind. as others in the comments have said, just share what you’re comfortable with! as for future videos, i think it would be nice if you talked about things you love/what makes you happy. ps i love your sweater, it looks so comfy 🥺
kayla
2020-10-04 07:27:31 +0000 UTCWow. Sadly I related to a lot of your feelings, its a very deep hole to be in and I'm still trying to build a ladder out of it. You said that very few people asked questions, so if its something that you feel comfortable talking about, do you want to elaborate more on how you take steps to actively participate in your own life? It was really nice hearing feelings that I could relate to told in such a friendly and eloquent way. I hope you're doing well, and know that we always support you 🤗🤗 I know there isn't much we can say to ease the anxiety, but we're on your team!
Shy
2020-10-04 07:23:27 +0000 UTCThis was nice, its like catching up with a good friend. You touched on some good points in the video and you are right you should share whatever you feel comfortable sharing, nothing more. It seems that you're already making good strides to prioritize your mental health. Someone once told me everywhere you go you take yourself, and that relationship is the most important. Be kind and nurturing to yourself. You got this 💕
A
2020-10-04 05:50:36 +0000 UTCAhhh I felt so much excitement when you said “here’s your tea!” I really adore this roleplay style for these type of videos! Also, you already know this but I’ll still reiterate: only share what you’re comfortable with and be kind to yourself! We’ll be here to support you either way 💓
anna
2020-10-04 05:12:18 +0000 UTC
