Chill pill.

 They agreed on doing this together. The thing was -they didn't agree on a time. Filip still remembered how good it felt few months ago, how connected he was to his own body and to everything that was affecting it. Sounds, smells... touch. He had a deep feeling of softness and love inside of him which was in a big contrast to his everyday attitude. Actually it was really hard for him to admit, that ever since then, he kept on craving to feel it again. He just needed to ask Patrick the moment he wanted to be close again with the use of the drug.
Even though he agreed on the "terms", he ended up being too stubborn and proud to voice up his needs of emotional and sensual high. He still had this weird belief that somehow it was making him look weak.
So one evening he decided to "borrow" the drug without asking Patrick and just roll with the feelings as they peaked.
Though the change in his behavior was easily detected, and truth to be told Patrick didn't mind this cute thievery. Of course it meant that they still had to work on Filip's ability to speak up about his needs but it didn't make his inability to do so less adorable. Especially when, as the drug kept on spreading, Filip became more touchy and kissy (something that was really abnormal to him). Pat didn't need to be asked twice. Needy behavior of his friend was a big enough spark to put him into a slightly sadistic mood where even a gentle stroke could become a torture.  

Patrick highly appreciated moments before and after though. Side where kisses were something to be craved, and touch was something more than just a tool to quench lustful thirst (even though he really enjoyed being less romantic and affectionate too).
Nether the less, seeing Filip in need of sensual love was deeply touching. Almost like taming a feral cat, or being able to pet a reserved dog which used to avoid your touch. Calm, warm moments of seeing your partner falling asleep on your chest, being able to comb their hair with your fingers... Feelings of connection and belonging. Such a simple experience for most, yet so unique and unusual for others.  

He had a deep belief that one day Filip will connect with his own needs and wants, to the point, where drugs will not be necessary. He won't need a chemical igniter to express how deeply he craves to be seen and wanted just as he is - with flaws, insecurities and weaknesses. 

Their worlds were so different. Upbringing, family, friends, passions, dreams. Yet here they were, carrying holes that in that moment, only two of them could fill.

Need, and be needed.