Future of this patreon.

So a lot of things happened lately, all of it being quite bad...

To start things off, I am not sharing this to everyone on internet except you guys because you are my patrons, so please don’t spread this. Basically, I fuked my master degree this year, 50marks was a pass but teacher decided to give me 45 instead. Main reason of my failure wasn’t because the master degree is hard, in fact if it is the normal me it will be really easy to do. But the main trouble is that I was really stress by parents and life this year.

Start of my master degree parents has already been telling me to start finding jobs, once I didn’t do so well they start changing the pressure into “I cannot draw anime once I finished university, as I will need to find a proper job”. Some of you guys might remember me talking about it early this year, and suggested I could either draw alongside work or part time job along with patreon. I have seen a lot of friends who say they will write or draw alongside work, but none of them really works out. So I suggested part time job but my mum didn’t like the idea at all.

After I know the result they offer me to restudy 2/3 of the year, but the cost is way too much and it just isn’t worth it, after trying to ask for a resit/remark in the end it was certain that nothing can be done, so now the plan is just ditching master and go back to Hong Kong.

So ya, at the moment I am planning to go back to HK in end November, as things are slightly easier and food is better in HK. But this also means I will have to start thinking about my life direction. Just now I have a huge fight with my mum on phone, as she thinks the whole time I have been drawing is a waste of time, rather than continue trying to be an artist I should just find a proper job and earn money. Despite Patreon is having progress every month, she don’t think this is working at all and think I should just give up. I don’t want that of course as I really enjoy making drawings and want to do some of the stories (new year animal stuff) that people have been asking for a year now… In the end the conversation went to a really bad end as I suggest I might as well kill myself as I am not doing what I want and causing them too much trouble… then my dad step in and say he will let me continue drawing for a year but after that I will have to start finding job if I don’t make enough money end of next year…

I really don’t know what’s the plan for this year… early 2018 I probably try draw the animal story and maybe draw the zombie story in February, but after that I probably have to start making new friends and ask for how to be successful as an artist, or end of year I will just stop drawing online and find proper jobs (or art related jobs.).

BTW, do not hate on my parents, as they are really nice people. They might not support me on drawing but that is only because they care about me. I am already too lucky to have them as my parents... Honestly I feel sorry for my parents, my dad especially... He work really hard to keep the family going, but then here is me being me... Often I think to myself, would life be easier for them if I am not me, or if I don't exist..

Here I want to say, thank you everyone for your support, either you are new or ones from last year, you guys support meant a lot to me. I am not good at communicating so I am sorry if I don’t seem like I appreciate you guys but I really do. Thank you for reading.