A Message To All

Hey there doggy. I apologize for making you wait so long. I’m going to try to cut the sappy stuff so I can articulate my point better. So, sorry this is gonna feel blunt. 

Clearly, I’m having trouble consistently producing content. For all who have continued to support me over the near seven fucking months of almost total radio silence: thank you. You are supporting a lifestyle that I struggle to convince myself I fully deserve. Let me make it clear: I’m not quitting. Though I think I need change. 

Don’t let that scare you. Let me explain. A few reasons have led me to desire a change of format: I’m becoming increasingly disinterested in projecting myself as a sexual being when I am extremely extremely asexual. I don’t regret the content I’ve made, but for the sake of transparency: the sexual stuff always comes with a sense of dread, which leads to procrastination. I tend to avoid it in my writing process, usually leaving it to be funneled in at the end as an improv. While editing my content I find myself not wanting to experience the sexual content I’ve recorded for myself. If you’ve subscribed to my patron because you love the sexual release I provide: I’m sorry, but I’d really like to cut it from my content for a while. I truly am sorry to disappoint you, puppy. 

Another reason I want change is because script writing has felt more and more difficult. My meticulously written scripts and hypnotic induction are just something that don’t cross my mind much these days. I’m not sure if they’ll completely cease, but I feel like they may become less of a focus if I am to pump out content on a more consistent basis. 

I wanted to ask you, my dear doggy, if you would be open to the idea of more improv based content that may not always contain hypnotic suggestions. I’m so sorry to everyone that I’ve been stringing along month to month while they anticipate another file as great as my most well known ones. Truthfully I’ve always been worried that I could never live up to what I’ve already produced. I want to know your thoughts on what I’ve shared. Do you even care? Do you even remember you’re paying me month to month for essentially nothing? I’m so sorry for not being more consistent. I speak weekly with a therapist and one issue that always comes back is how much shame I feel for neglecting this aspect of my work. It’s finally time I take action that will help me leave the pressure and regret behind. 

I want to have this patron focus more on the ASMR aspect. I feel best when I get to show my personality through organic dialogue. I want to whisper, tease, and inspire. I don’t just want to be a source for sexual release. I want to be consistent, I want to be present in your life, and I want to go back to when I breathed life into puppy play. I miss how it feels to release my work and wake up to thanks from users who told me I gave them their first positive experience with kink.

Sorry, this ended up actually getting really sappy. I’ve bottled these feelings up for so long and I don’t even know if they make sense. I wrote all this down while it’s very late and I can see the sun rising. I have a file that’s almost done. I just have to edit the sexual part. After I release that file, I’m going to try to record something new, yet familiar. Not exactly sure what yet,  if I truly believe some of my best work comes from my improv. I think for now I’m done writing long scripts. Maybe I’ll come back to it someday. For now, I’d like to focus on hypnosis that happens organically through improv conversations that are intended to coerce you into puppyspace. See, the core is still the same, I’d just like to change my approach a bit. Sorry for getting all melodramatic. Please, let me know how you feel about this. This page is about you as much as it is about me. 

I care about you.