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Happy New Year&Plan about 2025

Added 2025-01-01 00:00:07 +0000 UTC

Guten Abend! Members!

I am so glad that an old year passed, a new year begin.Of course, for me, the new year starts with the Lunar New Year(Spring Festival), so I may publish another short full-year summary on that day.

In the past year, I have accomplished many things. Perhaps I have achieved some form of success, but it is far from enough for me to promote my own ideals and concepts. In the new year, this is exactly what I need to continue striving for.

Last year, I started developing and promoting my game project, but I struggled with programming, and my partner died of depression—this is the third person I know who has died of depression. Development has since stalled, and I realized that I must learn programming myself. Therefore, in the new year, I decided to start learning programming on my own and no longer rely on others.

As for other aspects, writing has basically stopped because I have long been banned from publishing any articles on the GFW internet. I can only publish my articles by helping others write, and I don't have the energy to translate my articles into other languages, so writing has basically stopped.

Composing has also stopped because I am not good at electronic composition. I am better at composing by hand— that means writing sheet music staff. Obviously, it is not very useful because I am no longer in the Orchestra a long time ago . But at least it allows me to relax, at least not to the point of complete collapse.

Only drawing is the one thing I have persisted in. I think you know me because of my art. I am very grateful for your support and attention. Without your support, I would not have been able to persist, even for Schbatruien, I would not dare to say I could have persisted for so long. The goal for next year is still to improve my skills and abilities and create more materials for my game project.

Also, I am about to graduate, and I need more...so-called public-level works to enrich my portfolio. Therefore, next year I will try to increase the number of public content works.

So, in summary, there are several goals for next year:

1. Stay alive
2. Learn programming by myself
3. Improve painting skills
4. Maintain writing skills
5. Steadily develop the game

I know,that all of this takes time. Unfortunately, I don't have much time left.

On the one hand, I am about to graduate. If I cannot continue my master's degree, I must find another way. On the other hand, since I was arrested by my "dear" government for I wrote articles to express our dissatisfaction with some policies twice, I have been suffering from severe Schizophrenia for several years. I can no longer communicate normally with other native use same langugue except few people I trust, and I need to go to the hospital for regular check-ups every month, which will seriously slow down my efficiency.

And the reason I can still go to school is because my parents Tampered with the hospital's diagnosis to bipolar disorder, which sounds less serious,so that i can still study the major I never love and cause me many pressure..

I am a failure,that is for sure,and I always think so. I cannot protect the people I love and the things I want to do,and have made many wrong choices as well.Any unexpected situation may make it impossible for me to continue working,even living. I don’t know when that day will come, but I will be ready for make my own choice. But I sincerely hope that this time—just this one choice is correct, and I will be satisfied. At least people will remember that I was here,I was remembered..

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Laugh now, just happy here and this day,

I am so glad to make a gift to you,and for a new year,and as Tradition begin with Schbatruien~~