Wednesday piano mediation - no. 41

Hellou there, in a bit of a thoughtful mood today. I am feeling the Weltschmerz (translatable with 'world pain') quite a lot of the moment, there are so many terrible and absurd things going on in this world, I don't even know where to look first.

Sometimes, meaning a lot of times I don't know what to do about it - and also I'm aware that I can't do or change much anyway. Still I try to do my best, spread the truth and use my reach about ongoing happenings, but I'm also not perfect, so it happened that I shared something inappropriate yesterday. I just had a big talk with a friend about it who told me about his reality, his life and his experiences and why it was hurtful for him to see what I shared. First I felt attacked, cause that was of course not my intention - and naturally started to defend myself. Which I then stopped, cause in reality I didn't know better, I didn't inform myself well enough and I made a mistake, which he made me aware of. The most important thing for me then is to listen, not to explain him why I did what. He's right - I will never understand everything as people, who are directly affected by it, understand it. I grew up in Germany, raised by a white german family and of course I can imagine how it must feel, what they went through and are still going through - but I will never really get it and I was never trying to say that I would. I can just listen to those who know better and try my best to support them.

What I'm trying to say here, this is the mindset I'm in right now, I recorded this only a bit after the talk we had. I see what's going on in the news, how people talk to each other, how they're divided, how they fight each other, how some have so much power and so many have none at all. How some have so many privileges and some don't have any. How unfair the world is and how hard it is to keep up some hope. I know that I'm privileged, I know that I'm lucky in very many ways. I know that others are not.

I'm sending out love to everyone who needs it and I'm thinking of the people who are suffering right now, hoping for the future to be better.

Love,

xx