A K-pop Idol 68

As Alex had predicted, the news that he had went out with Byun Sehun soon spread all over the country, and caused a great commotion. Already the next day, this became the main subject of the Korean entertainment world, and the feminized man was bombarded with several questions about this. 

Alex decided to ignore this harassment at first, but the effect of this decision was even worse. In a few hours, there were several reports that the two were a couple now, with even some false statements from Alex and Byun Sehun confirming this – well, at least Alex guessed that the guy's statements were false too. He didn't believe the actor would say they were in a serious relationship after just a kiss. That kiss…

Just remembering it made him feel that thrill all over again. As much as Alex wanted to deny it, he had loved that moment… Deep down, he wished it had lasted forever. This had been so affectionate and warm. Alex felt like a loved and protected girl. 

But I'm not a girl! He told himself, almost desperate. He shouldn't feel like that when kissed by a man. He should feel repulsed! 

While Alex was thinking about it, he heard his phone ringing. He saw that this was a text message, exactly from Byun Sehun. It said: "Thanks for the wonderful night. This may sound silly, but I can't stop thinking about you. I hope to see you again soon! Kisses, Sehun."

Before Alex realized what he was doing, he began to respond to the message, with a silly grin on his face. "I loooved it too! :-) Sure, let me know when you can!" But then, before he pressed the button to send the text, he saw what he was doing. What's wrong with me? It seems that Choi Hyun and Song Yeon are right. I really am acting like a fool in love…

That afternoon, Alex had another meeting with Dr. Wong, the psychologist. He decided to tell the man his problem, and ask his opinion. Alex couldn't tell the whole truth, of course, so he invented that even though he longed to be a girl all his life, he had never thought he was attracted to men, but now it seemed to be changing.

"But it isn't possible, right, Mr. Wong?"

As usual, the man didn't respond immediately. He thought for a moment before saying, "In your case, I believe that you were too overloaded with your gender identity issues to think about your sexuality. Now, you're finally having the opportunity to self-explore and find out what really attract you."

"But, sir... I… I used to think I was attracted to girls... Even wishing to be one of them..." 

"This could be a possibility. Sexuality and gender identity are not necessarily intertwined. However, now that you are finding your true self, this doesn't seem to be the case. Maybe you thought you were attracted to girls before because you were in denial, since you was still unable to see yourself as the woman you are."

"I... I don't know, sir..." 

"My dear girl" Dr. Wong said, with a paternal smile. "I think you're still in denial. You need to accept yourself as a woman. This is what you always wanted, after all. It doesn't matter if some part of your body is still male. What matters is that you are a woman inside. If you feel happy as the girlfriend of some nice guy, what is the problem? Isn’t that what we all seek? Happiness?"