I'm Turning 30 tomorrow.
Added 2024-04-05 17:42:02 +0000 UTCI'll turn 30 tomorrow.
I was planning to do the usual funny "your 30s are coming! you're getting old hahaha" pic, but being honest, it's affecting me more than I was expecting. Not really because of the age, but kind of because of the lost time. I don't feel like a 30yr old man. I feel like a stupid kid who wasted his 20s and still doesn't know what to do with his life and what to do going forward. I'm tired, my body hurts all over, I can't say I'm good with money and I feel really sad and lonely. I'm grateful for every good thing that has happened to me until now, but I don't know, I expected more from my life at this point. I know it's a little selfish and arrogant, it sucks feeling that way, but it's how I feel.
Even so, I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you for staying with and supporting me all this time. You guys really changed my life and will never be thankful enough or that. I'm sorry if I'm not as fast as other artists, or if my work is not as interesting or sexy as theirs. I can only promise that I'm trying and hoping to improve more from now on; just that, I'll try my best. I also want to tell you all: don't worry, I'll be fine, I recover quickly. But being honest, I might take a few days to reflect and calm down a little after this, I feel like I need to disconnect and be at peace with myself before I continue, I don't want to feel so stagnant anymore. Just a couple days, and then I'll go back to work, I hope you understand.
Comments
I love your comics so much. The amount of love and effort you put into it helps me love my partner all the more. The synergy of Ark and Cobb have inspired my dnd character and how he moves his partner in the campaign.
Roasche Enrock
2024-04-09 19:58:47 +0000 UTCHonestly, your comic kind of changed my life ; it helped me accept my own bisexuality and seeing what a passionate gay romance could look like, without the usual layer of RP or violence/semi-rape that so many other comics focus on. So thanks for that, a lot. Reading about your sad feelings is very moving, and honestly I won't be like other people and say "you shouldn't worry". I believe that having this feeling of sadness is not a bad thing, it just shows that you want to be a better person than you already are, it shows that you want to be the best artist you could be. It's not a bad thing to acknowledge or embrace your feelings, as long as you define some kind of "limit" to the emotion (how much sadness do I want to feel, so that it pushes me forward without hurting too much ?). On another note, I will support you no matter what and you can take as much rest as you need ! Please, take care. And thanks again for your wonderful art and comic. Happy birthday!
DaNask
2024-04-07 23:01:40 +0000 UTCFirst of happy birthday too you. Second 30 is a scary number but it can also show all the skill and experience that you gain. Your still young and you don't have to worry about it.
Everos
2024-04-05 22:07:17 +0000 UTCThe Fudge!
RadosVeinTwilight
2024-04-05 21:55:25 +0000 UTCWait you’re only a few months older than me?
RadosVeinTwilight
2024-04-05 21:54:57 +0000 UTCYou might be surprised by how many folks who pass the 30's hurdle can empathize with you. The aches and pains are fairly universal, some more or less depending on health, exercise, genetic lottery, shenanigans and tomfoolery, etc. I feel ya completely on the wasted 20's feeling. I don't know how you 'wasted' yours, but mine was nothing but fear and doubt preventing me from really engaging with life, the world, and the things I was really passionate about. So much time feels wasted.... but it's how we become who we are. Sometimes we need lessons to be lobbed at us like bricks, other times we need to sit with them for a time to get them, to understand, to learn. This day and age may encourage folks to work at breakneck speeds, but it ain't necessary. I can't speak for others, but I care more for quality over quantity. Your work has quality. You're doing what you can, and trying to improve where you can; That's all that can be reasonably asked of you. Take a few days - revel in selfish and self-focused whims without guilt (almost all of us do it at some point). Allow yourself to grieve youth's passing and the expectations you had for those years. Then look to the future and what you desire - much and more awaits, surprises around every corner (some good, some bad). Get back to work when yer feelin' it. You've got this :)
Malacite24
2024-04-05 21:06:33 +0000 UTCI feel the same way
richard
2024-04-05 20:50:13 +0000 UTCFirst of all I am gonna say it to you aswell: 30 is not old, you have a still lot ahead. You have your own problems as everyone else so noone yan say a bad thing about it. Yes you make your stuff slower but I can see you give your best in them. '... my work is not as interesting and sexy...' For me your work was the first one that give reason to read it through not just search for the hot part. Your Forest Hunt has so much things, humor, emotions, strong story just to name some. The whole comic was so strong to me that I read it for a week again and again. While I am wrinting this the 62nd page is on my screen and it is so funny to look at their face, I love it every time I see it. If you need time than take it. The quality is better than the quantity in this case
kriszn
2024-04-05 18:52:22 +0000 UTCDon't you dare say that! Your comic Forest Hunt is the most interesting and sexiest comic I've ever read so far. There are comics that come close but nothing has beaten yours yet. And I'm really looking forward to seeing more :) But don't feel pressured! I can wait. I prefer it to be done well instead of fast.
tygrophooliac
2024-04-05 18:08:07 +0000 UTC
