how's it going, refund is going.(this guy done fucked up again)

so I'm back now,  yeah, I'm aware that many of you guys got charged your bucks off by an accident...eh not really an accident isn't it,,,, was just me being dumbass forgetting turn off my account
oh yeah that happened twice,,, twice, so two accidents to be exact,I wonder how people think about it.

seriously,I'm so sorry, I apologize for not updating anything for so unbelievably long, and not only that, I can't even think of what to say about this embarrassing fuck up.

I'll update this post later,to explain about,,uh I really need to sleep,

___________and here's update_____________________________

so you know I've been AWOL, for a stupid long time, (yes it happened again)

This particular habit has been happening quite periodically for years and years.

I always felt I was not doing well enough compared to others, I guess I just wanted to fix it, by doing so much shit more than my life could actually handle.

it worked sometimes, sometimes not, either way, it costed me to get burnt out by stress.

My issue is seemingly quite simple in sentences, but for me, not really so, even after I saw the problem I had a struggle to swallow the red pill, prolly I was in a denial of some sort.

Anyway I'm done with it now,  as for the solution, I'll be less autistic about "doing well" things, and be more careful about how much I can chew at once, I learned my jaw isn't as big as some of the other artists, well I'm Asian so that makes sense somewhat.

I still haven't told what caused my last snap from the internet, so I'm gonna mention it as well.

in the late August my yard got hit by a lightning (edit: I wasn't hit by a lightning ) and I was tweeting about complaining how loud thunders are), my phone and wifi had fried by the electrical surge, and then a week later after it got fixed my PC's power unit had its capacitor exploded. I had no money to fix the problem at that point(couldn't even diagnose which parts needed to be changed in that time), neither no mobilephone. I was like "fuck it, I'm gonna find a new job then".

That's the explanation for that particular event of my last disappearing (I'm doing fine now)

it's gettin' lengthy enough and I've already taken way too long writing this already so I'll end this right here.

lastly once again, I'm sorry about that.