The Kitty Litter: November/December 2018

Time really flies when you think about it.

Just a few months ago, I thought to myself, "man, we're only this many months into 2018! I still have so much more time left to finish all of these other projects that I want to get out!". And now look at me. Here I am, sitting in front of my computer typing up this months Kitty Litter thinking to myself, "Man, there is literally only a few weeks left of this year..."

And what have I done about it? Unfortunately not a whole lot.

That's one problem I've always had with setting goals for myself at the start of each and every year. It's that with my lazy ass, I know for certain that I'm only ever going to achieve a measly 10% of the goals that I set up for myself to complete within the year (if I'm lucky, that is). And the same thing has happened again with this year.

I think the problem stems from the fact that I have no sense of urgency with this kinda stuff. I give myself "too much time" to start (or complete) something creative, cool and different. And because of that there is always a small voice at the back of my head telling me "hey man, don't worry about it. You can always do it next year!"

But what if there is no "next year?"

YouTube is such a fragile little thing, and 2018 certainly ingrained that hard truth into us content creators at a ruthless amount. We saw just how vulnerable we are to bullshit from companies, other content creators, and even our own managements and MCNs (like, what??). And that made me really scared for where I am right now. That made me want to get a little more urgent with my yearly goals and aspirations.

Luckily, I have you lovely Patrons and other generous viewers who give me donations on things like Twitch (and come and see me in person at conventions and whatnot), but even something like that is at a vulnerable state. Not because of some kind of third-party entity looking for ways to fuck me in the ass, but rather my own self lurking out there, waiting to fuck myself in the ass.

My own laziness and self-awareness of the urgency of my passions and jobs could potentially destroy me from the inside out. And that's terrifying to think about. It's something that I never want to see being turned into a cold reality.

And so that's why I've decided to not set yearly goals for myself like I always have.

Because why set it for "within this year", when I can set it for "right now"?

Musical Artists I Recommend For This Month:

- Bass Communion

- The Jon Spencer Blues Explosion

- Ling Tosite Sigure

- MF Doom

- The Dead Kennedys