3月

３月ですね！

お久しぶりです。

前回の投稿でお伝えしましたが友人の死で気持ちが落ち着かず一ヶ月間お休みしていました。暖かいメッセージと一ヶ月お休みしたにも関わらず支援して頂いた方々に感謝しています。ありがとうございます。

It's March!

It's been a while.

As I told you in my last post, I took a month off due to the death of a friend, which made me feel uncomfortable. I would like to thank all of you for your warm messages and support despite my month-long absence. Thank you very much.

人生初めてのお葬式でいっぱい泣いて、遺族の方が凄く優しくてその後家に数日泊まらせてくれて沢山元気をもらいました。これが無かったら結構やばかったです。

ちゃんと死を受け止めてさよなら出来て良かった。

周りにはつい元気な雰囲気出してしまうんですが内心まだきついので素の元気になるまではまだ時間が掛かりそうです。

実は亡くなった友人も絵を描くのが好きで、この子の影響で

「smokelies」https://twitter.com/smokelies0

が誕生したぐらいとても大切で大好きな子でした。もっと一緒に居たかったな

I cried a lot at the funeral for the first time in my life, and the bereaved family was so kind to let me stay at their house for a few days afterwards, which cheered me up a lot. If it hadn't been for that, I would have been in a lot of trouble.

I'm glad I was able to accept the death and say goodbye.

I tend to give off a cheerful vibe to people around me, but it's still tough inside, so it's going to take some time to get back to my true self.

Actually, my deceased friend also likes to draw pictures, and he was so important and loved that "smokelies"https://twitter.com/smokelies0 was born under the influence of this child. I wanted to be with you more

そして僕の今の想いを描いた絵です。

悲しいけど暖かく包みたかった。大丈夫だよと沢山の生き物達が彼に身を寄せ合います。その子はムカデが好きだったのでムカデを大きく入れました。

タイトルは「だいじょうぶ」

しばらくの間僕の感情が強い絵が続くと思います。このまま変化へと繋がるかもしれません。今回の件は人生で一番悲しく辛かった出来事でした。

僕は絵描きなので、この想いを絵に全部込めていきたいです。

もうすぐ色々告知も始まりそうなので徐々に元気を取り戻していかないとね🙂

And it is a picture that depicts my feelings.

I'm sad but I wanted to wrap it warmly. Many creatures hang out with him, saying it's okay. The child liked centipedes, so I put a lot of centipedes in them.

The title is "relief"

I think my emotional paintings will continue for a while. It may lead to change as it is. This was the saddest and most painful event in my life.

I'm a painter, so I want to put all these feelings into my pictures.

I'm going to start making a lot of announcements soon, so I should gradually get my energy back 🙂