An Apology
Added 2019-01-16 11:34:14 +0000 UTChello everyone . hope you're having a good year so far. mines has been insteresthing. i want to give an apology, and as with all true apologies it has 3 parts: i'm sorry, it all my fault, and how can i make up for it.
but first. a story
my holiday vacation was not one filled with cheer. i had to deal with what you would refer as emotional baggage which was due to my wifes side of the family. it put me in a very delicate position. one where if i say too much it may exposed cracks in the family. to keep a pretty picture for the holidays i basically had to pretend to be happy... and i was terrible at it. what you keep inside does indeed feel like it kills you. i still feel like if i got bruises on my inside.
i could not get away quick enough, but even that was problematic, as my car was at the shop the parts where hard to find. so the car was ready until the 3rd of January. to top it all off. me and my wife got a cold on new years. we enter the new year sick, both in soul and body.and I've been dealing with this feeling of stiffness inside. i am depressed for sure and even thou I've overcome so much, i still feel like rock bottom.
so this bring me to my apology .i'm apologizing for not being more productive and responsive. because regardless of what happens out there you deserve to know whats going on. i am already lucky enough to know that there people willing to throw me money for my silly doodles . and i do feel undeserving of such luck. so to make it up ill be doing 2 things
1 - ill give you a little "thanks" in return
2- in 15 days ill let you know what I've been planing all along. and i say it here so that you can hold my feet to the fire
once again thanks you for reading this and tagging along for the ride.
- Izra
