Update

Hey everyone (and happy Homestuck day),

I've received some messages about people concerned about how I'm doing, as well as just people wanting a general update- and now that I'm doing okay and getting back into things, I wanted to respond and give you guys an update about how things are going. 

First and foremost, I wanted to apologize for dropping the ball on monthly Patreon exclusives. I want to assure all of you that those videos are still going to come out, and I will get polls out on them as soon as I possibly can. I can't say thank you enough for being patient with me on this, and I promise you these past few months' videos are going to come out. 

In terms of the break I'd been taking from regular video releases, it honestly had the effect I'd hoped it did. To be completely transparent, I was in a bit of a rough place when I announced that I was going to be taking a break. I'd received some negative responses online that were starting to feel incredibly overwhelming, and the expectation to release regular videos during the height of it was contributing significantly to a feeling of burnout and stress. I was likewise dealing with some body image issues that made me hate editing myself and gave me a lot of anxiety even putting myself out there for an audience. I had started to really hate it, feeling like people hated me, that I hated the work, and that I was overwhelmed by expectation. And genuinely- getting to take some time off of working on them was incredibly helpful to me in terms of dealing with burnout. I've been feeling so much better and have gotten a lot of well-needed rest and work done. I have a whole new cache of ideas and inspiration, and I'm going to be back to releasing regular videos this month! I was going to release my first one a couple of weeks ago, actually, but life circumstances got in the way as I learned my Opa passed away very suddenly. I've been taking some time to rest, get non-YouTube work done, and deal with things. The next video will probably come out sometime in the next week, and I'm really proud of it and excited for you all to see it. 

I want to thank every single person who has been so patient with me for sticking with me during a time where I really needed support and to get my bearings again. I feel incredibly confident about the next few video ideas, and I'm really really excited to get them all out for you guys. Thank you so much for being so patient with me (and I am again going to assure you that the Patreon exclusives are still going to come out). 

Thank you so much for your support. I'm so excited to be back.

Sarah