SNEAK PEEK: God of War Part 16 Notes

Here are our notes for the next God of War episode. It's a little negative and a lot personal, but I wanted to share it with you guys first!

Something that bothered me was that Freya was asking for forgiveness and that she wanted her and Baldur to... move on from their past? And then when that didn’t work she like, immediately resorted to, “I’ll make it up to you sweetie, kill me, if it will make you feel better..”

And I’m like no, you do not have the right to ask for forgiveness. All you have, is the right to acknowledge what you have done and nothing more. You don’t expect forgiveness as if it’s something you deserve, you don’t expect that your child is going to forgive you just because you’re their mother; you have to earn forgiveness and what has she done to earn Baldur’s forgiveness? I don’t think I heard her apologize to him or really acknowledge directly to his face what she did to him, she would just make little comments to other people about how she did the best she could and wanted to protect him and has made her fair share of mistakes...blah blah blah.

Freya tried to prevent Baldur’s future death that she saw. But somehow by trying to save him, it seems like she had inadvertently killed him. I wonder what would have happened if she had not intervened at all, and just let Baldur grow up vulnerable, if he had died at the hands of Kratos the same. Without Baldur’s resentment and emotional pain and trying to get rid of the invulnerability spell, there is the possibility that he wouldn’t have done all of Odin’s bidding (tracking and hunting down Atreus and Kratos) in an attempt to break the spell which means he might not have died at Kratos’ hand. In the end, there is no way to really know. But both my own mother and Freya are flawed individuals. Trying to prevent something that you don’t REALLY know if it will happen or not and in the process you have caused great and almost unforgivable pain to your child. Trying to protect us, is a feeble and pathetic excuse for being unable to cope with your own fears. And your mistakes are the reason why you’re alone. And it’s no one else’s fault but your own. It’s not Kratos, it’s not my dad, it’s not my boyfriend, you are alone and without a child because of the mistakes you made. 

In the end, just because you raised someone, that does not entitle you to a relationship with them and to summarize, I’m on Baldur’s side (loosely speaking) All our mother has done is fuck up, say she did it to protect us but doesn’t try to fix her wrongs, just expects forgiveness and wants to move on without doing anything to deserve it. I feel for Baldur and I’m a little disappointed that he didn’t get to live, that he didn’t get to move past his resentment and grow into the person he could have been like Kratos for example. Kratos exemplifies someone who held on to things he shouldn’t have, lost people he shouldn’t have but grew past it into an extraordinary individual. Still flawed, but extraordinary. And Baldur never got to do that and I am so disappointed about that. Perhaps this is a lesson to me that I could be a truly wonderful person, if I can learn to let go of my own resentment, anger, disappointment and hurt. 

So I would like to take a moment, and thank both Kratos and Baldur, for becoming lessons to me. For showing me who I want to grow up as and for showing me, how I don’t want to end up.