Open hearted conversation

Do you want to know me as I really am? Or do you want to play a role to make specific content?

One of the things I had always loved about being in a fetsh community is having people with similar interests and experiences to talk with and share with and be inspired by. To feel like you belong somewhere right? I do too.

Because I personally have some alternatives fetshes myself, I do get personally attached to some of my content. Sometimes to the point I'm scared to share it because I loved it so much and it turned me on, that I couldn't handle the rejection if I put out and my audience didn't like it.

It's hard to separate myself from passion, my kinks, and my business. It confuses me to feel strongly about something but then get the sense my fans didn't. Remember ever feeling brave and telling someone you like feet only to have them shun you.

It's extremely hard to sell your own art. I never wanted to feel like a product, I wanted to explore and help people feel things. I love being able to create a world for someone to good in.

I sometimes feel left out from the community, from human connections, because I'm a content creator. If I stop producing content, am I anybody to them? They say they worship me but abandon me when I get tired. It's hard, my friends.

So I ask myself and my members, from my heart, do you want to know what I would really do? What im really into? Or do you just want me to make specific content? Because the 2 things are not the same. And I'm stuck in a cycle of confusion.

I can do both. Both in my mind for my own sanity, i have to keep a separation. role play and acting out a scene is not the same as when I flow into my own desires and let it happen naturally.

I appreciate the communication, as a demisexual this is important to me.

Sincerely
Your very human GSM
❤️