Journal #7
Added 2020-01-14 04:39:27 +0000 UTCI DID IT!!!
To be completely honest - I woke up today feeling the same as I have the past couple weeks. Didn’t get very good sleep, didn’t feel very loved or special and just had the darkness hanging over me like the rain cloud following a character in a cartoon. I guess it’s just one of those times. Hormones are still messed up, depression episode is going strong, choked down a panic attack after a talk with Tyler last night that made me realize we may not be right for each other, feeling drained and numb....
BUT. I told myself that I was going to make the most of this day and try to put in as much effort into making people smile as I could. I spent 2 hours responding to DMs, streamed for 4 hours when I didn’t think I could make it to 2 hours, filmed (and about to film for another hour!) and going to end off my day with yoga and reading.
So, I did it. I pushed through. I found purpose and chugged on. I’m really proud of myself. It makes me feel weary thinking it may always be like this and I’ll have to put in so much effort just to get some pep in my step and life in my stride, but I keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time. If that overwhelms me, then I think of it in hours, minutes, the present. And it helps.
Breathing. Baby steps. I can do this.
Thank you everyone!!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Comments
You tried Frivvi and at the end of the day that’s all we can do sometimes but it’s the constant effort over and over that creates good fulfilling results. Your journal entries have forced me to reflect on my day, one day at a time and make some changes that I was previously afraid to. I bet this happens with a lot of us to after we read them. Grateful always for you being bold and sharing with all, and all that you do for the ASMR community. 💙💙
Matt Wahl
2020-01-14 23:43:12 +0000 UTCSending love to you always. I’ve been finding things quite difficult at the moment and taking it day by day has even seemed overwhelming. Thank you for reminding me that I can also take it hour by hour and minute by minute when necessary. I truly believe you’ll be in a place where having a ‘pep in your step’ is just a little bit easier soon. Praying for that time to hurry up and arrive for you x
ACB
2020-01-14 22:42:46 +0000 UTCU might feel smol or weak, but you're a fighter! Proud of you Lauren ❤️ And speaking from personal experience, please don't decide too quickly while you're in a very bad state of mind...when you're better, you will see things clearer Dear ✨
kirakira. peach
2020-01-14 17:09:53 +0000 UTCSo proud of you! Don't make any major decisions while your brain is lying to you. Just keep pushing through minute by minute if necessary ❤
Finnigan
2020-01-14 13:06:33 +0000 UTCI'm proud of you, but don't forget to focus on finding your own reasons to smile too. Helping others is great, but your happiness makes helping others even easier.
2020-01-14 07:18:27 +0000 UTCI am so proud of you. You are freaking awesome!
Juan Ruiz
2020-01-14 06:58:59 +0000 UTCProud of you for pushing through it, its really hard to feel like its not going to change or get better.
Mooshty
2020-01-14 06:52:09 +0000 UTCThats wonderful Lauren I happy you were able to do it in a way that worked for you. Thanks for sharing with us. Love ya Bud🧡❤💙💜💗
2020-01-14 06:51:32 +0000 UTCYou did fine tonight Ma'am. One step after another is enough sometimes. I'll still be around, and don't plan on taking off anytime soon. <3<3<3
Stephen Lincoln
2020-01-14 06:04:07 +0000 UTCProud of you Frivvi <3 <3 <3
Dima Horn
2020-01-14 05:55:55 +0000 UTCFrivvi, you can do this I believe in you, you can keep on going, you are worthy, you are enough ❤️
Justin S
2020-01-14 05:52:04 +0000 UTCYes :D You did well. Wouldn't have been able to tell you were fighting that fight on the inside if i were someone who just popped in randomly, you kept the positivity and hype going! You certainly made me smile. I'm sorry that the clouds are still there, i wish i could fix that somehow...but you've gotten to the other side many times, i believe you can do it again. And hopefully, your hard work will pay off and make the darkness stay away this time. Loved stream today my dude!
Tom (Zoigle)
2020-01-14 05:44:57 +0000 UTCSo proud Frivi!❤️ I hope you know how truly impressive and am amazing that is!
Daniel Ringe
2020-01-14 05:38:32 +0000 UTCthese are strides in the right direction ❤❤❤
drewwu
2020-01-14 05:26:47 +0000 UTCHecking Awesome! 💖💖💖
Tony XM
2020-01-14 05:23:27 +0000 UTCLove you so much!! 😊❤️
Emily Cromwell
2020-01-14 04:58:19 +0000 UTCProud of you! Now remember this post next time you feel like it's going to be an impossible day!
Lambent Regret
2020-01-14 04:55:43 +0000 UTCI love you, I believe in you, you can do this 💕💕💕
Hummerdummer
2020-01-14 04:52:14 +0000 UTCThat’s awesome! Stream was really fun, keep up the hard work. You’re doing great ❤️
unleashluis22
2020-01-14 04:50:29 +0000 UTC💖💖💖
Ciara Rose Richardson
2020-01-14 04:44:03 +0000 UTCSo freaking proud of you. YES! Keep pushing. Keep finding purpose. Keep moving. Keep breathing. Just keep going. I love you so much.
Phillip Coe
2020-01-14 04:43:32 +0000 UTCyou got this, i love you <3
Asda of York
2020-01-14 04:42:55 +0000 UTCDon't forget to add "keeping up with journal entries / patreon" to that list. Great job on today.
Tig
2020-01-14 04:42:19 +0000 UTCI had a crappy day today, but seeing you singing on twitch and being silly put a big smile on my face 😊 thanks for spreading the good vibes.
chris pacos
2020-01-14 04:41:56 +0000 UTCYes, you can do it! We're here and we love you!
Blain Eno
2020-01-14 04:41:49 +0000 UTC❤
Lance Bates
2020-01-14 04:41:03 +0000 UTCYou got this Frivvi!
Al
2020-01-14 04:40:39 +0000 UTClove you
Dom
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