Journal Entry #2

As CitCat said i hope that person is not gonna słip pass the tipping point. Especially with the reactions of some people to this story coming to light which i presume might make him/her put even more pressure on himself/herself. Also, my thoughts are with you. I'm barely active in the community since i got a job again, almost 2 years ago, but i don't think there was a single day where i didn't think of you/the positive energy you spread, so I'm kinda connecting with you every day. Hopefully knowing this will help you feel a teeny tiny bit less lonely.

Tomasz Fugas

You need to understand that with that email it sounds as though they are Borderline, chances are this is exactly what they wanted from you to feel sorry for them. As bad as it sounds chances are that it was all for attention which is typical for someone with BPD they'll go as far as too use self harm as a way of gaining attention. It's good that you saw that they were trying to manipulate you. Stay strong. Just know some of the happiest days of your life haven't happened yet.

Johnny-John John-John

I'm glad you were able to realize you were being manipulated and that its not your responsibility. When you have an audience of 1000s of people its important to remember that you aren't personally responsible for every single one of them, and I hope they realize it too. You don't deserve to be emotionally blackmailed like that. Really glad that you're holding out.

Erin McLean

❤️

Juan Ruiz

oh wow you literally just went to visit horses. I feel dumb now! haha

Alexis Lee

Hey Frivvi! Glad you're back, I didn't know you were going off grid on purpose and I was getting a little worried about you. I thought about DMing you some positivity but I haven't yet done that because I figure you have enough of those to answer already! So you're getting this letter instead. Personally I think your streams have been pretty entertaining, I even watch a lot of the VODs cause I'm EU. I don't mean to discount your feelings about it but well, a bunch of us keep turning up, right? You've had some massive donos and sub trains and those people picked you for a reason. I love A Hat in Time, even when you had to focus during that difficult tree part, the t e n s i o n sustained us! Bustin's a great guy but I can't handle his streams, there's such a thing as too hype, for me at least. It's OK to be different, awesome even! Have you tried horse riding? Is there anywhere nearby? Might get you out of the house a bit and large animals can be so grounding. You have to be present and attentive to them to get the results you want. Big love.

Alexis Lee

Always ❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

Manipulative or not, I hope whomever sent this email will be okay.

I get that when there are 1.33 million subscribers and only one YouTuber the relationship can feel one-sided. You want a friend like them, there they are, they seem nice. Imagining what it would be like to keep up correspondence with 1.33 million people - or even 50 - requires the ability to put yourself in someone else's shoes. But it's not a matter of indifference or snobbery, it's just a logistical problem. This person is probably not more alone or scared than a whole bunch of people here (frankly, including me). ASMR is a therapy. It's most needed by people who are in pain, and a lot of the people who make it are in great pain too. You do not lash out at YouTubers. That isn't how you show them that you love them. You do not blame suicidal ideations on anyone else, let alone a stranger that's never done anything but help you. I'm really sorry they said that to you, Lauren. They can go hecking heck themselves in the butt.

Charlie Jenkins

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Hummerdummer

*hugs*

Ryan Hunter

You’re great Frivvi. We all have our rough moments. Glad you took some time to relax and reflect and share with us. Thank you for being you.

Matthieu (ergosteur)

Dear Slim, I wrote you but still ain't callin' I left my cell, my pager, and my home phone at the bottom I sent two letters back in autumn, you must not-a got 'em There probably was a problem at the post office or somethin' Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot 'em But anyways, fuck it, what's been up? Man how's your daughter? — Stan

Matt Wahl

Holy heck. That email. Is not what you want to be recieving. They act like you haven't got a bunch of things to reply to and then try to guilt you into a frantic response with threatening suicide, inferring that it's because of you...I'm sorry you had to come back to that. Staying positive must be hard, but you can do it!

Tom (Zoigle)

Proud of how far you’ve come. Glad you’re finding things to help get you to the next day. You got this. Love you, Lauren❤️❤️❤️

Phillip Coe

Sending prayers and good vibes to you and everyone here ❤️

Austin

That email reminds me of Eminem, "Stan."

Ken Brewer

I just hope you remember you’re only 1 human, and that you’ve put a lot of burden on yourself by becoming a public figure. You’ve done amazing so far and never forget that. There are always things to improve, and growth is good for us, but sometimes it’s good to take a look back and look at your accomplishments. Proud of you friv. ❤️

I will never understand the mentality of manipulating someone to that level. I’m sooo sorry frivvi that in the midst of you trying to find peace then to have this happen.. thank you for all that you do and keep pushing forward. Though thank you never seems enough. Mucho frivLove ~DubaIzee

Isaac Aguilar

Your streams are always entertaining. I'm sure I'm not the only one who prefers your more relaxed streams to higher energy streams. You have your strengths, and while branching out is cool, you shouldn't feel pressured to do it.

For every 'fan' that writes these kinds of accusations to guilt trip you somehow, I'm positive there are countless more people that are actually grateful for your video's and appreciate you for being you :). Don't let something like this get you down, keep up the great work you do and take time off when you need it. And we all need that sometimes. Greetings from The Netherlands!

Mitch Connor

Take all the time you need. I’m so sorry this happened. That email is completely inappropriate and more than unfair to you. Izzy and I are thinking of you and wish we could fend off this kind of stuff for you. If you need to talk, Izzy and I are always here for you. 💜💜💜

Cassie Orr

People like that make me so mad. Maybe if they didn't blame other people for their problems, they could fix their problems.

Finnigan

I love how despite a lot of things not going your way, you still manage to find a lot of positives out of your weekend; that’s not easy to do and I’m proud of you for your courage that you continue to show every day. I’m happy you had fun this weekend with the animals and I hope you continue to enjoy the book you’re reading! Love you and see you on stream!

unleashluis22

Hey Friv, I do not know from where you draw your strength to keep dealing with this kind of grief or how deep those reserves are, it still blows my mind. Stay strong and gentle Ma'am. Cheers in the new year, S.P.

Stephen Lincoln

OOPS I EDITED IT AND ACCIDENTALLY SENT ANOTHER NOTIFICATION MY BAD THANK YOU GUYS FOR YOUR KIND RESPONSES I LOVE YOU

FrivolousFox ASMR

I love you frivvi 💖 you are stronger than you know. You can get through this. We are here for you.

Ciara Rose Richardson

Yikes! They should have left out everything except the P.S. at the end. You are my favorite person. I love you.

Brian Billadeau

I've been sitting here trying to find the words to express to you just how much of an inspiration you have been to me. With everything you have been through and continue to go through. I just want to thank you for be true to yourself. And if there's ever anything you need, you have an entire community that stands behind you. 🧡🧡

we cant always be strong cowboys frivvi...love ya ❤❤❤ sometimes being an alive cowboy is just enough

drewwu

Thank you for being you. The content you create has helped me, quite a bit, with my sleeping/nightmare issues. That may not sound like much, to some. But, for me that's huge. So, I will continue to support you for as long as I can. ❤❤

Elias

Hey Frivvi, First, I would like to say this is very strong of you. I've read over your entries and I've really found a lot in them. I think this is very good for your mental health. That's something we all care about here. I'd also like to say I'm sorry streams have you so drained. It's terribly hard to feel like continuing them, and I think it would be good for you to take a break for a while. Take some suggestions for YouTube videos and try those out. As good as streaming may be for income, nothing is as good as hurting yourself! Those are just my simple thoughts on that side of it. Now, I find it very unfair for someone to send you that. They may be at the end of their line, but it's not for some YouTuber to fix. You're not their therapist and you're not paid for it. As much as your videos have helped me in a dark place, I don't think it would be fair for me to put any of that on you. I hope they do better, but you're never at fault for what may happen. Lastly, thank you for all that you do. Taking your time to even reply to them in the first place is a blessing. It truly shows how great your character is. Thank you for being you and providing a lot of us some peace and comfort. I know it's made a world of difference to me. I've been planning on sending you something like this for a while, but I've been so busy with college that it's been very hard. Your well-being, when I don't even truly know you, matters so much to me. I hope you can feel better so soon. You deserve a lot for what you provide. Thank you again, A fan

Bull

Glad you have a good time overall. Baby steps after all. Well, as for the person who wrote that email, yeah, manipulative is right. Unfair of them to put their BS on you. But you are doing your best, getting out and about and just living. Woo :) lovelovelove

Tony XM

Thank you for keeping on, I love you too <3

Asda of York

Hi little firecracker I’m proud of you 💛

Mish