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Have a video uploading :P

It's none of the one's i wanted to release... it's one that im actually incredibly insecure and unsure about, but... well, honestly, I'm trying to prove myself something. I've been having a bad bout of insecurity lately. Every fiber in my being wants to throw this video in the recycle bin (I actually did that the day I shot it) because of many reasons. My teeth look disgusting... those yellow un-matched fillings seriously make me want to bash my face into a curb. My neck looks wormy and blehg. My chin has somehow disappeared even more. My eyebrows are WHACK. My hair isn't falling right... I just want to cry. But it has to stop. I'm letting trolls that have yet to even say anything control how I feel. I'm terrified how people will react. What if people find the collarbone stuff too sensual and start calling me a camerawhore? What if people start unsubbing? What if people call me a dumb slut like Timmy does, but actually mean it? Then this guy that commented on my Patreon fail stream said it seemed staged and fake. I'm still so hurt about my past and being judged and shunned from the people in my town that it's carrying over to the internet and it's just absurd to think everyone online will understand my heart and that I want to be real, I want to accept my flaws and encourage others to do the same. But these dumb things slink there way under my skin and it eats away at my core. 


Releasing this video is giving a middle finger to my insecurities that try to control my life. I hope you all will enjoy it. 


I think I might make this my description but it might be a bit too heavy compared to my other one LOL. Sigh. Thanks for your love and patience guys. <3

Comments

Hahaha yay thank you ❤

Chloe Gardner

Have a heartbeat, ear to ear breathing and kisses video uploading as we speak :D

FrivolousFox ASMR

When are you uploading?

Chloe Gardner

Frivvi, make no mistake, it's not about trying to compensate you with money (of course not) or just that I feel sad when you're bad (partly yes), is that by showing us your feelings I sympathize with you, I identify with you and your problems and the consequence is that I want to have you closer. Part of the magic of ASMR is the affinity that is felt with who makes them, not only is the sound itself. At least in my case, I need to feel comfortable with the person, that intimacy and confidence that only comes when crossing the barrier of a cold relationship of just watching the videos. And that is the barrier that you crossed in my mind with this video and the reason why I wanted, voluntarily and enthusiastically, to get more involved in your channel. Another reason is that, currently I am patronizing 4 other ASMR artists, the quality of your videos is excellent, so I just could not give you less than the others. It is the right thing and the best for me, it makes me feel good, and it makes me feel that I participate in something beautiful, and that it continues to grow every day a little more. I hope I have been able to explain well, my native language is Spanish and I have to help the google translator to explain.

Juan Ruiz

Juan.... thank you. Very much. But I wasn't doing this video for people to feel bad and pledge more. I was doing it for my mental health and self-worth, please don't feel obligated or pressured just because I'm not in tip top shape mentally :/ bah... Thank you... but please always do what is right and best for you first :)

FrivolousFox ASMR

The direct consequence of this video has been to increase my monthly contribution from Patreon, from Todler to Papa Fox and convince me how great you are and that you deserve much more.

Juan Ruiz

Hahahaha this was wonderful. Thank you, I'll try and do that right away 😂🤗🦑 Thank you so much for believing in me and supporting me ❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

Awww, that means so much coming from you especially Kyle!! I thought you didn't like me much haha. Thank you!! I love you all more!! ❤️❤️❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

Im really sad that you have to deal with those insecurities. Please don't let those haters get to you. The video was great Frivvi. I didn't notice anything sexual about it. We love you Frivvi!!!!!!

Kyle

So, Frivvi, heres what you need to do with those insecurities. Gank them in the neck with a rusty spoon, put them in a box, fill the box with napalm, bury the box, then set off a nuke on top of the box and watch the pretty fireworks, because you are gorgeous, and the video in question has nothing wrong with it. I did indeed get tingles from it and enjoyed it in its entirety. Thank you for what you do. I, for one, would not be supporting you on Patreon if I wasn't extremely impressed with your videos.

James S

I know how busy you are and the fact you'd even put this on your to-do list at all is so heart cuddling. Thanks Eli ❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

Hahahaha I would've loved it to protect you, but I see why you wouldn't 😂 OMG WAIT FRENZ HI!!!! YOU PLEDGED HI!!

FrivolousFox ASMR

❤️❤️❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

I LOVE WE MORE

FrivolousFox ASMR

Thanks for your love and support, henge. You're awesome ❤️

FrivolousFox ASMR

Ugh I'm so happy you liked it!! Was nervous I was the only one that liked collarbones or it was too close to the chesticles so had to be sexual haha And the nose thing actually works with babies, give it a try :P

FrivolousFox ASMR

Thank you!! 😭😍🐛

FrivolousFox ASMR

Well, welcome! Thanks for giving me a chance and supporting me in this way! Means a lot :-)

FrivolousFox ASMR

Took me forever to finish watching, but it was absolutely amazing and modest too tbh 💕

Elijah Gregory

We love you Frivi!

Alicornanon

Honestly this is the video that made me decide to join your patreon thanks for sharing it even though you felt self conscious about it.

I was going to comment after reading this, but decided to watch the video first (which I loved). Please please please keep being you Frivvi. That's why we're here. &lt;3

W smith

I'm glad you posted this. Collarbone stuff is one of my favourite visual triggers. Also that nose thing in the beginning blew my mind... And you know what? You are fucking beautiful, so don't sell yourself short.

You're awesome and trolls don't even deserve to waste thought over. You do a great job and look at how fast your channel is growing lately! Be true to yourself and you will find that good people will love you even more. &lt;3

Elephant In The Room ASMR

You're amazing Friv! We love you for who you are :). Screw those who don't.

Rich Jackson

So if I tell you it's great you might appreciate it but not think much of it since you know i'd say that if it wasn't, so I'll go a step further, I like this better than a lot of your other videos this comment has to be true since I'm comparing you vs you. Very personal attention laiden. You had me as soon as you did the face (lens) touching.

Jason aka asmrpeople

"Man is his own worst enemy." - Cicero "Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt." - William Shakespeare

Sᴇʀᴀᴘʜ

I was about half way through a big long fucking thing about how I would not have uploaded this video if I were you, but it already has 4000 views. So here we are :) That's pretty damn good for only being up for like an hour. I'm still taking a break from commenting on stuff, but do want to say one thing still. You don't have to upload things if you think you're going to be hurt by them. I'm you already know that. I just wanted to reiterate. Especially when you put thoughts like this in the video description. You will get comments about all that stuff. The trolls feed off things like that, and they're good at poking at it (trust me). I'll be there for you, of course. And the negative comments won't be as numerous as the positive ones. It will just feel like they are, because they weigh more. That's the punishment for getting famous. Not the price the punishment. Unfortunately. Just keep doing everything you can to mitigate it, because you don't deserve to be punished. And it's not like you haven't weathered much worse than six words from a youtube shithead. You're strong. No one can say otherwise. It's just... strong people don't decided they're going to weather the stab wounds, they put on armor. Also, what's your pre-recording process like? Is there a systemic change you can make that will help you feel more confident about some of this stuff before they even start? Edit: 5000 views :D

KJ

I was about half way through a big long fucking thing about how I would not have uploaded this video if I were you, but it already has 4000 views. So here we are :) That's pretty damn good for only being up for like an hour. I'm still taking a break from commenting on stuff, but do want to say one thing still. You don't have to upload things if you think you're going to be hurt by them. I'm you already know that. I just wanted to reiterate. Especially when you put thoughts like this in the video description. You will get comments about all that stuff. The trolls feed off things like that, and they're good at poking at it (trust me). I'll be there for you, of course. And the negative comments won't be as numerous as the positive ones. It will just feel like they are, because they weigh more. That's the punishment for getting famous. Not the price the punishment. Unfortunately. Just keep doing everything you can to mitigate it, because you don't deserve to be punished. And it's not like you haven't weathered much worse than six words from a youtube shithead. You're strong. No one can say otherwise. It's just... strong people don't decided they're going to weather the stab wounds, they put on armor. Also, what's your pre-recording process like? Is there a systemic change you can make that will help you feel more confident about some of this stuff before they even start? Edit: 5000 views :D

KJ

I was about half way through a big long fucking thing about how I would not have uploaded this video if I were you, but it already has 4000 views. So here we are :) That's pretty damn good for only being up for like an hour. I'm still taking a break from commenting on stuff, but do want to say one thing still. You don't have to upload things if you think you're going to be hurt by them. I'm you already know that. I just wanted to reiterate. Especially when you put thoughts like this in the video description. You will get comments about all that stuff. The trolls feed off things like that, and they're good at poking at it (trust me). I'll be there for you, of course. And the negative comments won't be as numerous as the positive ones. It will just feel like they are, because they weigh more. That's the punishment for getting famous. Not the price the punishment. Unfortunately. Just keep doing everything you can to mitigate it, because you don't deserve to be punished. And it's not like you haven't weathered much worse than six words from a youtube shithead. You're strong. No one can say otherwise. It's just... strong people don't decided they're going to weather the stab wounds, they put on armor. Also, what's your pre-recording process like? Is there a systemic change you can make that will help you feel more confident about some of this stuff before they even start? Edit: 5000 views :D

KJ

The keyboard warriors are going to troll because it's what they do. If not you it'll be some other YouTuber. It's normal to feel apprehensive about putting yourself out there as much as you are. And you know what? Your subs are growing and people love the content. You're doing it right. Insecurities are not just something that can be switched off, we all know that but by putting out your content you're showing you can conquer those insecurities and that's a step in the right direction.

Now this is what I like to read, this is what I like to see. You taking charge and being the person you want to be. Proud of you Lauren. (((hugs))) &lt;3

Tony XM

I nearly added "dumb slut" to my comment on YT but stopped myself because noone outside of here would have understood the joke. Seriously though, even knowing ahead of watching what you didn't like about it, I couldn't see the problems with it. *shrug*

frenzalitis

I feel like I ought to promote watching this to earlier in my todo list, but I've got to take care of myself and other things first. So much love and positive energy your way. 🐙🆗🎃

Elijah Gregory

Friv you're the best and you're doing a good thing. Don't let those few shitty people tear you down. I was trolled in real life growing up by some real shitty people and my insecurities still stay with me, and it sucks. I've only recently started to try learn to love myself the past 2 years. It's so hard but I think I've come a long way so far. I've held onto to such negative energy for so long it became a part of me. Anyway, you have my full support, and I hope by you putting up the vid it helps you get over the fear of stupid nobody's who's only goal is to make people feel like shit.

Mike L

You can't be ugly, you're Friv! Thanks for sharing your insecurities, we all have them, but aren't always brave enough to face them. Fuck 'em all, big hugs, and can't wait for the video!

Finnigan

Great statement of principles, you are a brave girl ! I see that you want to be yourself. The one who does not like or do not understand what you do, should not look at it and stop talking about what they do not know. I know it's hard for you. For my part you have my full and unconditional support.

Juan Ruiz

HUG ME LANCE D:

FrivolousFox ASMR

Thank you, Gill. Means so much more than you could ever know &lt;3

FrivolousFox ASMR

I'm with you - "Fuck you, trolls! Fuck you, insecurities!" (this will now return to a Disney rated stream) - you got this Friv, we'll stand strong with you. ❤️

Gillzy Bean

Im sure it will be fine... as long as you enjoy making them, who cares... bring all the collarbones, jack skeleton is one sexy mofo

Reading this makes me want to give you the biggest hug ever 🐥, and I can't wait to enjoy seeing this new video.

Lance Bates


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