A check in on my life. I want to do weekly videos again. (week 1)

I'm approaching my YouTube channel in a different light. I'm lowering the filters I put on myself and removing my ego so you get my raw thoughts and creativity from now on.

I was releasing love into the world when I did those weekly videos for three years straight. I see myself doing something similar in the future (now). I really love that feeling of making things that I enjoyed and sharing them with people ^^ I feel like I manifested it to be a stressful thing - saying "I don't know what to make" and refusing to just hit the record button. Creating is not stressful. My perception of people's expectations were. I see a lot of playful exploration in the future, free from that. Every time I make a YouTube video I say I'm officially back, then take a month or so to happen upon it again. I would love to try again, maybe this time with restraints in place. Like it has to have minimal editing. Or I need to release it the day I film, while the creativity is still flowing. But one thing for sure is - I want to bring people along and let them peek into the creative process. My favorite thing to hear is how I pulled someone out of their slump and now they are pursuing something that gives them meaning because they saw that spark of light in me. And maybe I'll make a video about the spiritual aspect of creativity that is seemingly shrugged off by this community cause of trauma surrounding that word, which is understandable. But creating from that artist child inside you IS spiritual, and touching other people's hearts is too. I'm not religious or anything but I do believe this. I wanted to just be the best at everything I do. But now I'm realizing that creativity is not a limited resource and everyone can tap into it. My goal for creativity isn't capitalistic. Followers, money, power, fame, these are results, not a compass. My compass is to spark creativity in others. I let go of resentments, I let go of jealousy and envy. This is not a game of money or fame. It's a revolution against becoming victims and letting our stark perceptions consume our reality. By creating we are drawing closer to our divinity. That's about as deep as I'll go. I am optimistic, tldr. 😚 I also let go of ego. That person I see myself as and have to constantly measure up to and filter everything by. I am constantly letting it go, and it feels so good to not care if people will think I'm crazy because it doesn't fit within guidelines I set for myself. This is a new, raw chapter 🤍 I have disabled comments, because I don't want to be listening for what other people think of my creative journey at this time. If you would like to share your support, you are welcome to email me. I am also linking my youtube patreon, where you can find these video journals because I may unlist them overtime. Cheers ~

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