The Eldritch over: Part Two (complete)

Female Reader (cis) x Nonbinary Monster

I went back to the tank room, to find the creature waiting in anticipation. It followed my movements to meet me as I stood in my usual spot. It pressed its hands to the glass, tapping over and over as I tried to think. I came close, meeting its palms, and motioned to the black, red, and blue marks from last night. “Did you reach out to me last night? Touch the blue if you did.”

The creature’s palm slid onto the blue patch. I kept my eyes on the hand. “Touch blue if you were trying to tell me something.”

The creature pulled its hand away, then placed it back on the blue patch.

“Touch red if your side still hurts.”

It extended its left arm again, then pointed its finger at me.

I shook my head. “I don’t… I’m not hurt. I’m asking you.” I touched my side. It didn’t hurt as badly as it did this morning, but it was a bit tender. Did the creature use me to heal? It placed its palm back on blue.

“What is it doing?” a researcher below asked.

It was a crazy idea, but I could test it now. “It's trying again.” I looked up at the creature and kept my mind directed at it. I kept my mind blank and said nothing. Could it hear me? Or was it feeling me? I placed each question inside a color in my head. Red felt hot. Blue felt cold. If it could hear my thoughts, it would hear red and pick red. If it was empathic, it would feel the cold and choose blue.

“Ms. Cleary?” the researcher asked behind me.

The creature's hand slid over the blue and pressed hard against it.

“Nothing concrete,” I murmured. “But I think the creature is empathic. I’ll need to do a few more tests to be certain.” I placed my hand over the blue patch, and was shocked to find it freezing cold. The glass began to fog over.

“I need more markers!” I shouted over my shoulder. “Lots of colors, too! I’ve gotta make a mood ring.”

Once I received the markers I needed, I made a wheel of colors on the front of the tank. I had grown tired of calling it ‘the creature’ so I decided to name it Hans, after the author of the Little Mermaid. Hans seemed to take well to its new name when I thought about it. Even when I was discussing things with Dr. Yora, Hans would come to the front of the tank as if called.

The color wheel served as a way to communicate better with Hans, but still, all they could do was respond to me. If I wanted to fully understand Hans, I needed to be able to touch them, if only to see whether tactile contact would open a new communication channel. Dr. Yora was still hesitant, but she was impressed with the color wheel.

There were also the dreams. I don’t know how, but Hans was able to get things across to me through my dreams. Much like at the tank, the communication was one-sided, and I couldn’t make out any messages clearly. I woke one evening after such a dream, feeling wet all over, but my body was bone-dry to the touch. I left my room, finding it was extremely late. The halls were quiet, and when I came to the tank room I was shocked that no one else was there.

Don’t count your chickens, I thought to myself as I crossed the floor. Someone could show up soon. Hans was floating near the top of the tank as I approached. Their arm-like appendages were out of the water, touching the metal mesh. They sensed me thinking about them and drifted down through the water towards me, happily pressing their palms to the glass. I approached, smiling at them as they shimmied and danced about in the water. “Where is everyone? How long have you been alone? Tap once for long, twice for short.”

Hans tapped once, then swam over to the ladder.

“Oh, no. I shouldn’t. Dr. Yora…” I stopped myself. No one was around, and I could just put my fingers through the metal mesh. The worst that could happen was losing a finger, right?

Hans came to me again, tilting their head to the side. They patted their hand over their chest, then wiggled their fingers at me. “You won’t take a finger?” I chuckled.

Hans leaned closer to the glass, pressing their blank face against it.

I took a deep breath. This was a risk, but it was what I’d been wanting. I climbed the ladder to the top of the tank, then leaned over the edge. I saw Hans inside, hands came up out of the water and pressed against the metal. I reached out too, feeling the coolness of their skin. That flowing rumble from my dreams coursed through my arms and into my entire body. I melted into the air, and I could feel currents moving through the space. The color wheel I had created appeared before my eyes, in radiant gemstone hues surging with light and clarity. I saw an ocean through blue, the waters choppy and severe. Lightning flashed red above me. It lanced into the sea, much deeper than it should have been able to go. The lightning felt like hands around me, pulling at me, tearing me.

Hans moved their hands away, and I was back at the top of the ladder. I bent forward and sobbed, and Hans’ finger stretched through the mesh, touching my cheek and catching the tears. Hans was afraid, and they showed me that. As their fingertips touched me, yellow sparkles filled my eyes, and I saw myself from the outside. My hands stretched out and I wanted to hold them. All around me was blue, but I was glowing bright yellow like the sun. I reached a finger through the mesh, locking it around Hans’ finger, which coiled around it. The flesh felt firm, but there was no sign of bone inside it. Hans’ skin felt smooth and cool, and despite being in water they felt dry.

“What are you doing?” A flash of red, then a streak of purple. I looked at the base of the ladder to see Dr. Yora standing below, a smile on her face.

“Doctor, I…” I frowned. “Did you do this on purpose?”

Inside the tank, Hans descended, so I followed and stood before Dr. Yora. She took my hand, looking it over. My palms had small marks from the metal mesh, but there were also colored stains on the skin matching Hans’ palm prints. “Did you get what you wanted?” Dr. Yora asked.

I took my hand back. “Did you?”

“I’ve been clearing out the room for three hours a night for cleaning,” she laughed. “Hoping you’d get that emotional itch again and wander in. Glad my experiment paid off.”

The purple turned to pink, then to orange. It wasn’t as strong as when we were touching, but there was a presence in my mind now, a bridge. “Then let me get into the tank.”

Dr. Yora shook her head. “You’re not ready for that yet, Ms. Cleary. I can set up a new cleaning regimen as a ruse, but I would have to explain removing that lid.” She pointed up. “For now, this is the best I can provide you.”

“Hans is scared in there. They’re sad,” I argued.

Dr. Yora glanced at Hans as they watched me. “I’m sorry about that. But much of this is out of my hands. For now, this is how it has to be, so if anyone catches you just say you’re cleaning.” She briskly walked away. “And take notes!”

I went back to the tank, pressing my forehead against the glass. I could feel Hans touching me back, the smoothness of their skin, the flexing of their fingers. There were flashes of pink and yellow. I was floating in water, my hair spread out around me. That flowing roar inside my head lifted me up and made it so I didn’t have to breathe. Inside I was warm, but the flow was cool to the touch. My body ached strangely, and I wanted to be held to make it go away.

Hans was lonely. All they wanted was to be touched.

I climbed back up the ladder, putting what fingers I could fit through the mesh. Hans touched, coiling their fingers around them to hold them. This was all I could do, but Hans was grateful. They were used to having others with them. They never traveled alone. They emerged into the sea together, but the sea was all they wanted.

I knew that I wasn’t capable of taking in all that Hans could give. I was used to language, not emotion. My scope of understanding felt far too small to take in what they were trying to get across. But I could at least see what the broad strokes were painting.

I went to Dr. Yora first thing the next morning, rushing to pull her aside to tell her my discovery. “Hans is one of a species!”

Dr. Yora adjusted her glasses. “There’s more?”

I was basically frothing at the mouth. I was so excited to share, but I also needed her to know for Hans’ sake. “Yes, and that’s why Hans is so lethargic, and they keep getting bruises. It’s because they rely on a group, not just for safety in numbers, but for contact and stimulus. It’s all internal. Their self-regulation relies on an interconnected system they establish through their empathic abilities.”

Dr. Yora looked cross as she sat on the edge of her desk. She took in what I had to say, and around her I saw shades of purple and gray. I’d never seen colors like that until I touched Hans. Perhaps there were lingering side effects from our conversation. “Why did you name it?” Dr. Yora asked.

“That isn’t the point! Is that really all you took away from this? Hans is dying because they don't have their herd, their school, whatever you want to call it. Hans doesn’t have that system of support, so they’re…”

The shades of purple turned to pink, but the gray remained, making her face and head look fuzzy. “So it made you the start of a new system,” Dr. Yora murmured. “It bonded to you in order to heal. To survive, it linked itself to an open receptor.”

I bit the inside of my cheek. Maybe I had just gotten used to communicating through Hans, but even so I knew she wasn’t fully listening to me. “Hans is going to die with or without me,” I said with a lump in my throat. “Hans needs to go back into the ocean. They aren’t a threat. They’re here because it’s safer.”

Red flashed amongst the gray around Dr. Yora’s head, illuminating her eyes until they looked yellow. “Safer than what?”

“I don’t know.” I shook my head. “Something that… I can’t describe.” I went over to her whiteboard, drawing from memory something I had seen in the colors Hans had shown me the night before. “I got the sense it was something under us.” I drew the shape I saw under the ocean, a crevasse that reminded me of the space between the floor and the skirting on my childhood bed. Back then, it was a place where monsters came from. Maybe that was still true.

Dr. Yora stood beside me, wrapped in orange now, which shifted across her like sunlight. “The Underneath.”

“You know this place?”

“My father was researching it before he died. He believed it was a disembodied, liminal space, maybe even what we think of as heaven and hell. But if this creature and its kind left it to find a safe place, that means they could be prey for what’s in there.”

“I can’t imagine the deepest parts of our ocean being safe,” I shuddered.

“Do you think you can find out more?” Dr. Yora pointed to the sketch on the whiteboard. “If you can, I would be happy to increase your pay for this assignment.”

“Did you not hear me before? Hans needs to go back. They’re dying! Without the support of their school, they might die. Imagine being isolated like that, a depression that attacks and shuts down everything inside the body. That’s what could happen to Hans, if it’s not happening already. Dr. Yora, Hans can’t stay here.”

The gray came back, followed by a sweeping, crashing wave of blue. “There’s too much money wrapped up in this already. I need results to…”

“Fuck money!” I snapped. “I thought you cared about Hans. But you’re just a stinking bureaucrat worried about the bottom dollar, like the rest of the world!” I wiped my hand across the whiteboard then glared up at Dr. Yora to see the blue around her had turned almost black. “I can’t believe I wasted my time like this.”

“Ms. Cleary,” she started in a shaky voice. “I would love nothing more than to let it go. But if I don’t deliver answers to my benefactors, then this whole place will be shut down. My father’s life’s work is tied up here. I can’t just let it all go.”

I pointed towards the door. “But is this what your dad would want? To hold a creature hostage? Did you dad start his research hoping for something like this?”

Dr. Yora took a step back. “No.” The black was engulfing her, swirling around her. “No. To learn in order to preserve - that was what he always said.” She looked away, grabbing a picture frame off her desk, which became illuminated in bright yellow that shone through the black. Her face changed. Her dark skin showed pale flashes, and she had four sets of eyes.

“Dr. Yora?”

I heard a baby crying, screaming, and a man whispering to it. “I’ve got you now. Everything is going to be alright. It’s okay.”

I swallowed as I tried to decide what to say. “He was protecting you, wasn’t he?”

Dr. Yora set aside the picture. “Have you gotten side effects from the creature?I wouldn’t be surprised.” Her stern face returned to normal, or at least the normal I knew. “No one can know the truth, Ms. Cleary.”

I nodded. “Fine. But all I’m going to say now is that if your dad can do his research with nothing but passion, pennies, and a basement, I think you could do the same.” I turned and left her office, heading back towards the tank.

After lunch, I decided to get some sleep. I’d not rested all that evening, and I wouldn’t the coming one. I lay down in bed, took a deep breath, laid my arm over my eyes and got a sinking feeling. Not one of doom or dread, just a slow, warm descent into a bathtub. Or, I suppose, the ocean.

I opened my eyes to see water above me, rippling with waves of light. A ship passed by above me and as I tried to watch, something grabbed my hand, pulling me down further into the water. Arms wrapped around me, holding me close. A flurry of tentacles rose up around us, like the fluttering hem of a ball gown. I could feel heat pressing into my back, and the hands traveled along my bare skin, leaving streaks of pink and orange as they moved. I wanted to turn around, but my guide wouldn’t let me. A hand held my head in place, while more hands roamed every inch of me. My body was a canvas, being painted by feelings and desires. The heat against my back was growing warmer, mingling with the heat flowing through my veins. Fingers touched between my legs. There was a pulsing through my head, and a rush of bubbles all around me. The fingers went deeper, finding the soft flesh parted, wet and slick.

I woke with a start, hearing a knock on my door. “Fuck.” I got up from bed, feeling damp between my legs, and opened the door to see Dr. Yora. “I was trying to rest.”

“I know. Forgive me, Ms. Cleary.” She walked in and began to pace. “I’ve called an old friend. He’s going to come and help you get the creature back to the ocean.”

I furrowed my brow. “A professional friend, or…?”

“He works outside, but he was close with my father. He’s agreed to assist in the transportation.” She was surrounded by swirls of blue, black, and orange. “This could be this end of the facility. But I would like it if I could still call on your help in the future.”

I wasn’t sure what to feel. Should I trust her? Was it okay to be this excited? “I could be interested.”

Dr. Yora smiled. “Thank you, Ms. … Mia.” she replied. “It’s been an illuminating experience working with you.”

“Why now?” I asked.

“Final straw, you could say. And what you said about my father, it had been something I had been thinking about for a very long time.” She gave me a rare smile. “I want to make him proud, and I don’t think I’m doing that as I am.”

“You think you’ll get out of this okay?”

She shrugged. “If not, this isn’t the first time I’ve had to change my identity.” She winked at me, then handed me a key card. “This will give you access to unlock the tank.”

“Who should I be looking for?” I asked.

“He’ll make himself known,” Dr. Yora stated simply before she left again.

I was anxious, to say the least. I didn’t know how this was going to be done, not even when. My gut churned, but I knew this was the right thing to do. Hans needed to go back home, to heal and be safe.

That evening, I was a ball of nerves. I went into the tank room, where Hans was waiting. They pressed against the glass, rubbing their entire body across it as I came forward. I smiled up at them, pressing my palm to the glass. “Not much longer.”

I went to the control panel, looking for the slot to unlock the lid. I slid the keycard in and the mesh started pulling back, rolling up slowly. Hans raced to the top while I ran to the ladder. I climbed up as fast as I could, but before I got to the lip of the tank, Hans leaned over and pulled me up the rest of the way, into water with them. I hugged them close, crying and laughing. Their arms felt so strong, their body so welcoming. Hans needed this more than I did. They needed the contact of another being, an embrace filled with emotion. It had been so long for them, and I could feel the relief flooding them.

“It’s okay,” I whispered. “Someone’s coming to help you get home.” I touched where Hans’ face should be, and their fingers brushed against my lips. One slipped onto my tongue, and the skin tasted like citrus. The fingers withdrew, then slowly moved down so Hans’ palm pressed over my heart. I felt a pulse through me and then saw it shudder through them.

‘Warm’ swallowed every thought in my head.. I shuddered, and it felt like I was in that dream again. “Not here… Can we?”

Hans pulled me under the water, and my clothes floated up above my head to the surface. Hans’ hands ran down my body, holding me so my back rested against their chest, just like in the dream. Even though I was under the water, I could breathe, smell, taste my surroundings so clearly. I knew that Dr. Yora’s friend could show up at any moment. But I wanted Hans more. I had been aching for this moment for so long, and so had they.

Their hands warmed to the touch of my body, painting my skin in bright pinks and oranges. Their tentacles floated around us, creating a curtain between us and the rest of the world. Their fingers knew where to go, finding me eager and ready for them. They were responding to my senses, feeding on the feelings they ignited in me. I was the first hot meal Hans had had in a long time.

I cried out as their fingers explored, the bubbles of my breath rising above me. I could see the water shifting and creating patterns, twisting up my clothes and pushing them to the sides of the tank. The flowing roar pulsed in my ears, becoming louder and clearer. Hans' fingers dipped inside me, and the roar became a deep, rumbling voice that called to me, breathed into me. It vibrated along my skin, making my fingertips and breasts and tingle.

Hans turned me around, and I saw its chest split open. There were three lines along the breast, one starting at the neck and two more on either side of what should be the ribs. A mouth opened up, revealing rows of teeth and three dark purple tongues, nearly pink at the ends. One tongue slipped out, lapping down my breast and stomach.

I threw my head back, shuddering all over as the roar in my mind became louder. Hans was taking my pleasure, feeling it even deeper than I was. Their hands held mine as their tentacles held my back and legs. The tongue slipped between my legs, gliding back and forth against my vulva. Pressing. Pressing. Pressing. And then Hans was inside me. I cried out to match the roar inside me. The tongue writhed inside, pushing deep, swirling, moving so all I could feel was Hans. I can’t describe the shared experience between us. For so long the two of us  had been starved of one another’s touch. We were feasting, celebrating. We weren’t just making love, we were sharing, growing, creating something.

Hans’ tongue stained me blue where it touched. The roar turned into a song, a melody that circled around me. I felt myself floating, carried to the surface. I lay suspended in the water as Hans’ tongue slipped out of me. Blue dripped into the water like ink, suspended, dancing, fading.

I closed my eyes to breathe and felt the world all around me. I pulled myself out of the water and looked down at Hans as they came to the surface. I didn’t think I was human any more.

I pulled on a lab coat hanging on the wall as a man came into the room. He looked me over, adjusting his glasses before smoothing his dark hair away from his face. “Ms. Cleary.”

I nodded. The man was surrounded by gray, and I had no idea how to read him. He wasn’t human. Then again, no one in the room was.

“Call me Mr. Goodfellow. We’re going to get your little friend out of here.” He looked up to the tank. “Big friend, I guess.” He handed me my purse with all my belongings inside. “Drive behind me. Keep close, and don’t fall behind. It’s all key to disguising the truck. Can your friend get out of…”

Hans landed with a splat outside the tank, then slithered across the floor until they stood before Mr. Goodfellow. I hadn’t realized until that moment just how big Hans was. “Yes, yes,” Mr. Goodfellow sighed. “We’ll be just fine. Now, how can we get them out…” He stopped as Hans’ tentacles collected together, constricting together until they formed a set of legs.

“Never mind.” Mr. Goodfellow waved us on after him. “Follow me.”

As we walked down the hallway, I feared we’d come across the night shift guards, bu I saw nobody. I didn’t even feel anybody. I felt sleep ahead of me, and the closer we got to the foyer the more I could feel exhaustion seeping through my bones, until it came to my fingertips as little balls of white light.

Mr. Goodfellow’s truck was parked right at the door, which seemed like such a bold move. But when I looked at the cameras on the exterior of the building, I saw they were completely frozen over. Hans was led into a tank in the back of the truck and I fetched my car, following Mr. Goodfellow’s instructions.

We drove all night to Tofino beach, where Hans had been found. The entire time I could hear Hans’ song, the one that filled my head when we joined. They were trying to calm me. I just wanted to get them home, even if it meant I’d never seen them again. At least they would be safe.

Hans spilled out of the truck and onto the sand when we arrived, their ‘legs’ unraveling into the billowing swarm of tentacles they had been before. Hans eased into the water, and I felt a breath of relief glide through and over my body. “Thank you,” I said to Mr. Goodfellow.

“I’m more used to stealing art and artifacts. I must admit this is a new one.” He turned to me. “Will you be alright from here?”

“I’m not sure,” I answered honestly. “I feel changed somehow. I don’t know if it will last.” I looked at Hans, who was settled in the surf and gazing into the distance. “I’ll be fine. You should probably go.”

“I’ll wait a moment in the truck, in case you need anything.” Mr. Goodfellow turned and walked away from the beach, leaving Hans and I alone.

Hans turned, holding their hand out to me. I joined them in the water, wading up to my waist, and watched the sky purple and orange over the edge of the sea. I felt Hans ask me to follow them. Then dark shapes dotted the surface, rising from the ocean as hands beckoning Hans to them. My heart swelled, and my eyes filled with tears. Hans’ kind had been missing them, waiting for Hans to come home.

Hans asked me again to join them. I smiled and tearily kissed their hand. “I can’t.” With a hard swallow, I pushed them out further into the water. “I would love to. But you know I can’t.” Hans kept hold of my hands, squeezing them tight. I squeezed back, hugging them in as tight an embrace as I could muster. “I’ll know where to find you.”

Hands came up out of the water around us, touching us both. They were celebrating, embracing us and each other as if they had found their missing piece. Both Hans and I would never be the same. They were not quite normal anymore, and I was no longer completely human. We saw through different eyes, and felt with different hands. We would always need one another, because we were the only ones who understood.

I would return to Tofino beach to see Hans, to embrace them and go under the waters. But I couldn’t stay long. After the escape from the facility, it did indeed close down. Dr. Yora went into hiding, and so did I. I began to work with Mr. Goodfellow, who had more than enough unknown tomes for me to go through and translate. My eyes had been opened. The world of monsters, demons, and the otherworldly was now my world too, even though it was still hard for me to believe in. But my heart was no longer my own. I felt it pulsing in the hands of the one I loved, while their heart moved inside me.