Accountability

Hello my loves. I need to address my failure to perform this week, and I want to start with a heart felt apology. I made a commitment and did not meet it, which out of character and disappointing, and I compounded that wound by avoiding communication out of shame and anxiety.

I got everything set up for the livestream, and I couldn’t bring myself to start. I was overwhelmed with anxiety as I watched the clock pass 11am and did nothing. I couldn’t even bring myself to feel hungry or sexual. I have been consumed with anxiety about communicating this update and therefore fully avoided even opening the app, fearing the frustration and disappointment I might have caused.

I have been dealing with anxiety my whole life, and this experience hit me out of nowhere. I’m realizing I’m overwhelmed by the concept of live-streaming as it’s something I’ve never done before. With video I can retake, edit, etc, and when I’m live it’s vulnerable. It’s built up in my head. I think it might be best for me to do another Q&A with less pressure to “perform”, and hear some encouragement from you all.

I understand I made a commitment to provide a service at these tiers, and I am dedicated to making it worth while for all of you. I appreciate the support and assure you I am still passionate about making this work!! Thank you for launching this site with me and working through the bumps in the road. I believe in transparency and customer service above all else, if anyone is truly dissatisfied please reach out privately. I would definitely welcome recommendations for how to make the tiers more equitable and comfortable for you all. Again, I chose to do a Patreon because I felt it gave me more freedom over the content I make, so I can explore and experience my sexuality on my terms bringing you all along for the ride. Your support means the world to me, and has helped me gain much more rapidly as I splurge on milkshakes and candy and alcohol and fast food and elaborate meals on the daily.

SO: I WILL BE DOING A LIVE Q&A available to ALL patrons Saturday at 2pm CDT (GMT -5) It will be recorded and uploaded. I will be posting photos and a video tomorrow. This is an absolute promise and commitment, I’ll be posting the link to the livestream tomorrow as well. This WILL HAPPEN!!!!!!!!!!

TL;DR: I got overwhelmed by live-streaming and let my anxiety get the best of me, causing me to be totally avoidant and non sexual. I am very sorry, I am trying very hard, I am open to feedback, and I will be better. More content tomorrow and a Q&A this Saturday at 2pm CDT (GMT -5)