Update & Reze Costest!

Hey you guys! c:

I wanted to share a small update with you guys today, not because I have something huge to present but partly because I don’t want to wait until everything looks perfect anymore

I’m trying to unlearn this habit of disappearing into the dark until I have something perfect to show you. It makes me feel bad for hiding the messy parts of the process just so I don’t disappoint any of you, and that’s not what I want anymore. Instead of keeping you in the dark, I want to let you be part of the journey too c: The wins, the fails, and the moments like this where something like a wig process is taking way longer than it should. So here I am with a tiny progress post ♥

I finished the Reze wig… or well I thought I finished it, but it took me four times as long as it usually does and it’s still not at the point where I can confidently use it with my green screen for a video. There are difficulties with the hair strands and stuff and I still don’t think it’s perfect yet ^^" I really wanted to get the whole cosplay plus a video done on the same day, but the wig completely consumed my time and energy for that day. It was frustrating, but it’s not stopping me. Everything is prepared and everything is ready, but I haven’t managed to record something I’m actually happy with yet...

But I’m trying. I’m not running away, even if my brain wants to. And I thought maybe it’s okay to show you progress instead of perfection. So I’m sending you the photos I took with a little update, so you’re not in the dark c:

One more thing I want to address quickly! I saw a comment somewhere saying that Patreon photos have ended up on Instagram, but that’s not true. It’s important to me that you know this c: I will post a few pictures from the same look on Instagram, but you guys here are the only ones who get all the photos, the extra poses, the full set. All of that stays exclusive on Patreon. If I post the same look on Instagram I only share a few tamer shots there

So don’t worry, you’re never getting the same thing as Instagram, you’re getting the full version :3 And it will be the same with these Reze photos: Patreon gets all of them, Instagram only a tiny selection

As for everything else… yes, I’m behind on updates, on customs, on things I wanted to finish weeks ago... But I’m here, I’m not disappearing for weeks again and I’m letting you into my inner world instead of shutting down in fear
I’m working through everything step by step, and I’ll message all of you regarding everything.

Please be a little patient with me. I’m really trying, and I can already feel that something is finally shifting. I’m not falling into a hole even when it’s hard, I’m showing up. I promise I won’t vanish ♥

Thank you for staying here with me, for being so kind, and for giving me the space to grow without punishing me for needing time.

It means more than I can explain.

With love,

Tizu