I imagine it must be pretty terrifying to not be in complete control of your own mind. To find yourself stuck in a state where you want to say something, and cannot. Even moreso, to be aware of that disconnect, and powerless to do anything about it until it passes.
This is part of the reason I love this character so much. People easily dismiss her as "just crazy" because of her behavior, but there's so much complexity underneath it all.
She's very strong, because she has to be. Every day for her is a struggle against her own mind.