Taking (and other preferences)

Photo of Heart and Max - Sapphic Slumber Party #10 / Conversation from this week ✨

Me: So why gay porn if you don’t find men attractive?

Max: I don’t know, it just feels more real, more believable.

Me: I bet it’s because you can tell when women are faking it and it’s a turn off for you.

Max: Doesn’t it turn your off?

Me: Usually yeah, but if I’m feeling super sadistic it can turn me on.

Max: Bunny!

Me: I dunno, it’s always so mood specific for me, I have to preview things, too many porn jump scares out there.

Max: Yeah, you might see a mattress without a sheet.

Me: Shush! That’s stressful! I hope you watch gay porn with nice expensive sheets.

Max: I don’t pay attention to the sheets.

Me: So what do you pay attention to?

Max: I like when their dynamic is like ours. Where they’re playing like we do.

Me: Mmm…

Max: Except they’re way meaner than I am to you.

Me: What??????

Max: You know. Rough. A lot of “taking”.

It makes me feel lighheaded when she talks like this, knowing she indulges that sadistic side. Knowing it feels fundamental to her desire.

She plays with me like I’m her favourite toy, takes what she wants, gives what she wants, doesn’t put me down until she’s done with me. I love how easy it is to let go and be in her hands. My babe has me, she’s going to take care of me, she’s got a plan.

“Taking” is a pillar of what happens between us. There’s a dance we both love, our cheeks both turn pink when we discuss it, but it boils down to the boss knows best.

“I can’t…” “You can baby, you’ve got this, spread your legs open wider for me, that’s it relax.” “I dunno…” “You don’t have to know, that’s my job, good girl.”

Max: How about you? What kind of porn do you watch?

Me: I don’t really watch a lot of videos, I mostly read things, or watch things that aren’t even porn.

Max: Tell me it’s not nature documentaries…

Me: Shush! No! Like there’s this 10 minute elevator gangbang scene from a Spanish film that I’m obsessed with. Or that part in the Notebook when they’re screaming and kissing in the rain? Or Selma Hayak dancing on the table in From Dusk Till Dawn? Sensual things sometimes. I used to have a secret Tumblr just full of gifs and short videos that were hot. I would scroll through it when I was getting off.

Max: Hold on… tell me more about this elevator gangbang.

Me: Well, there’s a lot of taking.