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Added 2021-05-18 05:07:42 +0000 UTC

Today was the day.

Today was a day.

I got a new mattress last week but it didn’t feel right until last night when Max was beside me and I curled up against her. Companionship is something I miss so much since my marriage ended.

She was on my home grind with me today and she excelled. One kiddo was complaining about their hair so she called her mobile barber who does house calls, just like that, they got haircuts together in my livingroom before virtual school started. Problem solved.

She was there for me later that morning when some stressful bad news came down the line. She was so calm in my storm. It felt nice to have someone to help out, to have someone tend to me while I tend to the circus of my life.

And, finally, in the afternoon I went to get my first dose of the vaccine. It felt like a really big deal. The kids cheered and hooted when I got home, “it’s all happening” my littlest one said. After dinner we went for a big long walk with the kids and the dog in the ravine. The sun filtered through the trees and the kids skipped rocks, and my idiot pup cried for 7 whole minutes because she wasn’t allowed to play with the hound dog that walked by across the creek. Max laughed and coddled her. And I felt happier than I’d been in a long time.

As impatient as I’ve been for the vaccine rollout, the process today was so fucking smooth. It was awesome and humbling to see the staff at the immunization clinic at work. I’m so thankful.

The “stay wild moon child” mug was a gift long ago from the darling Ms. O, it’s one of my faves.

I picked some lilacs on our walk, and put them in a glass beside my bed. I’m curled up alone now in the dark, and I can smell them. A sweet reminder of the good things.