Heart

No April Fool ♥️

Added 2021-04-01 12:40:17 +0000 UTC

One year ago today I stopped talking to my shitty ex (Cub/Mr.J). For years I had been strung along by his manipulation, and I’d been hurt by him more times than I could count. And for some reason I still picked up the phone when he called, and texted him back when he was in need. I knew it was a habit I had to quit but I struggled to pull the plug.

And then last April my phone was blowing up with his audacious messages and I realized, suddenly, I didn’t have it in me to deal with this anymore. And I owed him nothing. He treated me like shit for years and still expected me to pick up the phone, and I’d had enough.

There was no stand out moment, no big event that marked the change, just all of a sudden I was done. Just like that. An 8 year habit. Gone.

And then all the other bad habits fell away. One by one I said “Enough” and “Too Bad” and “Goodbye”.

One year ago marked a big shift in how I cope, where I place my boundaries, how I protect myself. I’m a different person, with the same big heart. And that shift has changed everything.

So happy 1 year anniversary to the moment I decided I deserved more.