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Peony Season

Added 2020-06-16 13:43:21 +0000 UTC

It’s that time of year again, my favourite tradition.

I’m grateful for my garden doing spectacular things, it’s a necessary and beautiful distraction from all of the difficult work around here lately.

I have my third therapy session today. I’ve been writing little notes after each of them, to help me remember, to help me stay clear. I’m going to share them here too. It’s personal, but when I was going through treatment for PTSD and I posted about that journey on tumblr I had a lot of folks speak up and say how helpful it was to read about someone’s experience “doing the work”.

I feel grateful to be doing this work with the therapist I’ve had for the last 10 years. She’s helped me unpack so many pieces of my life, so she can see how all of those pieces are interacting now. It’s a relief to not have to drag out my history now, to just look at the challenges at hand through the lens of that history.

Confronting someone about addiction isn’t easy, especially when you’re struggling with codependence and the urge to protect them. The first two weeks I made ton of progress, but this week I’ve stalled. Hopefully my session today gets me geared up for the next big brave steps. Good luck out there today.