HOLY FVCK by Demi Lovato - First Listen

I been upset because I though ajayll didn't listen to album but I was wrong sorry Queen

Oliver chambers

I was looking for your reaction to this album for A LONG TIME since I know you love Demi! And here it is all along in your Patreon. I’m a long time subscriber in Youtube and I love how honest you are with your reactions. Just subscribed because of this. Love Demi, Love Pop music and Love you! ♥️

Christian Jayson Cruz

Pls react to demi's 1st 2nd and 3rd album .. pretty curious about what you're going to feel about those goddamn album

I just subscribed to watch this reaction

The dead friend she is talking about is mac miller🥹

Juan Mhiguel

Holy Fvck and My 21st century Blues were easily my most played albums this year

ne ups

few months down the line but same boat as nicoletti, subbed for this and a bit disappointed that you missed a fair number of (imo) quite easy to get meanings. substance was the big one for me, seemed like the song wasn't really being listened to at all even after you read the lyrics. it's a double entendre, past demi looked for drugs, present demi is looking for meaning in life.

Ajay react to unbroken álbum by demi lovato, it's one of her most pop/dance R&B albums it has many collabs, like missy eliott, timbaland, Dev and Iyaz!!! I think you like it!!!!

Jonathan Garcia

PLEASE REACT TO BRITNEY SPEARS BLACKOUT ITS THE ALL TIME FAN PICK BIBLE OF POP

Will Hooton

yep

Kenn

REACT TO BONGOS ON FRIDAY 8/9 BY CARDI B FT MEGAN THEE STALLION!!!!

Kenn

Have you requested this on her latest post?

MA

Ajay can you check out WEEDKILLER by Ashnikko?? ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Clinton B.

ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE U REACT TO RAP ALBUM, SO PLEASEE REACT TO TRAUMAZINE BY MEGAN THEE STALLION, ITS A VERY DIVERSE ALBUM I BET YOURE GONNA LOVE IT AJAY💗💗💗

Kenn

YOUR REACTION TO EAT ME IS EVERYTHING I NEEDED 😭

Madvision

Same LMAO

Madvision

I really need you to listen to her old albums like Here we go again or Unbroken. Both are amazing albums.

Judson Vigueras

U awesome!! Be great. I love u!

Кирилл

I subscribed specifically to watch this reaction. I’m really sad to know you didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought you would. I think maybe having more information about the HOLY FVCK era and had the meaning of each track to read afterwards would’ve been helpful, so you knew what to expect and could answer any questions after the fact. It felt like it would’ve been better if you waited to make this video when you were feeling more rock-y or took breaks when you were feeling overwhelmed. Usually your Demi reactions are your best and I hope you’ll still react to their future releases. Regardless, I loved seeing your reaction! I’ve been subscribed to your youtube channel since 2015, and I’m so glad you’re back after your hiatus in 2022!

Nicoletti345

ate

oopsydopsie

Holy Fvck, 29, Eat Me, Feed and 4 Ever 4 Me are my absolute favorites from this album. I love them SO MUCH! My favorite project by Demi.

Halsey album - If I can't have love, I want power

Nayrb

i don’t think so

gabe

I am so glad I put a subscription in for this because I have been WAITING for this review. In my opinion to some songs, Substance is definitely about wanting something valuable from LIFE, Come Together is about reaching orgasm simultaneously with their partner, Dead Friends is all about their survivors guilt from friends that have people that died. Overall this album proves that Demi is MEANT to do rock music and hearing the rock versions of other songs they put out (Heart Attack and Cool For The Summer) show this is their destiny.

Curtis Trichel

Will this still be posted to YouTube? I caved and paid to see it ahaha, luv u AJAYYYY

Demi uses they/them pronouns primarily btw (but also she/her). Eat Me is about their non-binary identity and accepting them as they are “I know the girl that you adored, she’s dead, it’s time to fucking mourn”

Cassiopeia Morningstar

This was my first time listening also and I really loved Eat Me and 29. Other than that, I felt it was a lot of Disney rock, just took me back to that Demi and not in a good way honestly. I loooove rock but I just feel like Demi doesnt have that grit I want in a rock voice. Like its weird to say but her vocals are like too clear?? I guess... This album wouldve been great if it was Paramore singing it since I feel like Hayley Willams wouldve done that rock voice that I wanted better honestly.

Revive

i think this album could have been shortened down

roger

My favourites are Skin Of My Teeth, Eat Me, Happy Ending, Feed, 29 and 4 Ever 4 Me. I personally love the album but I understand and respect that it's not your favourite. It can be heavy for some to listen to in one setting. I also think it was different for you because you clearly didn't know it was a full on rock/punk album. Demi wanted to go back to their roots but this ain't Disney anymore. Interesting fact: Since Heaven is about how being raised as a Christian impacted them in regards to their sexuality, the "cut if off" in the pre-chorus is a direct reference to the Bible - Matthew 5:30: "And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into Hell." Also, Dead Friends is literal. Demi is suffering from survivor's guilt and wonders why they survived while so many others did not. Some people might be taken aback by the blatant honesty but that's what I love about Demi.

Heida

Please listen to BANKS Serpentina❤️

Marcos Henrique

Please listen to BANKS Serpentina❤️

Xtian Joel

Love me some Bones appreciation

overthinking tudo

Caroline polachek - desire i want to turn into you Aurora - the gods we can touch Banks - serpentina Raye - my 21st century blues

Jesus cervantes

Please post on YouTube

Hunter Walsh

Eat me’s reaction was the best !!! 😂 upload it on YouTube

700th like.

Dewin Pérez

The last song was AMAZING. Wish it had more like these on the album.

Gabriel Moro

Also is this reaction going to get put on YouTube?

Dead friends is actually about her dead friends that have died from overdose and her survivors guilt they feel because they survived theirs.

'Substance' is actually a double meaning song! She's talking both as the old Demi who was with her friends always trying to get high, looking for hard substances, but knowing that there was something more. But when she sings it now, she's talking about how she's looking for metaphorical substance -- something real, something more than a high. And she feels like she's crazy because all her friends just want to get high, but she just wants everything to mean something again!

Chris Cantu

aoty

gustavo

I don't think so, lots of people uploaded full reaction to this album and didn't get copyrights

Marek

She never uploaded the Lizzo album reaction to YouTube either, maybe copyright issues?

How come it’s not on YouTube yet?

Hunter Walsh

album of the year

Marek

one of my favorite albums from last year. so glad you reacted to it!! 🙂

Dsaladbar01

Please react to Avril Lavignes Luv Sux

Kayson Jackson

Wait so.. I havnt listened to this full album either.. so im watching the video and having a first reaction with you and it hits so different. Its like i get to react with u haha🤣

Nabeel

Upload holy fk to YouTube please

Mohammad Zafar

QUEEN DEMI!!!! 🫶✨️

Harrison that's a fair point too I've had that experience with different artists and albums. I was in the wrong here and you're both 100% right xx

Joshua Foster

You're 100% right girl I'm sorry my comment wasn't trying to be rude but I know I was wrong to comment on your opinion just because I liked something that you needed more time with. We stan honesty and individuality and I apologise for being dumb. Love you and can't wait for the next reaction 💖😘

Joshua Foster

Superache!!!!! Conan gray!!!!

when you started losing your shit to eat me, my mouth just automatically started smiling, I have missed you so much AJ!!

Piotr Katan

Calm down girl lol. I don't even think they meant it as an insult to Demi. I don't listen to Harry Styles cause his type of music isn't my cup of tea but Ajay managed to make me sit through his whole album with her. Not being into an artist's music doesn't make you a 'pathetic hater'. Save that petty drama on stan twitter not here please.

J L

I'm curious about what older demi's song did FEED reminded you haha this album is quite heavy on a first listen. EAT ME was a grower on me, and HAPPY ENDING is my favorite, everytime I listen to it, gives me chills.

Jonhatanivan

OMG same reaction to this album, 29 grew on me big time as well as a few others but that is the one I find myself going back to the most. WILMAR!

Demi G

Please react to preachers daughter 😭

Carson Shaffer

Thank you for reacting to this Ajay! I personally loved the entire album on the first listen, but that’s because when this album came out I was really into Demi’s rock stuff, so I was really expecting it. I’m glad you enjoyed it somehow, even though you’re not the biggest fan of rock music. I hope you can give this album a few more tries to fully embrace it. Love you, keep being amazing ❤️

Gabriel

Ajayll so happy you are back

BaddieB

ajay darling are you going to the renaissance tour? and if so would u vlog some parts of it with ur reaction? ♥

Daniel Valen

And if I want to give my opinion on you being a pathetic hater who’s paying money to be annoying, I will :)

M Taylor

You really ate me on "Eat me" :) :) Well, i really like the fact that Demi gets her own musical paw and that she loves what she's doing, goo for Demi. But eventually, in most of the songs, i have been lost because of how loud the sounds are. I can't hear her very much eventhough she really sing.

Yohan Jannuzzi

PLEASE REACT TO GUITAR SONGS BY BILLIE EILISH🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

diego lópez

your reaction is everything I need to be alive hahaha

moonchildenrique

Same reaction from me for EAT ME, 29, HAPPY ENDING, WASTED and 4 EVER 4 ME 😩🕺🏻

William C.

I pay to be here just like everyone else. If I wanna give my opinion on an album, I will. 🙂

Alesha Barnett

i’m so excited for midnights and sos reaction

blake dewitt

Seeing you finally react to 29 was a highlight for me!

Ashley

I might as well post it down here - It's well known that 29 is about Wilmer. There were even rumors that he was suing her because everyone knew it was about him (not sure what happened to that). They dated when Demi was 17, but in interviews she said it was once she turned 18. His current wife is 12 years younger than him and it's the same age difference between Demi and Wilmer. The song came about because Demi realized once she turned 29 years old that she was the same age as he was when he went after her when she was 17.

Chrissy

And Still Alive!

Chrissy

Demi said that dead friends is about the friends that she lost (died) to addiction and other mental health dissorders. She also said it started out as a balled but turned into what is is now to be more like an anthem for her friends and the good times they had together

The concert was amazinggg

Chrissy

Sameeee

Chrissy

Both of the artists you mentioned branched out artistically, so their recent albums require additional time to digest.

no one

as someone who LOVES beyonce, and has really enjoyed most of demi's stuff, I also didn't enjoy these albums as much as I expected too!

Harrison

No one cares, just leave if you’re going to hate

M Taylor

Girl like I dunno I love you so much but it almost feels like you lost a spark for the artists we saw you love. This and beyonce I thought youd go wild over them but you just seem so sad about it. What you loved I felt the same and loved too so how can I feel the same again but you just don't. Her vocals in "forever for me" at the end was heavenly and you didn't seem to even care or react :/

Joshua Foster

damn this album is loud as hell

Alexandru Stoinov

I am already loving this, i am listening to it for the first time with you and only 5 minutes in and GOD its giving 2000's rock and IM HERE FOR IT

Edward Svendsen

This is one of my favorite albums last year, her going back to rock and doing it justice and having punk rock, soft rock and switching up the sound in almost all of the songs is a treat, and the most thing I enjoyed was the lyrics.. she played in words and referenced her eating disorders/ substance abuse struggles in a playful manner in so many of these songs, and even referenced religious ideas/words (hence the album cover). I went to her concert for this album and she obsoletely smashed it and made me love the album even more. Amazing reaction as always <3

This was my first listen also. Were you possessed during Eat Me😂❤️ your reaction alone made me go back to that song immediately 😂 Demi has such a good voice and there are some beautiful melodies hidden in this record but the overbearing rock production drowned everything out and at times I found it unlistenable. BUT I applaud her for baring her soul with the lyrics and singing her heart out, she truly is an artist - this album really does resonate if you’ve ever had problems with addiction and for that reason alone, it deserves a lot of chances. Look forward to the next reaction x

David Bayes

This album is definitely really bloated if you attempt to consume it all at once, but once I gave myself time to acclimate to all the songs, I grew to absolutely adore the album! I’m not even like the biggest Demi fan, but this album drew me in.

Derek Tran

Holy shit!!!! This my first listen to HOLY FVCK and to be honest, I'm legit loving this album more than Renaissance. Didn't see that coming. I haven't gotten past EAT ME yet. Lol. I'll keep playing,but this song is so strong,sensual and sexy. Yeeeees!!!!

GodsChocolate

i was gonna ask her the same thing 😭

joseph • joka.cola

The confusion and then obsession with Eat Me was all of us

Aaron M

Dead Friends was one of my top favs upon first listen, still is my top 5 Demi songs of all time. Eat Me as well

Chris aka The Siren

speaking of Kelly Clarkson, are you going to react to her two singles or waiting for the album, Chemistry?

Chris aka The Siren

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAS

Chris aka The Siren

I paid Patreon just so could see this reaction lol. Love Demi4life

Yassssss! Loved it! Please re listen to it againnn, it will grow up on you and PUT A GOD DAMN MARK TO HAPPY ENDING}1

soooooo glad that u listened to this album!! missed u terribly!! what demi means by substance is the substance of life, the realness of life, not pretending being something just for the show. she was in search of the other substances in order to feel that way but it was just for the moment, nothing that really lasted which was why she od'd in 2018, that's why she later sings to not want to end in a casket

The song came about because Demi realized once she turned 29 years old that she was the same age as he was when he went after her when she was 17.

Chrissy

Agree, it's well known that 29 is about Wilmer. They dated when Demi was 17, but in interviews she said it was once she turned 18. His wife is 12 years younger than him and it's the same age difference between Demi and Wilmer.

Chrissy

Try with headphones, you'll feel them in your ~~bones~~ 😉

Chrissy

Hell yes, agree on all of the above. I have actually just started playing my Demi Playlist with "Monsters" followed by this whole album and "Still Alive." I really need to just create a Demi Rock Playlist lol

Chrissy

Thank you so much for posting this btw, I have thought about how you would react since the album came out! Ahhh and I saw Demi perform most of these tracks in concert last year 😍 and you should look up what 29 is really about because damnnnn it's messed up. Thank you again ❤️❤️

Chrissy

this was probably the album that surprised me the most last year in terms to just how much i enjoyed it. i really enjoyed demi's return to rock and loved her vulnerability and honesty on this album. with that being said, HAPPY ENDING connected with me almost immediately and made it into my top 20 for most played songs last year. if you've struggled with mental health or substance abuse, that song is an absolute winner. i also liked 29, WASTED, DEAD FRIENDS, and 4 EVER 4 ME. looking forward to midnights and sos!!

Spencer Ziegler

I’m just waiting for the Midnights SOS reaction

Simply_Noah19

if you love diversity, PLEAAASEEE listen to 'My 21st century blues' by RAYE. its my AOTY of the year so far and you won't be disappointed!!

Gus 6

You missed the ~~vocal ability~~ at the end of Substance because you were jamming out and singing! 😂 omfg and "are you talking about your dead friends, hoe? What the hell?" Your facial reactions to Dead Friends are amazinggggg

Chrissy

the way i automatically subscribed… i missed u so so much!!!

Yesss!!! I been waiting on this

Michael Jenkins

Forever 4 me is such a beautiful song!!!

Marcos Araújo

IF YOU LOVE THIS ALBUM PLEASE LISTEN TO MAGGIE LINDEMANN SUCKERPUNCH!! was my fav album of 2022!!!

Tyler

I think she might’ve already listened to it because Spotlight was her #1 Best Song of 2020.

Kaiboon

What a wonderful reaction! I totally get you didn’t connect that much on certain parts, we were not ready for such a loud and heavy sound, but I’m pretty sure once you listen again you’ll get more used to this, you’ll find the secret messages and will love it ♥️. Hope to get a revisit some day!

Frannck V

I loveeeed when you lost it to EAT ME ! Such an amazing track!

Rodney

Hiiiiii i love dmei, and subscribe just to see you reaction

meeee

Alexander

Please react to "The Hardest Part" by Noah Cyrus, beautiful album

Only the Queen could get me to sit through a Demi Lovato album.

Alesha Barnett

Eat me & Skin of my teeth are by far my favorites. When you say you like it when she “slows it down” I couldn’t agree more. Demi has vocals and I just LOVE when they come thruu!! ♥️ album is an 8/10 for me.

Please react to Hold The Girl by Rina Sawayama and Superache by Conan Gray🫶🫶

Elsword957

AJAYLLLLLLLL

matheus silva

I love to see you enjoy music with so much passion! Thank you queen

Felipe

PLEASE LISTEN TO THE ALBUM “WHAT’S YOUR PLEASURE?” BY JESSIE WARE.

OMG IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS THANK YOUUU

luna

Really enjoyed your reaction! This album is quite a rollercoaster and Demi did it with the intention of revisiting their rock roots but in a more heavier and vulnerable fashion. Definitely my fave Demi album to date 🔥🖤

Bradley Berdecia

eat me is with difference my favorite on the album😍

loved your reaction 💗 and i also liked that you picked up on that bridge from ‘SKIN OF MY TEETH’ that she sounds like Lady Gaga, demi actually released a snippet before the album came out and we all said the same thing 🤣 really good project, loved it.

tomy

Overall, the album hits hard, I have been listening to most songs since release and they feel fresh every single time. I love the whole rock genre and seeing Demi infuse her melodies, belts and her overall style in it was so refreshing. Her sincere lyrics were also something I really enjoyed on this album. It feels like such a lengthy project, 16 tracks, even though it's only 47 minutes, I was tired too, I love when any song from the album comes on shuffle, I can sing along and dance and just have fun, but the saturation of the album is just a bit too much for me to listen as a whole project in one sitting. Also I think you were thinking of Anyone from her previous album when Feed reminded you of something, it's that ascending melody which is very similar. Super excited for Midnights, gonna be fun.

Lukas

Personally I’m not a fan of this sound as much I loved Confident, Tell Me You Love Me, and Dancing with the Devil, The Art of Starting Over. I liked a few songs on this album like Substance, Bones, 29, and Forever for Me. But personally I do need more time with this album it didn’t click with me too much! Love ya 💗 thanks for reacting!!

Daniela May

Bones is that bitch.. I'm glad you liked it! Also react to older rock demi albums? They aren't as Rock btw

Mohammad Zafar

Ajay could you please make a list of the albums you already heard (like if I can't have love I want power and life support) so we can stop bothering you with them lol pls

Santana Xavier

4 ever 4 me is such a beautiful song

Chrisjen White

PLEASE REACT TO GUITAR SONGS BY BILLIE EILISH

diego lópez

PLEASE REACT TO GUITAR SONGS BY BILLIE EILISH

diego lópez

Hopefully she makes it a patreon exclusive😻

Brandon

Give Wasted and Happy Ending a few more listens with some headphones on maybe and trust meeee they will grow on you

Isaiah Valencia

I really hope you react to My 21st Century Blues by Raye

Bogdan

It’s too generic rock. Her vocals are strong but other than that meh

Ahmad Ismail

I'm living for the EAT ME's reaction.

atn

it was very good in every aspect, sure dislike is fine but there’s rly no reason to hate it at all

joseph • joka.cola

Ahmad Ismail

in Dead Friends the tone is so odd because she wanted it to be an ode to the music her friends loved. It started as a piano ballad, but yes it's literal.

Grady Goodman

this album 🙌🏼 so happy you did it ! Demi’s voice goes perfectly with this kind of music .

I love this álbum! But It really gets overwhelming listening to it in one sit, its heavy, I missed one piano song

Gabriela Berté

In Substance she means as in substance in things, meaning in things. the casket part hints at the fact that she doesn't want to go through life and die, without having meaningful things around her. It can also have a double entendre of course, but it is mainly about just wanting to live a meaningful life and not go in the grave without having done that.

Bogdan

I think substance means that life is fake because of social media and people trying to keep up appearances and be perfect and she is looking for a substance and because she can’t find it she ends up using substance but even that doesn't satisfy the need for substance she's looking for if that makes sense

Josephine De Smet

The headbangssss!!! 😂🙌🏽

No it’s not lol. It’s about someone they met at 17 who was 29 and later dated for years

M Taylor

I LOVE YOU

Answering your question, yes. She was talking literally about her dead friends, when she survived the overdose she felt like survivors guilt because a lot of her friends that she made on rehab lost the battle against drugs. At first time the song would be a ballad, but Demi thought it was so much sadness and made it like this because it feels like an anthem for her friends that passed away

Joaquín Calderón

Watching rnnn yayyyy

Biiilllyyy

YASSSS LOVE YOU AJAYYY

Lancecaster

Could you do Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land by Marina? You did a few of her other albums I’d love to hear your opinion! 🤭🤭

deeedeeedee

eat me really is that b*tch

Tabor Haws

Love this album sm!!! And Eat Me is my favourite im a massive fan of Royal & The Serpent you should check some more of her songs the lead singers name is Ryan and she's amazing!!! Love you as always Aj!!! 😊

Not a mark on happy ending 😭🫠

Rafael Gunji

Yesssssssssss my fav!! Love u ajay!

Daniel Valen

Guitar Songs & Born Pink please

river

i'm so happy you did this album! its my fav demi album & one of my favs of the whole year. 4 ever 4 me is also one of my fav songs ever. <3

kylegend

WHAT HAPPENED TO "GUITAR SONGS "BY BILLIE

George

"finally 29, funny just like you were at the time" that wouldn't even make sense if it was about her younger self...

kylegend

I didn’t this this is about that I mean it’s could’ve been but i saw couple interviews she talked about this songs telling this one personally about her kinda self letter…

Definitely about her relationship with wilder Valderrama

29 is about her being in love with her 17 years old version non other person lol😭😂

So glad u back Sending love from Portugal😘

Thierry Silva

thank you!

no one

OMG YES! I HOPE BLACKPINK IS NEXT!! 😁😁😁

Grady Goodman

OMGGG

C

you should react to the heart attack rock version she put out recently!!

Shamar

The best part of my week, it always will be when I see notification of a new video from AJay 😭😭 I get completely hyped

Gabriel

oh you during eat me. SO true.

stanton

Omg everybody moved

Jinad

Any plans to react to BLACKPINKS - Born Pink album?

I forgot about midnights 💀💀

Z.B004

Also substance is a play on words lol😭 it’s about meaning in life and not fake shit, not necessarily about drugs

M Taylor

there will be hold the girl and midnights before

you mentioned something about the mixing in your renaissance reaction. i think it might be your speakers. the instrumental in skin of my teeth sounded way louder than the vocals compared to when i listen to it with headphones.

ccello

Substance is a double meaning song...getting away from substance while also searching for it

Brandon McCauley

Is it true that you won't react to MOTOMAMI?

Aurelio Benítez

THANK YOU!!

Riffmaster78

love you to the moon and to saturn

Nobody's gonna love you like me.

OMGG mother is blessing us!! i love this album

ccello

react to Madison Beer Life support album. The album is about her mental health and her borderline personality disorder and her break up, it’s very real and I’m sure u will love it 😭🩷🩵

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Please react to guitar songs by billie <3

Harry Mayes

This album was probably the biggest surprise for me last year. Demi really did THAT on this album. So proud to see the growth of Demi's artistry. Thanks Ajay! Love the reactions!

Billy Blaze

Hey ajay thanks for being with us and feeding us I hope you’re doing well 💋💋 please look into phoebe bridgers and her band boygenius 🥰

Joshua Jauregui

madison beer life support album next please 😭🩵🩷

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Ur dropped vid notifications make my whole week

Mike Fricchione

Excused myself onto a break at work to get a head start on this one 🥹♥️

Masonbers98

IVE NEVER CLICKED SO FAST

Daniel Chang

YES AJAY QUEEN

M Taylor

react to madison beer - life support album 🩷🩵

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WHEN I TELL YOU I CLICKED FAST I MEAN FASTT

I love you Ajay!!!! 🥰 forever iconic!

Bianca Alexandra

Jonas Brothers soon? The Album just came out, would love to see you react. Thanks Ajay!

Emilio Vélez

BEEN WAITING FOR THIS YASSSSS

Om

best notification xx

Raz

YES GODDDDDD

Nathan Arnez

Omg is sza next??????

Z.B004

please listen to portals by melanie 😭❤️

Love you, Ajay!!! Kisses from brasil!

Tardioli

hope your week was good! thank you for making my friday once again!

LaMar

OMMGG YAY

FixingCell9847

YESSS LETS GOOOOO

Andrew Salas

ALELUYAAAA

Joaquín Calderón