nightlykrumbs

UPDATE: One step forward one step back

Added 2025-01-26 22:12:05 +0000 UTC

Thank you so much for all the people who have supported me last December and continuously supporting me despite my constant struggle to keep myself active.

I do apologize for those lack of updates up to now. If new here.. please do read my last update about what has been happening to me. I am struggling with my mental health.

I thought last December, that I have been doing good, with the healing and being able to draw again. I did manage to, finish some stuff, (i will post later today) but it has come to my realization, that healing is complicated, it's one day you feel like you can be okay and the next thing I know, I am losing myself again, getting anxious and freezing. for the past few weeks, I struggle to draw, to communicate, to get out of bed, to make that pen move from my hand. I spend so much of my days, if not doing chores.. just thinking.. I am in my head until I fall asleep from the pain. I dont want this.

I so much WANT to be okay. to not feel this way anymore. to not feel pain, the kind of pain that wont go away with medication.

Today, I dived and just have to kick myself back up. I decided to push getting professional help soon. Soon because I dont have a job and that is very expensive.

But I need to let everyone know, that I am HERE, I will get BETTER and I will come back stronger.

I apologize for the delays on commissions and lack of updates. 2025 will test the new me. So writing this to hype myself up. I can PROMISE that I will FINISH everything. give me 3 months to work on them! I am rescheduling.

I love you all! and thanks for all the support!

MY commissions are OPEN.