*HEALTH UPDATE*

Putting dates on the schedule for the first time in two years is such an accomplishment for us here peeps. Some of you may remember not to long ago. I had to take a 11 month hiatus off youtube as my complications with dry eye, computer eye syndrome , and a few unexplained issues kept me off all forms of social media and pretty much anything that had a digital screen.

I spent 8 months locked away in my apartment nursing my eyes contemplating not only if I would be able to continue creating content but if I would ever be able to read a message from a loved one on my phone again. Would I ever be able to video chat, drive a car, etc.

I want to give a special shout out to Frank because during that time he stayed on the phone with my for HOURS!!!!! HOURS, DAILY!! 8 months of daily conversations that lasted HOURS!!!If it was not for Frank and you all I would have given up on all this. There were days I started having some pretty dark thoughts and as someone with a mental health background that was scary for me because I was having trouble picking myself out of the hole for sometime. I had just got out the military, I was doing so well with content and creation I was hitting goals I couldn't even believe and in the blink of an eye ( no punt intended lol) all of that came crashing down. Self doubt became a big thing for me not only because I was injured but this was new territory. Doctors were confused they could not give me a time table on recovery or even be sure if I was ever going to recover.

That is a different kind of stress. Waking up every day hoping and praying for improvement but seeing double vision, vomiting because I keep seeing after images and they are making me dizzy to the point I need to lay down.

There is nooo way on Gods green earth could I have typed a message like this just a year and a half ago. Ask Frank he would call me and ask me If i saw the message he sent me and I would get this pit in my stomach as I would tell him no brother, I can not even look at my screen on my phone for more than half a second it hurts to much.

Eventually after time I started hitting some milestones. I could be outside for 5 mins without the light making me sick. I could read a message from a friend, I got to facetime my niece today and oh look the call lasted 15 mins ( maybe i can record a little today). Then after 11 months I got the courage to try and record and ended up watching Avatar the Last Airbender. You can hear my excitement and hesitant all throughout those reactions. I was just so happy that my eyes were allowing me to work again. You may not be a fan of that series but if you want to really hear some stories about me and my state of mind during those early days back check those videos out.

There is a group of you all that never left even when I was having issues and did not have a return date. I FUCKING LOVE YOU I literally have tears in my eyes typing this portion right now ( not because they are dry or anything hahaha just, man you all are truly some great people) you motivated me without even knowing it and I am forever grateful. THANK YOU

I'm doing that thing I do when I get on a really long tangent and end up just talking for too long lol. It feels good to be able to communicate with you all.

No, I'm not spell checking or going back and rereading to make sure I said things correctly or that its coherent.....my eyes are tired hahahaha. LOVE YOU ALL THANK YOU AGAIN