2021 December Update - Health Issues + Moving Launch Date

Hello everyone, I hope the holidays have been treating you well!

Getting straight to the point, I'll be moving the launch date of the channel to the End Of January due to worsening health issues. I think I've found the culprit but I don't know how long it will take to get it in check. It shouldn't take THAT long to get it fixed, but the End Of January date is a "Just In Case" measure. If you have lost confidence in the project due to this and would like to cancel your subscription you are free to do so and I will still honor the rules I set in place and keep your names in the credits. 

I'm pretty bummed out about this, I was really hoping to have my first video on the channel be uploaded on Jan 1, 2022 and I even stayed over the holidays to continue working instead of going home (sorry mom!!!) But after 5 months of discomfort I realized that I needed to escalate this from "Discomfort" to "Chronic Pain" and take the appropriate steps and stop trying to power through it. 

Full transparency breakdown: I've been dealing with worsening eye strain since August and it's gotten to a point where it's gone from an annoyance to a legitimate problem. I've been trying to be mindful and let my eyes rest while staying productive but a health problem that's been going on for months needs to get looked at. Especially when It's making it harder and harder to complete meaningful work ahead of a major deadline 

I went in for an eye exam earlier this month hoping I just needed to get an updated prescription but that wasn't the case. Apparently I may be at risk of a Retina Detach but I need an actual specialist to make the call on that. That sounds very spooky but I don't think that's the main cause of the issue at hand. I have been experiencing pain which is not a symptom along with other things that don't match up. I do plan on getting this looked into but NA Healthcare (lol) + Self Employed makes that not as easy to do as it should be

After a particularly rough day yesterday. I realized that the pain I was experiencing felt like nerve pain rather than a localized muscle pain. The pain got to a point where I could feel it traveling along the left side of my neck, to my inner jaw and up into my left eye. After doing some research and some (literal) digging around. I discovered an EXTREMELY tight knot of muscles in my left shoulder that may be pinching some nerves and causing the neck, jaw, eye and headache pains I've been experiencing. 

After 5 hours of massaging the area I can confidently say that I helped! Just about all of the pain was relived. But the knot is still there.

Until I can get the knot out, the relief is only temporary. After a nights of rest the pain has returned but I now know where to put my attention to fix it. I don't know how long it will take to get it out but It shouldn't take THAT long. The area is currently extremely tender and I don't have much mobility but I can definitely tell if I can get this out then I'll feel much better overall.

Once again, I'm pretty bummed out about this and I apologize. Realistically I should've been responsible and taken a look at this earlier instead of trying to crunch to meet the deadline and ignoring the issues at hand. But now that I've found a definite source of the discomfort I'm already feeling a bit better.   

I've been dealing with quite a bit of anxiety due to all of this but reminding myself that all of you believe in me and are supporting me in this helps a ton. Trying to push through just to meet the deadline and ignoring my health was irresponsible of me and was the same mindset that lead to my immense burnout at the start of the year. I guess I still have a lot to learn! lmao 

Thank you all for your support and patience, I am very excited to launch the new channel and share it with you all. I have tons of ideas I wanna get started on and I fell into some bad habits again, I'll do my best to make sure it doesn't happen again.

You're all amazing, wishing you all the best and excited to start 2022 on the right foot. I'll be posting another update soon, I've still been making notable progress despite the health issues. I've got some deep tissue massage and trigger point tools on the way and hopefully I'll be back in working condition real soon <33