Important August update

Yeah, there's a lot going on right now. I'll put a TL;DR for anyone skipping the vent/context.

I'm very behind on rewards. And I apologize for that. Genuinely it eats at me every day. 

But I'm just not in a good place anymore. Since an event in June that I let get to me in a way I never should have I have not been the same. In some ways, I hate it; I haven't been able to feel at peace for a full day since. But on the other hand, it was a wakeup call of sorts.

I've been living a care free party life for about 1.5 years. With little to no self discipline, responsibilities, and thought of the future. And I'll admit... it was fuckin' fun.

But I have to stop living that joyride. I'm 20. I need to grow up. I've damaged and blinded myself in fun for so long my mind is quite literally conditioned in a way that causes basic adult things to be nearly debilitatingly dreadful. I've moved home, and am making choices to better myself for life. Trying hard to be ready for the future. But doing so has made me lose how I've lived since I was in high school. Filling me with anxiety, paranoia, and depression more than many may have seen me go through over the years. 

I'm seeking regular therapy, and a part time job as I continue to do college work from home. I will be better. I hope sooner rather than later.

So, what does this have to do with anything?

Well, kisekae has been a bit tainted for me. I enjoyed it a lot, but it's not a job or a future. I have so many stories I'd love to tell, but I just can't right now. It's associated heavily with all those nights just being carefree up til 4am enjoying myself, when I should have been doing better by myself. I've made so many friends through it, the few friends I have at all. I wanna keep doing it, but I need to be able to trust myself to care for myself and priorities first. 

TL;DR

So honestly, I only see 3 options for this patreon:

-Converting it to a support page for a while

-heavily reducing rewards (1 per tier)

-Ending it

Your support is incredibly helpful. I appreciate it so much, and would continue to should you continue supporting me. Though I would understand if you wish to lower or cancel subscriptions after August. 

Commissions would still be open, so you can message me about that. And obviously any overdue rewards would be honored and completed. (If you cancel August, obviously you will not get rewards for August).

Thank you all for everything. We can't know what the future holds, but let's make it a good one.