hello from autumn

i am currently drinking up the crisp air and colorful leaves of fall and it is glorious 😭♥️ this fall jesse, aya and i are bopping around the country for a bit to spend time with some dear friends and family who live in far away places. i still don’t quite know what to do with the gaping hole in my heart i become aware of every time i experience a real autumn (something that basically doesn’t exist where we live in los angeles). instead of wallowing in the ache of all the autumns have have not and will not expererience, i’m trying to just let it pour into my eyes and skin and be grateful i get to feel it at all.

yesterday we helped our friend dave go guitar shopping and we came across this incredibly magical old gibson. it’s one of those guitars that you strum and can just feel the unwritten songs buzzing inside of it. i keep feeling myself brush up right against a could-be song, but maybe because i’m so out of the practice of midwifing songs into existence, or maybe because i’m chicken, i find myself putting it down just before the song can really get anywhere. this last year with aya has been so rich and beautiful, but it hasn’t left me much room for music making. i’m becoming more aware that making time and space for writing is something i’m going to have to make sure i am intentional about and tend to, lest i just go and never write a song again.

side note—my family has been going through some stuff that has required a lot of our hearts/minds/energy/time lately, so i’ve been putting most other things aside for the time being—music and internetting being among those things. i wanted to apologize for being less present and missing another coffee date this month.

so i actually just wanted to write this message to say hi and that i was thinking of you all, but i just remembered that i have a new song coming out in two days??? totally slipped my mind. it’s a song i wrote a couple years ago but it didn’t really have a place on the last album. it’s called megastuck. anyone relate to the sentiment? 😅

anyway, aya will be waking up from her nap soon. sending you all lots of love and gratitude, and thanks for indirectly reminding me that i have a new song coming out 😂

xo

kina