New Song: "Quiet"
Added 2021-07-23 18:50:22 +0000 UTChello family!
my new song βquietβ is officially out in the world today and this makes me so happy π
i spent a lot of my life feeling like something was wrong with me. when i found myself around groups of people i felt trapped in my head, like i no longer knew who i was or how to be or what to say, i suddenly had zero thoughts or opinions to contribute (or at least none i could get out of my mouth). i would spend the day leading up to social events in a ball of anxiety, and the day after in a ball of sadness and regret and embarrassment. i felt broken and incompetent and unable to be myself.β£
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then maybe 5 years ago i found myself bearing my soul in front of a therapist, crying about how anxious and disconnected i felt all the time and how i didnβt know how to change it. how i would sit there in a group conversation and hear everyone chiming in with interesting thoughts and witticisms and i was just dead quiet. and her response was something to the tune of βso what? whatβs wrong with being quiet?ββat which point my brain exploded and i burst into tears. it had never occurred to me that maybe being quiet was okay. that being quiet had its own strength and beauty to it, and perhaps if i spent less time resisting my nature and trying to force myself to be something or someone else, i could actually find a bit of peace in that quiet.β£
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this is also a tale of social anxiety, being a highly sensitive person, etc etc etc, so iβm not gonna claim iβm cured of my mental torment, BUT! boy was there a shift when i realized maybe i was okay just the way i was, and iβve spent the years since then trying to lean in to who THAT is. iβm no longer shy about confessing my anxieties to my friends and family, i donβt feel broken if iβm not talking as much as everyone else, and iβve learned to set some boundaries and say no to the things i know are just gonna wreck me. (that said, i still leave most gatherings and calls feeling like iβve just made all my friends stop liking meβitβs a work in progress π₯΄).β£
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so hereβs a song for all my fellow introverts, HSPs, socially anxious bbs (and the extroverts who accept us the way we are ππ»). i see you! you are whole and beautiful even if you never say a word out loud. πβ£
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you can download the mp3 of quiet from this post, or stream/download it in all the usual places here! https://ffm.to/kgquiet
thank you all for being the best best best xoxoxoxo
kina
Comments
So awesome!!!!!! Thank you so very much for just being you, Kina!!
2021-07-29 21:37:49 +0000 UTCIβve found a satisfying sort of peace listening to your music since In The Waiting was released. Iβm not explicitly introverted, myself. I do thrive off of human interaction, but too much of it is exhausting. Sometimes Iβll catch myself hanging out with my favorite people just listening and watching. When Iβve recharged a bit or I have something specific to contribute, Iβll speak back up, but in those times the best thing for me is to just sit and be quiet. And in my work, I interact with people all day. So I spend my evenings working or sitting in my gardenβjust enjoying the quiet and solitude of being outside. While I donβt completely identify with being an extrovert, this song speaks to me and brings me peace in ways similar to nearly all of your music since In The Waiting has. Thank you, Kina!
2021-07-27 23:11:01 +0000 UTCAnother beautiful song, Kina! And thank you for sharing your personal struggle. I guess I'll share, too. You probably don't remember since it was more than 10 years ago now (and not especially significant to anyone but me), but one of my first interactions with you was at the NorCal Street Team meet-up at the Palace of Fine Arts in San Francisco. When the Grannii arrived, you were all somewhat mobbed by everyone. Me, being the typical introvert, hung back, hoping that we'd get a chance to chat in a smaller group than the 25 or so people around you. After a while, I didn't think I'd get the opportunity, but when I happened to be sitting awkwardly by myself, I looked up to see you approaching me! Somehow you noticed me and made the effort to come talk! We had a short one-on-one chat, you signed my ukulele... and I've loved you ever since! π₯°β€οΈ I don't have a huge struggle with being an introvert, but appreciate how considerate you are of those who do. And I'm sure many will identify with this song. Introverts unite! [And then part ways before we get too awkward and overwhelmed. π]
2021-07-25 00:53:55 +0000 UTCAnother one I'll be playing on repeat. Thank you for sharing this with us <3
2021-07-24 19:05:08 +0000 UTCI love this so much - thank you for sharing another part of yourself through this songπ
2021-07-24 17:32:53 +0000 UTCBeautiful song.
2021-07-24 13:56:42 +0000 UTCthank you Kina π sending out love to all introverts
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2021-07-24 09:03:13 +0000 UTCThis is such a beautiful story of a beautiful human, Kina! β€οΈ
milaerif
2021-07-24 06:30:18 +0000 UTC
