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Welp. She's here. With no further ado, my I introduce you to the newest song, "I Never Wanted Anything More Than I Wanted You."

The first time these words came out of my mouth I immediately started crying. There's something powerful that happens when you admit to yourself out loud the extent to which you are yearning for something, the extent to which you are hurting. It can break your heart into a million little pieces, but somehow that's better than the pressure cooker of trying to dismiss your emotions and make them smaller. Acknowledging and respecting where I was at allowed me to fully step into my heartache and give myself permission to feel all these things, and in some ways it was a first step in realizing I needed to be a bit kinder to myself, too. This is a song about yearning and loss and the delicate balance of trying to accept the path you're on while not letting it rob you of hope in the process.

I've put the lyrics below for anyone who wants to dive a bit deeper. Thank you all for being so wonderful lately (and always!!!). Sending so much love. <3

xo

Kina

p.s. you can download/stream it in all the places here: https://ffm.to/inwamtiwy

p.p.s. patron download here :)

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“I Never Wanted Anything More Than I Wanted You” Lyrics


i’m at my lowest, caught in a moment, trying to get over this

all of the marks i’ve logged on the page, the waiting has got me sick 

i can’t get away from it now

i can’t get away from it now


i try to think lightly, picture the lines and hope that the feeling sticks

where we’re all smiling, holding the prize, i can almost imagine it

but i can’t even let myself now

i can’t even let myself now


i feel you in the sea washing over me, something in the moving tides

every fallen leaf seems to say to me, “everything in time”


i never wanted anything more than i wanted you

i never wanted anything more than i wanted you

come back to me

i never wanted anything more than i wanted you


i look at the trees and fall into pieces, god i am sick of this

if i believe that this is for me, can i make the most of it

i can feel the weight of it now

i can feel the weight of it now


i feel you in the sea washing over me, something in the moving tides

every fallen leaf seems to say to me, “everything in time”


i never wanted anything more than i wanted you

i never wanted anything more than i wanted you

come back to me

i never wanted anything more than i wanted you

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Comments

Not ashamed to admit I cry... And alot of your songs bring tears to my eyes

I've been feeling so broken these days and I'm having such a hard time just being with myself. I cry so often and I've already had 5 panic attacks in the last week. My heart is just constantly hurting and I'm so overwhelmed. This song ... I can't stop crying. I can only imagine how painful it must have been to write this and even how genuinely emotional in the video. Thank you for always pouring your heart into your music. It makes me feel a tiny bit of warmth when I am in the coldest and darkest places in my mind. Your music always connects me to being a human. I feel so sad for your infertility but I am constantly wishing you all the love the world can offer you in any possible way. You of all people deserve it.

Lovely song Kina. And happy anniversary 🙂

Knowing where you are emotionally is half the journey - most people can't even figure that part out. Some things you have to feel your way through.

You are the strongest and most courageous person I know. I am sending you all the energy and love Kina ♡

Thank you.

Gretchen

P.S. If the word God makes you uncomfortable, just replace every occurrence of it with happiness. I can say with confidence that the vast majority of the humans out there that believe in God are equating him with happiness.

Chris Derbidge

I hope you will read this book Kina: https://archive.org/details/suitablechild00dunc_0 Love, the Derbidges P.S. I have an extra copy of an original hard copy from 1909. I would like to send it to you. How may I accomplish that?

Chris Derbidge

I've listened to the song several times today. The lyrics and the video are heartbreaking. I cannot convey how brave you are for sharing this and for making it through every day of this journey. All of the love and comfort I have to you and Jesse ❤ Thank you

STOP THIEF! Not Labour is Life: Labour is a thing accomplished in provision. Love is Life; and Love is di- versely concerned. Whoso loves a child loves not himself but God; whoso delights a child labours with God in His work- shop of the world of hearts; whoso helps a child brings the Kingdom of God; whoso saves a child from the fingers of evil sits in the seat with the builders of cities and the procurers of peace. Nor happily is this divine achievement beyond the aspi- ration of such as are poor, such as are humble, such as are ignorant, such as have tasted failure, such as are stricken, such as are acquainted with the utmost deprivation. Into the keeping of the humble is in this reasonable way committed the salvation of the world; the poor and the meek and the broken in heart, greater in multitude than the mighty, are like the mighty in their power and in their wisdom and in their many-riches of aims and means and rewards. They who being able in any proper way to provide those pleasures of Christmas which are meet and due according to the established custom but still withhold them from children do thieve jewels from the helpless; and herein is a mystery: that these stolen riches do in no way benefit the robbers, but change in their very hands to the weeds of selfish ways, which spring poisonously and enfold and constrict. They who go about pro- claiming against the festival joy—they who interpose a specious wisdom—they who would destroy the fairy-fictions of the Time—they who withdraw into themselves—they who are dried up and selfish and self-sufficient and niggardly and suspicious and narrow-believing—they who preach a departure from the customs of the fathers—they who discover selfishness in anxious generosity—they who com- plain and sneer and ridicule—they who stop their ears against laughter and lift sour faces to the morning : all such do aid and abet the theft of in- nocent delight and having spread corruption do stand in peril of the same punishment. Let them all beware lest they perish indeed! Age is upon them—no tender hand of the years to beautify and gladden: but terrible age of the spirit to wither and to kill. Stop thief! From The Suitable Child By Norman Duncan

Chris Derbidge

My friend who is a songwriter and producer always talks about creating songs that are "generally specific"....personal enough for yourself, but accessible to any listener. I feel that all of your songs do this well. This song is no different, but it's one of the ones that takes up so deep. It's so, so heavy, yet lightens the load. To hear about your journey and then hear this, my hearts goes out to you and Jesse. At the same time, listening to the lyrics, especially toward the middle of the song, took me my deepest moments of despair from the past. The current me is not weighed down by that, but I've never rebounded to that free and happy place I was at prior to my loss. I believe that rebound will come to me and I believe the same for you. This video shows a beautiful mix of vulnerability and strength. It looks like heaven, the sun, and the wind are giving you a hug in this video.

i didn't know about the infertility stuff until now. I'm really sorry about all of the grief and pain... in reading your instagram post, i hope one way or another you find peace. Whether through the IVF route or otherwise, I wish you the best. Stay strong. &lt;3 to you 2.

Drew Tepper

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Drew Tepper

Tear Tears Bucket of tears. So sorry for your loss. Hugs Hugs to you and Jesse.

Such a beautiful, yet painful song. My heart breaks listening to it, but somehow feel healed at the same time. So much love to Kina and Jesse


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